fuck man look if you are feeling depressed then this isn't the slosion it will not make you feel better it will make you madami sad because you are seeking attention from others and it will not help your self esteem it will get lower try to make changes into your life forget what happened just look pasulong and live your araw no one likes to hear complains everybody have shit to deal with your life is in your hands to make it better not others opinion of you
I thinkha you are not horrible. Maybe you have depression? Maybe you need help? Try to talk to somebody about your feelings and you will feel better. And remember you are one of the best people in the world. :)
No. But, I can deduce that you are a person who has negative experience about herself in the past. You had experiences of people criticizing you and probably treated harsh for your small mistakes and manners. Also, you suffer from inferior complexity.