Im in deep depression...please help...

I was bullied from when I was 6 to around 17 years old so I know how you must feel but thinking about it all over again is one of the worst things you can do regarding this.

It looks like you're holding on to it way too tight and my payo is you must try to let the past go because there is nothing you can do to change it though I completely understand if it only ended short time ago.

My other payo is to go out and try to meddle with people again even though it is extremely tough. I admit I have a hard time doing it too after being bullied for so many years but if you don't do it, you'll never get over your fear of being bullied again.

You know I'm a victim too (except I had mga kaibigan when I was a kid) & I suffer from mild depression about other issues in my life. Now I recently watched a video in one of my classes @ school about teen depression & encouraging victims of it to get help. I would strongly recommend you do, but if your anything like me who doesn't want my parents to find out or be caught going to the school counselor's office & be judged sa pamamagitan ng others for it, tell your best friend or another close person you trust (I talk to someone who struggles a lot as well) because even though they may not be perfect or don't know how to help, sometimes it even just helps to get it off your chest. It's good to walk through these storms of life with someone, it just makes you feel a whole lot better & in your case, just let/accept people encourage you so that the damage can be undone.
P.S. You are the most amazing, beautiful, friendliest & decent person I know on the planet (& I'm not joking!!)