I was kinda like that for a while. :/ Cause the dude I'm like totally madly in pag-ibig with is eighteen and I'm like fourteen (or somewhere thereabout) and because of a bunch of other tuktok secret and kind of embarrassing stuff that I'm not posting. But I learned that if you pag-ibig someone enough, and if it's meant to be, then it's possible to be together no matter what! C: Keep holding on and it will happen! xD It make take a while (took two years for me) but it will happen if it's supposed to. Cx
I totally feel your pain I have been in pag-ibig with this guy for years and he doesnt know. I was so shy to tell him so I kept it a secret and we were best mga kaibigan and now we dont even talk to each other. It really really hurts. He has a girlfriend and this perfect life i just wish it was me instead of her. Anytime I see him I just start smiling for no reason and get butterflies.. I have never been in pag-ibig with any other guy and no one even cimpares to him.. So ya i no how you feel.. pag-ibig hurts!
What sucks even madami is when that person tells you they like you and you're SO close to being with them, but then they choose to be with someone else. And then you have to watch them be all couple-y, knowing you can't have him now. Worst. Feeling. Ever.