They arrive to the hotel without saying a word, go to their room and lock the door.
‘You’re not gonna say anything? You know, something like:’ Cuddy imitates House’s tone. ‘Yeah, nice guy, you choose your boyfriends very well...’
House looks at her serious and without saying anything goes to the bathroom and close the door. Cuddy gets angry. ‘Hey, do not ignore me!’
House wets his faces and sits on the floor while Cuddy is shouting and knocking at the door. ‘Can you tell me what the hell was that? Can't behave as an adult once in your life?’ House takes a vicodin pill and looks at the ceiling.
‘David hasn't done anything wrong to you. What the hell were you doing? If you were jealous stop pretending that you don't care about anything.’
House stands up and opens the door. ‘I don't care what you did with your personal life in the past, and that guy looked like a jerk!’ He goes out of the bathroom and starts looking for his pajamas.
‘Why? Because he was with me? You too, but he didn't drink so much and he could remember, you know?’
‘Okay, this is enough Lisa.’ He takes the room’s keys and goes out of the room. Cuddy stands still in silence. ‘Greg... Shit!’ She puts on her pajamas and lies on the bed, sad.
House walks near the hotel thinking. ‘Fuck..’
Cuddy can’t sleep, goes to the balcony and tries to convince herself. ‘He is an idiot! He is just an egocentric, selfish and unbearable guy.’
House keeps walking around there and talks to himself. ‘Jealous!! Me?? Jealous?? What a stupid claim!! Jealous of that monkey with expensive shoes, just because... he... shared a part of his life... with Lisa...’ He stops walking and starts feeling so strange.
Lisa keeps talking to herself, too. ‘Fuck Lisa! Stop thinking about him! He has no feelings for anybody, even less for you! He is just an idiot who has to assume that my asno is mine and I do whatever I want with whoever I want...’
‘Shit!’ House hits his forehead with his hand and bites his fist. Whereas, Cuddy still cannot sleep. It’s been a while since House has gone. She takes her cell phone to dial House’s number. ‘What do I do?...’ She presses the call key but hangs up before it sounds. House feels stupid and goes back to the room, then he opens the door and comes in. She opens her eyes and turns to look at the door. She doesn’t say anything, but he does.
‘Umm... I... I just wanted to apologize. I've behaved like a child... even madami than normal I mean...’
Cuddy nods and goes inside the room. ‘Actually I’m used to it... this is nothing that hasn’t happened hundred times before...’
‘Yeah, I guess...’ He looks around.
‘I'm sorry too.. for shouting...I Nawawala my temper...’
‘I’m used to it too... don’t worry.’
They stay in front of each other in silence looking around. Cuddy looks at him. ‘C-can... can I ask you a question? It’s silly but I need to know...’
‘If I had a dollar every time someone has sinabi that to me...’
‘Were you... jealous of.. David?’
House tries to answer as fast as he can. ‘Jealous?? Of course I wasn't!!!’
Cuddy smiles a little disappointed. ‘Ah... okay... I thought...Well you seemed. Silly me. You! Jealous! Of someone else!’ She laughs slightly.
House, ashamed, looks at the floor and starts blushing. ‘Well... I wasn't..’
She looks at him frowning. ‘Are you... blushing?
‘Me?? At all!’ He rubs his face wih his hands and she approaches to him and holds his hands to look at his face. Cuddy bites her lower lip and frowns. House look at her doing that and shakes his head before looking up to her eyes.
They get separated, put on their pajamas and get into bed. Time passes and they can only hear their breaths. Both are awake but in silence. Cuddy can’t sleep thinking about all that happened today, and specially thinking about the strange behavior of House. She wants to know the truth. ‘I’m going to ask David to go out with me...’
House turns to look at her. ‘What??!!’
She doesn’t look at him, just sighs and repeats what she’s said. ‘I'm going to ask David to go out with me.’
‘But... why?? You haven't seen him for years!! You don't even know if he's seeing someone... and you don't pag-ibig him!!!’
‘It was nice to see him and you have no idea about me and who and what I like or dislike.’
‘Yes, well, yes, maybe, but I'm not stupid and I know you don't like him. Come on, you can't like him!!’
She turns on her side. ‘Yes, right, I don't like him. I just wanna check one thing, thank you for your help...’
‘What?? Are you doing some kind of experiment??’
‘No, I just wanted to see your reaction.’
‘Are you using me?? Like a daga in a lab??’
She looks at him. ‘I wanted to see the real Greg...’
‘Ha!! The real Greg.... and you’re gonna use secret cameras and hidden microphones in my bathroom too?? Very fun Lisa!!’ He turns and shows his back.
‘Are you angry?’
‘I'm ... I'm.... anxious to know the answer to my question: what am I for you then, if I'm not just an employee??’
‘You... you are... an special friend with an... special character... and...and...’ She turns and shows her back. ‘Goodnight.’
House sounds a bit angry. ‘And what?? Come on Lisa, do not hide!!! Face your problem!! What else??!!’
‘And I don't know who is worse, if you or me! After twenty years why can't you admit that you feel something for me? Something madami than sexual attraction...’
Greg looks to the mattress in silence.
‘Come on! Face this. You know, I know, everybody knows it...’
He looks at her. ‘Then why are you fucking asking???!!!’
‘Because I want to hear it from you.’
House sagot angrily. ‘Well, if you take the trouble of doing all this is because you feel something for me, am I wrong??’
Cuddy is very angry now and words came out of her mouth. ‘YES I feel something! That's what you wanted to hear? There you have it.’
House remains shocked and Cuddy keeps shounting angry. ‘Yes, House, you are not just an employee, you're the fucking employee who I cannot control, and who always get whatever he wants and who eventually is going to drive me mad.’
A few segundos later, House is madami calmed. ‘Fire me then, it will be better for your health...’
‘You don't want... which is quite different...’
‘You want to resign? You're free to do it. There is nothing important for you in that damn hospital. Why don't you quit if it’s what you want?’
‘I don't have any reason for leaving the hospital and I'm not going to resing to a job that I enjoy!! And I have madami reasons than you think...’
‘Oh yes? Really? I don’t think so.’ They turn and ipakita their back to each other. ‘You are a coward.’
House replies. ‘Look who's talking...’
‘What else do you want me to say?’
‘Nothing... you've sinabi a lot of things today...’
‘Yes, you should think about all of them and meditate a bit.’
He turns to look at her. ‘Why do you think I'm not doing it??’
‘Because you are House, you don't care about everything else that has nothing to do with you.’
‘You think you know me but you don't...’
‘I know you as far as you let people to know you; as far as you let me to know you. And you will never change.’
House starts shouting angrily. ‘Years nakaraan I was different and I got hurt!! I'm not gonna get hurt again!! I DON'T WANT TO GET HURT AGAIN!!!’
‘You know, everybody gets hurt, you’re not special, and that's not a reason to send everything to hell. You are not the only one who have got hurt. I get hurt, people get hurt, and they don't give up.’
‘It's easier sinabi than done!!’
Cuddy looks at the ceiling and sighs. ‘It's easier not to do something and avoid trying. If you don't try, you don't get what you want.’
‘If you don't try, you don't fail... When you've got nothing, you've got nothing to lose.’
‘If you have nothing to lose why you don't try?’
House remains thinking. ‘You might win something and then lose it, and everything would be even worse.’
‘No, it would be the same. And at least you have tried and you've learned something new. You are very pessimistic. Not always goes wrong.’
‘It has never gone right for me.’
‘It's you choice. For everything. You can be a coward all your life, it’s your decision.’
‘Coward... I would like to see how you would react in my position.’
She chuckles. ‘What is exactly your position?’
‘A man who got hurt sa pamamagitan ng someone he loved and who has Nawawala all his faith in human beings.’
‘Everybody has been hurt sa pamamagitan ng someone who loved. Losing your faith in humans only hurt people who pag-ibig you.’
‘And who loves me? That's not a problem for me...’
She sighs. ‘Wilson... loves you, in his own way... I-I pag-ibig you...’
House frowns and she gets nervous because of what she just said. Cuddy keeps talking. ‘You think you know everything but you know nothing. You think you're the only miserable in the world, but if you are is only because you want.’
‘I don't want to be miserable... life has made me a miserable person...’
‘And you do nothing to change it.’ Cuddy sighs for the twenty third time tonight. ‘House, am I just a boss for you?’
He remains thinking but doesn’t answer. Cuddy sighs, again.
‘You know? I think I'll call David tomorrow...’
‘Because I want...I don't need to give you an explication... I'm tired of waiting.’
‘Of waiting... for what?’
She looks at him. ‘A worth guy.’
Greg looks at the mattress disappointed. ‘Well... good luck with your research of your perfect guy...’ He turns sad and lies again.
‘I'm not looking for a perfect guy. I'm looking for a guy with whom I have confidence, to whom I can yell, laugh with... be myself...’
‘A guy like... David?’
‘No. Like... you.’
To be continued...
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