As we grow up we leave behind the simple things... what would the world be if we just stayed in our lala land of childhood?
When do wobbley steps turn in to fearless sprints? How is it that our mothers kisses lose their powers when you need them most? When does a modest squart turn in to a slutty skirt? At what point does sparkely eyeshadow fill in for water colours? And eye liner replaces markers? When did undies turn in to lacey panties? Why must holding hand with a friend mean something more? At what age are we when rain boots get tossed aside for hooker boots? When did "I pag-ibig you mommy" turn in to screams of hatred for the woman who raised you? Why must our evil story book witches come alive as mean, self-centered bitches? How is it possible that some were in our lives we stopped drawing and making puso and started to break and mend others hearts? Why must songs of joy and fun turn in to to raps of hate and pain?
When do wobbley steps turn in to fearless sprints? How is it that our mothers kisses lose their powers when you need them most? When does a modest squart turn in to a slutty skirt? At what point does sparkely eyeshadow fill in for water colours? And eye liner replaces markers? When did undies turn in to lacey panties? Why must holding hand with a friend mean something more? At what age are we when rain boots get tossed aside for hooker boots? When did "I pag-ibig you mommy" turn in to screams of hatred for the woman who raised you? Why must our evil story book witches come alive as mean, self-centered bitches? How is it possible that some were in our lives we stopped drawing and making puso and started to break and mend others hearts? Why must songs of joy and fun turn in to to raps of hate and pain?
i can't think,
my mind is poisoned,
my mind is trapped...
So many thoughts,
the fear is coming,
it's waiting.
How strong are you to
fight,
how weak are you to
deny?
Don't find me,
i'd rather stay here,
so far away from
your ruthlessness.
Tears of despair
are calling your name,
and you want to drag
me there...
The way you possess me
is so cruel,
why don't you leave me alone?
I'm not like the others,
they might be stronger
or weaker,
it depends how you
see it.
The darkness is all over,
poisoning my mind,
the fear is itching,
it's everywhere,
won't go away!
It stains my soul,
i'm shaking,
despair won't let me.
So many thoughts,
but nothing's resolved
yet,
it's just fear
holding me,
hauling me deeper
into its ruthlessness.
I don't want this,
so be gone,
you live inside me,
but you don't know.
Tears of despair
are calling your name,
they want to drive you away,
so i could feel safe,
so i could be far away,
so far of your ruthlessness.
ilipat through your day
This quiet puwang that you fill
Here sa pamamagitan ng a dark moon
Filled up from the rain in my eyes
My fingers are cold on your skin
Dream me away
Before the night becomes day
You'll see it all come true
This water is deep
You go to sleep
And silently
Dream me away
I have a picture
It rests in my hand
I opened my window tonight
I have a feeling
It will be okay
My senses will guide me through
I'll dream us away
Before the night becomes day
I'll see it all come true
This water is deep
We’ll go to sleep
And silently dream us away
And silently dream
And silently
us
away
away...
The moon above, full and bright, casts an eerie glow among the mist.
A gentle midnight breeze whistles through the winter trees
Waving ridgedly to the winter rhythm
The ground is hard from the freeze, the dirt cruches under your feet
In the distance a lobo howls, its haunting voice pierces your soul
The ghosts of the forest creep from the trees
Their cold embrace freezes you to your core
Desperate to escape you look into the shadows of the forest
A light in the distance softly shines, beckoning you to sumali it.
You run, ignoring the distorted screaming faces from the trees, desperate to reach the comforting light.
You finally come to it, the light is bright, warm and welcoming
As you get closer it engulfs you, sucking you into its protective glow
Soon you emerge into a different world but it is the same from where you came
A mirror world...
Darkness to Light...
Once again, another one of my short yet dark poems...
I hope I don't cause any depression to anyone!
*NOTE* I am planning on Pagsulat a madami spiritual poem
Control
My life is controlled and I'll never know what its like to be free
I will never get out of this hole of sorrow and I will become burdened with a lifeless soul
I dont believe anything will change as I stay captive like an animal in its cage
The rage of my misery will never see the araw of freedom even though I long to fly above the trees to get away
But how can I if I am a prisoner?
I hope I don't cause any depression to anyone!
*NOTE* I am planning on Pagsulat a madami spiritual poem
Control
My life is controlled and I'll never know what its like to be free
I will never get out of this hole of sorrow and I will become burdened with a lifeless soul
I dont believe anything will change as I stay captive like an animal in its cage
The rage of my misery will never see the araw of freedom even though I long to fly above the trees to get away
But how can I if I am a prisoner?
I wasn't sure if I wanted to post this poem because it is quite personal but I figured why not...
Brother
Are you my brother or are you a vicious stranger?
How could you stand there and look at my innocent young face with such disgrace and treat me as if I was just trash to be thrown away?
You wear a mask of sweetness but I know what lies behind that fake gentle face you portray nothing but lies and hate...
araw after araw you throw your hand at me and then return for my forgiveness but now I am through with you...
No longer will I take your wrath of cruelty and you will see what a better person I have become after living in your world of misery
While you will sink further into your wretched world I will rise higher...away from you
Brother
Are you my brother or are you a vicious stranger?
How could you stand there and look at my innocent young face with such disgrace and treat me as if I was just trash to be thrown away?
You wear a mask of sweetness but I know what lies behind that fake gentle face you portray nothing but lies and hate...
araw after araw you throw your hand at me and then return for my forgiveness but now I am through with you...
No longer will I take your wrath of cruelty and you will see what a better person I have become after living in your world of misery
While you will sink further into your wretched world I will rise higher...away from you
(I'm just gonna put this here...)
The paruparo on my wrist
Gave me a goodbye kiss.
I broke my promises
And now look at this.
Tonight I'll stay up late.
Four AM, still awake.
With my smiles so fake,
This will make her puso break.
I know that I'm loved.
I always return your hugs,
But my thoughts are like thugs,
And the razor my drug.
This isn't the last time,
And I will pay for my crimes,
I'll pay for each self-made line,
But keep saying that I'm fine.
So tonight I'll sit and think.
From bitterness I will drink.
With the fading wounds pink,
And stains filling the sink.
If you promise to stay,
Don't leave me or push me away,
Then I promise to try.
I promise to not die.
I'll slow down just for you.
Because of all the things that you do.
I will try to stop bleeding
If you say "I pag-ibig you" like you mean it.
The paruparo on my wrist
Gave me a goodbye kiss.
I broke my promises
And now look at this.
Tonight I'll stay up late.
Four AM, still awake.
With my smiles so fake,
This will make her puso break.
I know that I'm loved.
I always return your hugs,
But my thoughts are like thugs,
And the razor my drug.
This isn't the last time,
And I will pay for my crimes,
I'll pay for each self-made line,
But keep saying that I'm fine.
So tonight I'll sit and think.
From bitterness I will drink.
With the fading wounds pink,
And stains filling the sink.
If you promise to stay,
Don't leave me or push me away,
Then I promise to try.
I promise to not die.
I'll slow down just for you.
Because of all the things that you do.
I will try to stop bleeding
If you say "I pag-ibig you" like you mean it.
Once upon a time,
The beginning of all stories,
But this is not a story,
So once upon a life,
I saw a young and beautiful woman
Who wears a golden face,
And she has a shining smile
One stair at her & my puso gets stolen,
I tried to stay away but I was blinded with only her image.
The image has your reflections, which makes me feel so free.
Pretending to know the future but yet the faith is endless.
As she turned n looked at me she became the deepest feeling.
I went to ask her name, and then I found it was you.
The beginning of all stories,
But this is not a story,
So once upon a life,
I saw a young and beautiful woman
Who wears a golden face,
And she has a shining smile
One stair at her & my puso gets stolen,
I tried to stay away but I was blinded with only her image.
The image has your reflections, which makes me feel so free.
Pretending to know the future but yet the faith is endless.
As she turned n looked at me she became the deepest feeling.
I went to ask her name, and then I found it was you.
Where broad-winged eagles fly.
The fences that encircle him
Are Mountains, stream and sky.
There's beauty in his regal heart
And in his gentle face,
And in the swiftness that combines
Such power, poise, and grace.
There's beauty in his noble stance
For it will always be
A part of all that untamed land
SO OPEN, WILD AND FREE
Credit to Herrmans Royal Lippizans Mayaka City,Florida
This was painted on the pader of their kamalig
i really applied to the Lippizans they had there
What do you do
when your strings are snapped
your roots detatched
your vesel cracked?
When you're filled with anger
Fear and hate?
And there's so much water
that you sink?
Or when the metaphors
you thought applied is bent
or worse, snapped
The word jumbles
The thoughts collide
Until you just cry
What do you do then?
When your life is in pieces?
And people can see the real you
Will it kill you?
Knowing your carefully crafted wall
has tumbled
chunks of ruble flying everywhere
That ruble kills, so you stay away
killing yourself
All you've known
Hate
Pain
Death
when your strings are snapped
your roots detatched
your vesel cracked?
When you're filled with anger
Fear and hate?
And there's so much water
that you sink?
Or when the metaphors
you thought applied is bent
or worse, snapped
The word jumbles
The thoughts collide
Until you just cry
What do you do then?
When your life is in pieces?
And people can see the real you
Will it kill you?
Knowing your carefully crafted wall
has tumbled
chunks of ruble flying everywhere
That ruble kills, so you stay away
killing yourself
All you've known
Hate
Pain
Death
While my mga kaibigan are out on the town
I stay tahanan alone
All sa pamamagitan ng myself
And no one calls the phone
Silence except the t.v on
Keeping me company
People think I'm lonely.
Yet, they don't understand
That I feel no void being alone
I enjoy it, so much
That it's become my crutch
I write
I draw
I use my mind for it all
Yet again
I wouldn't mind
To be invited somewhere.
Is it a problem that I like to be alone?
I don't think so
Yet others do
But once they're alone
They'll know not what to do
As for me,
I'll know what to do
I'll sleep, write, draw, or watch movies
Because even though no one's there
I do not have a problem being alone.
I stay tahanan alone
All sa pamamagitan ng myself
And no one calls the phone
Silence except the t.v on
Keeping me company
People think I'm lonely.
Yet, they don't understand
That I feel no void being alone
I enjoy it, so much
That it's become my crutch
I write
I draw
I use my mind for it all
Yet again
I wouldn't mind
To be invited somewhere.
Is it a problem that I like to be alone?
I don't think so
Yet others do
But once they're alone
They'll know not what to do
As for me,
I'll know what to do
I'll sleep, write, draw, or watch movies
Because even though no one's there
I do not have a problem being alone.
uy there!
How are you?
How have you been?
Life's been hard
Yet, I'm making it through.
I wish you were here
To live with me
Like the good ole days
Like back when we were kids
And a little bit older
I miss you.
uy there!
It seems like it's been forever
How's life treating you?
How's the kids?
I would pag-ibig to spend time
With you again
Yet, time goes by
It seems so quick
It can steal your youth
Or your energy
I've been so busy
With work and what not
So please forgive me
For not calling or emailing.
I missed you
Still miss you
I wrote to you four years back
But you never replied
So I was scared
That our friendship died.
Now I know
That it's not us
But it's just time
It won't slow down
It just keeps on.
So I'll conclude this conversation
sa pamamagitan ng saying a goodbye
I know it can be painful
But I will see you again
Someday.
How are you?
How have you been?
Life's been hard
Yet, I'm making it through.
I wish you were here
To live with me
Like the good ole days
Like back when we were kids
And a little bit older
I miss you.
uy there!
It seems like it's been forever
How's life treating you?
How's the kids?
I would pag-ibig to spend time
With you again
Yet, time goes by
It seems so quick
It can steal your youth
Or your energy
I've been so busy
With work and what not
So please forgive me
For not calling or emailing.
I missed you
Still miss you
I wrote to you four years back
But you never replied
So I was scared
That our friendship died.
Now I know
That it's not us
But it's just time
It won't slow down
It just keeps on.
So I'll conclude this conversation
sa pamamagitan ng saying a goodbye
I know it can be painful
But I will see you again
Someday.
My tears freely flow
Attempting to wash away the pain, the sorrow, the hate
The chrimson blood that flows hrough my vains boils causing an explosion
They say to trust, to just BeLIEve
But then they lie and double cross, shattering my heart
When all the tears have been cried,
and all the hate released
Then I'll be ok
Not todayNot tomorrow
You'll know when I'm ok
Any substancial pag-ibig is gone
Set aflame sa pamamagitan ng hate and lies
Love, gone, Nawawala forever
Hate growing, remembered forever
Crying untill my eyes hurt
wishing you were here
Wishing I was ok
Wishing you were ok
Wishing WE were ok
Feeling your touch
Needing your touch
Regretting everything
Slowly dying
I'll never be ok
Attempting to wash away the pain, the sorrow, the hate
The chrimson blood that flows hrough my vains boils causing an explosion
They say to trust, to just BeLIEve
But then they lie and double cross, shattering my heart
When all the tears have been cried,
and all the hate released
Then I'll be ok
Not todayNot tomorrow
You'll know when I'm ok
Any substancial pag-ibig is gone
Set aflame sa pamamagitan ng hate and lies
Love, gone, Nawawala forever
Hate growing, remembered forever
Crying untill my eyes hurt
wishing you were here
Wishing I was ok
Wishing you were ok
Wishing WE were ok
Feeling your touch
Needing your touch
Regretting everything
Slowly dying
I'll never be ok