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There's nowhere to run.
There's nowhere to hide.
You can't escape,
from the pain inside.

You're mind is lost.
Fear has taken over
and insanity has caved in.

Voices in your head tell you to walk
out the front door
and down to the dock.

At the edge you stand
In your lovely gown
took one madami step
And began to drown.

You become aware
and gasp for air.

Waves crash in
and you choke on water
You're suffocating now
you start to wonder will anyone save me?

Tears started to show.
It's too late to be saved.
It's too late to be found.

Another death gone by
These happen everyday
From thoughts of suicide.




Poem made sa pamamagitan ng me.
posted by SaturdaySurpris
•    Make a commitment to yourself
Challenge the self-bullying habit and make a commitment to taking care of yourself as best you possibly can for the moment.
•    Reduce the risks
Protect yourself from impulsively pagganap on your thoughts sa pamamagitan ng putting dangerous objects out of immediate reach. Preferably give pills, weapons etc to someone else for safe-keeping, but even putting them in a locked or inaccessible place makes it a little harder to act impulsively.
•    Tell someone how you're feeling
Tell someone else how you are feeling...
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we may b different,we may b quiet,we may look different,we may act different,but put those differences aside. we r each a human,we r each a person,and we each have our pride. So what makes us different???i'll tell u why...

Emo,Goth,Misunderstood,or even depressed, each contain a feeling of frustration and distress. Those feelings come inside of us and stay in our souls,they eat our flesh in other words our happiness.

When happiness fades away,the negative feelings are the only ones that stay.

Some people wonder,they wonder what-who we are who we are.
We are who we are because our past or present...
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 ❤ Inori and Shu❤
❤ Inori and Shu❤
These days you don't pag-ibig me no more.
Nor am I still treasured sa pamamagitan ng you
And this way, I'll be all alone

That is how you always
Make me mad and cry in the end
But I loved
How your face looked when you said, "I'm sorry"
Afterwards

Please do not let me go
Hold me tight--Yes, with all my heart
I want to be in your arms
Together, with our foreheads touching
We'll fall asleep



Such a beautiful song.The feels :'( The anime this song is from, which is Guilty Crown, made me depressed for a very long time. I still get really sad when I listen to this song.
Leave me out with the waste
This is not what I'd do
It's the wrong kind of place
To be thinking of you
It's the wrong time
For somebody new
It's a small crime
And I've got no excuse

Is that alright?
Give my gun away when it's loaded
Is that alright?
If you don't shoot it how am I supposed to hold it
Is that alright?
Give my gun away when it's loaded
Is that alright
With you?

Leave me out with the waste
This is not what I'd do
It's the wrong kind of place
To be cheating on you
It's the wrong time
She's pulling me through
It's a small crime
And I've got no excuse

Is that alright?
Give my gun away when it's loaded
Is that...
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posted by Clutch13
These are lyrics to a rap song I just wrote... I'm gonna sing em to this beat...

link

So.. ya can kinda follow with the vid and the lyrics. It tells me when to come in and what not...

(0:29)
I bought a rope today. Make all the pain of this life go away. Don't really see a reason for me to stay. Shit job, shit pay, can't see a better way. To let it all end, there's nothing to defend. Just the stress filling me up like some bloody depends. So for only seven dollars and twenty seven cents, I found a fifty foot rope to balutin around my neck.
(1:10)
I bought a rope today. May be the best investment that...
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posted by cutiepie0310
Black is the color
that the sad wear in mourning
feeling of wanting them back.

Black is the color
that befriends you when no one else is there
that holds you in a prison with no escape
keeping you from happiness
hiding in a dark corner of a room.

Black is hot coffee in the morning,
a bat flying through caves,
scratching of fingernails against a chalkboard,
a cat's silky fur.

Black is the night sky revealing stars,
Ghosts lurking in the shadows,
a monster's ferocious scream,
evil that lies within your soul.
posted by Tenten110
Every time somebody helps her she holds on to him.
They try to give her hope not realizing that they embody that hope
then they suddenly vanish and take away pieces of her
and her hope is gone
Once again, left alone
This will continue until she's completely empty
Being robbed, one sa pamamagitan ng one
Until she turns numb
Her dusty glass crown
has shattered to pieces long ago
Depression is what envelopes her every day

Crying 'til her tears dry out
'Til her eyes are red
They will always look dead
Laying in her bed
"You will be fine, don't cry!"
That's what they said.

Being lied to, every day
In every way
It's always the same...
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posted by anilesenight
The bahaghari full of color and light
broken dreams and tears in flight
bedtime stories to fall asleep
nightmares awaken to disturb me

shadows glide across the room
shifting shapes and violent jerks
getting closer, setting fire
scary faces and disturbing smirks

these faces in my dreams are nothing as they seem
freeing demons to come control me
setting apoy to the rain as i sleep
you're nothing as i thought you be

sparkles fall from the sky and burn my eyes
a haunting scene of melting light
ipakita me something to set me free
to escape this place of foresaken reality

crackling embers burn my skin
sounds of bells ring in my ears
peoples misery drawing in fears
touch me and watch me fall to the ground

fancy charms, rude awakenings
multicolored hearts fill the pages of my mind
dark memorys erase once was
my soul forever Nawawala never was kind

i know life isnt always
worth while but I know
Ill find someone who
will treat me like I should

Only In My Dreams
posted by StolenPride
Nothing feels good anymore. I feel like every little bit of happiness is a mapait piece of kendi that’s supposed to be sweet but instead makes my stomach churn . I feel messed up and out of place as if without the thing my mother ripped from my puso I can no longer survive. Have you ever felt as if someone was your rock and without them you’ll sink? Well, imagine that rock being torn right out from under you. All you can do is sink. All you can do is drown. When emotions became to much to handle I became an artist. I painting was my favorite. I liked to watch the paint drip and then dry. Nobody’s perfect. I’ve been trying to reach my mothers expectations and every time I seem inches away from them they seem to ilipat farther. I don’t know what to do. I feel like my whole world is falling apart. I’m already drowning so it’s not like I can scream for help. If I do... I might choke.
I was once in the pit of all darkness...
Where all my fears and anything and everything didn't matter.... where nothing helped.
No love.
No help.
No one cared.
At least... thats how it felt...
No one noticed because of the mask, the mask everyone see's...

I felt like everyone would either be better off if I just DIED or might even throw a party!
Ha! I used to think thats what they all wanted they just acted nice.
I felt I didn't deserve there kindess.
Thats what I 'thought'.
Every night crying my self asleep,
every night thinking of how to kill my self,
every night praying...

praying God would kill...
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posted by blossomyumyum
What exactly is depression? Is it when you stab your arm, just to feel? Is it a broken heart, a sense of feeling but nothing?

Depression is walking slow, afraid.
Depression are the cuts and scars on your body, haunting every little piece of you that's about to crumble.

Depression is a loss, a death of what you were, who you are now.

Depression is a disorder, depression is anything but normal.

Depression is a child screaming for help as a parent holds it's neck.

Depression is a teenager trying to fit in their new school, just trying to make a friend.


Depression is an adult, hunting for that job...
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posted by FreeAwesomeness
(This is actually something that has happened to me at school. For those of you who have been through bullying or are going through it right now, I understand how you feel.)
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“Just ilipat to the back of the line, where you belong.”
The words you told me slowly began to rip me apart. I hung my head down in shame, knowing you were right. I DID belong at the back and the bottom of everything. I turned around, and went to where you had ordered me to go. I know I wasn’t supposed to let the opinions of others define me, but I think it’s a bit too late for that. Every opinion...
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I'm so tired f being depressed. I didn't know why it started at first. In Ninth grade I started having this constant feeling inside and I didn't know what it was but, now I do. I have since 10th grade started. Life is so hard when you've been diagnosed with seve deepression and you already knew you have it. It's hard when people accuse you of doing or being something your not. It's hard when people judge you silently from afar or straight to your face. I don't cut bullshit like this though. When petty jerks give yoou ahard time just ignore them, I've learned that. I was bullied for 7 and a...
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posted by hottie23
I used to have really bad depression and I didn't even know it. I thank God every araw that I continue to get better. One of my closest mga kaibigan who is younger than me has depression too. We are both shy but have lots of mga kaibigan and being so similar to her I understand what she's going through. When people ask me what's going on with her I always wonder how they can not see that she is hurting emotionally when it's right in front of their face.

I hate how there are pictures and other stuff in this spot and on the internet that make depression seem like a cool fad. It's not. Depression is dangerous,...
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posted by depression12
 Books About Depression, Entangle
Books About Depression, Entangle
THE EFFECT ON DEPRESSION

"What is it?" Depression is a mental disorder that affects the brains way of thinking. I wanted to share this after pagbaba the sequel to Entwine's book "Entangle." The book is rather dark and pretty intense, however it does have a deeper meaning about control and vulnerability. Entangle dives deep into the reality of depression and sadly takes it in a way composed of a fantasy. While the book isn't based on fantasy. pantasiya in this book refers to unusual desires about love. And Entangle throws it out there in a way I believe is worse then the Entwine book itself. Entangle...
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If I was gone, who would I leave behind?
If I was gone, would anyone care?
Would I be better off away from my lonely life?
Would I make it better, if I was gone.
No one seems to care. Do they pag-ibig me?
Do they even know?
The fact that I am empty inside?
Sometimes I want to say "Forget it all."
Does anyone need me?
Do I have a reason to be here?
All I have...is what?
None of it matters anymore,
I am tired of the mess that is my life.
Am I meant to be?
I don't know.
But will it change?
Do I have a strength?
Is there a lighter side?
A door that can be opened?
I can't open it now.
Is it too early?
...or too late?
Is...
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posted by SaturdaySurpris
Managing Stress Levels



This is an important longer-term strategy for resisting depression.

Stress, anger and anxiety

How we habitually deal with stress plays an important role in our vulnerability to depression. Certain depressed thinking habits make us particularly vulnerable also to anxiety or anger spirals, which in turn contribute to the depression habit spiral.

Control - the holy grail

Anxiety and anger spirals arise mainly from the kinds of depressed thinking which focus on imposing unrealistic control over life: rule-bound thinking, control freakery, catastrophising, hyper-vigilance and avoidance....
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posted by blossomyumyum
I walk on a cold, mysterious path. It isn't safe- you cannot trust anyone anymore, can you, my dear? I'm sorry, darling, I messed up and made you lose me. I am a mess in a dress who can't be fixed. But, oh! I told you it all. Things I swore to never tell a soul. I'm sorry for being a wreck, I'm sorry for fights, I'm sorry for everything. Please, oh, please, take me in. I'm cold and slowly resting for the night. I'm so sorry I'm dramatic, I'm so sorry I make you hate upon me. I'm sorry, my baby, may you forgive me?
posted by canal
"Go die" they say when they pass me in the halls. Yes, i may have blonde hair contacts that make my eyes look red snakebites tatoos and black clothing but does that mean you have to hurts me. "Kill me now please" i beg god everyday. "Pathetic girl" mother sinabi slapping me leaving a red mark. "Shut the f*** up" my sister says kicking me down. Father? do you hear me? please come back to me.
Since when has my depression gone to suicide? i have no idea. "I'm so sorry" he'd say wrapping his arms around me my only friend. Chaner? Do you hear me? i may be a horrible friend but i still pag-ibig you.
Do i...
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