Have you ever been stuck lacking emapthy?
Not as in like, zombie-faced-no-emotion-prick type of empathy, but madami of a, you generally try to feel happy for someone or about something but it just flatlines into a "meh." sort of thing? I guess it's madami so apathy.
Or you laugh knowing damn well that you had to make it come out whether it be consciously or subconsciously sometimes?
I dunno, it's hard to explain I guess. It's like the older I get the less real laughter comes around. Or oddly enough, I can get happy enough but not know how to express it, so it just comes out as a blank/default slate of "*in Kratos voice* BOI, idgaf" sort of facial expression from what I've noticed.
I think I'm some sorta stuck yall XD