It's supposed to be a secret but really it's a dream that will never come true. Actually it is two different dreams.
The first is that she is my babysitter and gets to tell me when to go to bed.
The segundo is that she is my nanny and gets to tell me what to do all the time.
I'm not sure how it relates!
I guess I first heard about Miss Jade when i was 14. At first i thought she was way older than i was but i guess it was because of her makeup and the way the picture looked like.
All i knew was how pretty she is and imagined how it would be to have her in charge of me. Then i found out she was three years younger than me and i got kind of embarrassed of thinking that way.
I had to have a babysitter until i was 15 but mainly because i sometimes had blackouts. When my cousins lived susunod door, i usually stayed with them and they were older than me except for one who was five years younger and she liked to pretend to be a babysitter and i didn't mind playing games with her.
Once my older cousin teased her about not knowing how to take care of a real baby and that got got her mad, so she started looking at the internet for help.
I let her practice with me since everybody else was older than us and didn't really want to help.
At first it was just funny. But she really worked hard and got good at it. I just thought i was helping her but she seemed to think she was really my babysitter and when i tried to complain the other guys sinabi to shut up because i did say i would pretend with her. But that was when we did homework together and she gave me gatas and cookies.
She wanted to put diapers on me and change me. She promised i could keep my undies on all the time and she did keep her promise though it was still weird to be changed sa pamamagitan ng her and had to wear a bib and get fed sa pamamagitan ng her.
It did just seem silly and nobody i knew ever found out. And the me and her started walking to school together and became pretty good mga kaibigan since I had to stay back couple of years.
But then i started dreaming a lot about Miss Jade and it became that i pretended Miss Jade was actually my real babysitter.