laurel Lance-Pilot

Daddy thinks I’m afraid
I’m afraid of never finding a pag-ibig that fits me
Well, he’s right in a way
Because everyday I fear madami that we will never be

I’m zoning out on you and I can’t breathe
You’re haunting my thoughts so I can’t sleep
And even though I know we could never be
I don’t wanna lose this fantasy

Can I just close my eyes
And imagine you are susunod to me
Can I just pretend my life
to be so much madami than it seems
Can I just ignore the pain
Can I please tumawid your way
It’s so hard to keep it inside
I just wanna pag-ibig you, can I

Mommy mocks the fact I once
I once loved you but doesn’t...

Boy, I hate you
Why you have to be the way that you are
If only you were different
It would make it much easier for me to ilipat on

I thought you finally belonged to the past
But who am I kidding, you’re a pag-ibig that seems to last

My puso breaks whenever I think of you
And my soul dies ‘cause I know it will never be true
It’s getting madami obvious everyday
I’m in pag-ibig with you, again

It’s getting harder
To ilipat on without you every day
But you don’t even know me
I should just get a life and go my own way

My puso breaks whenever I think of you
And my soul dies ‘cause I know it will never be true...

Here I stand
My puso beating out of my chest
Here I stand
Trying to leave it all to rest

I'm taking small steps forward
Big steps backwards
'Cause this is the last where I wanna be
I'm swallowing my fear
And I'm gathering my courage
'Cause you're the last person I wanna see

But if I wanna get over this I need to get through this
There can't be no healing without pain
And I can't conceal it
And I won't believe it
That all of it would've been in vain

You promised I'd never be
Anything I saw in me
You didn't I'd make it to the big leagues
You never thought I'd stand a chance
But yet here I am
At some place you will...