Bird wound stress :v Posted sa loob ng isang taon na ang nakalipas

Btw, meditation, stretches, and breathing gym / exercises (the ones we did when I was training with an open class DCI group) are good for loosening up body tension Posted sa loob ng isang taon na ang nakalipas

uy you people that cheat on Icon Contests and/or have multiple accounts, can yall like just use your other accounts to tagahanga this club so I can reach a number which theyll let me add a background XD Thatd be cool fam

Jk jk. Id be madami annoyed that the tagahanga count would be a poor representation of the people who are / were interested in this club Posted sa loob ng isang taon na ang nakalipas

Im messing up my schedule and cant write cos Im in too pissy of a mood

I already missed an animal volunteer araw since I was busy yesterday

And Im already behind on exercising :v Posted sa loob ng isang taon na ang nakalipas

If you are going to be a parent, please go through extensive planning before hand so you can be responsible with it. Even if its an accident child, please plan while pregnant.

And please

Never

Use

Pregnancy

As

A

Trap

If someone wants to go, dont force them in with a child. You are screwing over both your partner's life, and the kid that is being used.

If you are a parent, take responsibility Posted sa loob ng isang taon na ang nakalipas

"THERE IS A SATISFACTORY AMOUNT OF SEROTONIN IN MY BRAIN RIGHT NOW CAN YOU BELIEVE" ~Gyldenyovth Posted sa loob ng isang taon na ang nakalipas

See Riku made a mistake asking me to watch pag-ibig Stage with her cuz now we get weird statements like "So Rape is ok so long as you put them through hell?" Posted sa loob ng isang taon na ang nakalipas

Personally, part of the reason the reason I am working mostly on my trauma and PTSD and recovering from it over all the other stuff I have is because Im like 90% sure pretty much every other issue of mine has strong roots in sinabi trauma.

If I try to knock those out, theyll just come back sooner or later if the thing they are rooted in isnt fixed first. Do such a thing is like trying to remove weeds sa pamamagitan ng clipping them in half. Posted sa loob ng isang taon na ang nakalipas

Akashi - KNB
Byakuya - Bleach
kanyon - Umineko no Koro Ni
Daiki Aomine - KNB
Eggsy - Kingsman
Ferid Bathory - Owari no Seraph
Guren Ichinose - Owari no Seraph
Hibari Kyoya - KHR
Izumi Sena - pag-ibig Stage
James - Pokemon
Kano Shuuya - Kagerou Days
Lussuria - KHR
Misogi Kumagawa - Medaka Box / Muramasa - Bleach
Nagito Komaeda - Danganronpa
Ogami - Danganronpa
Peko Pekoyama - Danganronpa
Quill Peter - Marvel
Raikou - Nabari No Ou Posted sa loob ng isang taon na ang nakalipas

I'm going through my Youtube "Watch Later" which is pretty much a listahan of bidyo I saved cos I likeed them and felt Id like to see them again in the future, so if I post a lot of bidyo on this club, thats why Posted sa loob ng isang taon na ang nakalipas

eyo guys I am back nowe tehehehe
so whats up in da house =D Posted sa loob ng isang taon na ang nakalipas

Okay so rant time. Posted sa loob ng isang taon na ang nakalipas

There is no pair of games madami addicting than Sonic Forces and Huniepop Posted sa loob ng isang taon na ang nakalipas

I am stubborn as hell, both for and against my own good XD Posted sa loob ng isang taon na ang nakalipas

d e p e r s o n a l i z a t i o n

i s

w e i r d

a s

f u c k Posted sa loob ng isang taon na ang nakalipas

UPDATE. I still kinda fear and anxiety around women that look feminine and social. Posted sa loob ng isang taon na ang nakalipas

I have a really nice kama Posted sa loob ng isang taon na ang nakalipas

I want to lay down on a reaaalllly nice kama Posted sa loob ng isang taon na ang nakalipas

Riku now officially thinks I know nothing about how rape works Posted sa loob ng isang taon na ang nakalipas

Seriously though. Its been a while since I spent 50% of the time Im awake being mildly depressed or down / low mood for no reason and if you remove the time Im distracted, its probably a good 80% of the time.

Sometimes it goes from mildly to kinda badly at night if Im not on my A game at countering it but... eh.

Also my scale of "mild to severe" depression might be skewed cos Im referencing it off past experiences and mannnn was a bad before.

It just really sucks asno Posted sa loob ng isang taon na ang nakalipas

Oh my goooood. That was such a friggin long araw at work.... Posted sa loob ng isang taon na ang nakalipas

THIS ICON HELPS MY MOOD SOME HOW Posted sa loob ng isang taon na ang nakalipas

pag-ibig Stage is both WAY madami gay than I remember and wayyyy cuter than I remember Posted sa loob ng isang taon na ang nakalipas

Honestly my dad going back to actually laying a hand on my mom is really all it takes. Im like... pretty sure I might just call social services on my dad so I can perhaps go to UC Davis feeling like Im not leaving my mom alone to be beat Posted sa loob ng isang taon na ang nakalipas

Had to beat my dad for hitting my mom. Would have put him in a chokehold until he fainted if my mom let me. Posted sa loob ng isang taon na ang nakalipas

Lefteris knows how much I want cannibalism in Danganronpa so if I don't get any from V3, I'm blaming him Posted sa loob ng isang taon na ang nakalipas

Let’s watch Riku sleeping

https://imgur.com/a/DY4lSo8 Posted sa loob ng isang taon na ang nakalipas

I'm so fucking angry....

The one time Riku actually wants to stay up and hang out and I fell asleep in my chair.

ugh....I'm just so pissed off right now.

and she's asleep so all I can do is vent in walang tiyak na layunin places. UGH Posted sa loob ng isang taon na ang nakalipas

I'm honestly not used to the feeling of people liking me and wanting me just for being myself and doing nothing. Its not something my mind can balutin itself around properly. Posted sa loob ng isang taon na ang nakalipas

Seriously tho, pretending your intrusive thoughts are some really annoying blabby outspoken person make it a lot easier XD Posted sa loob ng isang taon na ang nakalipas

Personally, I dont really like seeing little kids too often since it usually puts into perspective the shit I was going through.

I pag-ibig kids and all, but I always have that "Oh shit." moment when I realize how young I really was. Posted sa loob ng isang taon na ang nakalipas

Hot diggity, I had to get new headphones cos my old ones were pretty shitty and I had to like... mess with it to hear music right

And shit the ones I got my boyfriend a while back for a gift were AMAZING.

I got him better headphones than I currently had :v I mean I only buy heaphones once a taon and usually go for whats cheap / on sale rather than anything else

But dang. Posted sa loob ng isang taon na ang nakalipas

I'm honestly quite concerned my mom wont maintain the attention and training Ive done with Lucy and Avery over the taon Ill be gone at UC Davis without an ability to have a pet :/ Posted sa loob ng isang taon na ang nakalipas

Man I know I have to write her bio but T-T

Poor Koko....I feel bad for her having such a fucked up premise Posted sa loob ng isang taon na ang nakalipas

I kinda wanna play the School Days Visual Novel XD Posted sa loob ng isang taon na ang nakalipas

Fanfic: Anal bead Posted sa loob ng isang taon na ang nakalipas

Welp. Riku accidentally added $50 onto her Steam when she meant to wait for my response.

So I guess I don't have to be indecisive on the big commitment Danganronpa games with Riku is XD

Cuz I am now $48.58 cheaper. Posted sa loob ng isang taon na ang nakalipas

Welp. I literally accidentally added $50 onto my Steam when I meant to just consider, check my account, then buy it

So I guess I dont have to be indecisive about buying Danganronpa V3

Cos if I have $54 on my Steam, I might as well. Posted sa loob ng isang taon na ang nakalipas

Apparently spending 3 hours cleaning bird shit makes you smell really bad Posted sa loob ng isang taon na ang nakalipas

Me: Im having stomach issues

Psychiatrist: Its probably the medicine - eat yogurt daily

Me: Kay *does it for a week and then stops*

*four months later*

Me: Yeah I kinda got used to stomach issues. They dont really stop so *shrug*

Mom: Its probably the medicine

Me: Yeah I was told to eat yogurt

Boyfriend: Then eat yogurt

Me: Ugh but thats so much work. Fineeeee

*literally hasnt had stomach issues since I started eating yogurt again* Posted sa loob ng isang taon na ang nakalipas

Part of the reason and manner I managed to repair my mental health and stay mostly in a good mood is cause I got really good at deciphering which thoughts were necessary and which werent and avoided letting the unnecessary negative ones linger

But honestly when they last a whole day, morning to night, it gets kinda hard to keep the energy to constantly decipher which it is and sort it and mentally focus on not letting it get to you.

Yesterday was rough Posted sa loob ng isang taon na ang nakalipas

I could use some genuine affection though.

I will let that statement stay on the pader since its true. Posted sa loob ng isang taon na ang nakalipas

I honeslty do not handle the social isolation (or rather demand for me to actually go and put effort into talking to people), lack of a set schedule and goal, weather, and amount of time at tahanan I get in summer

It just really makes summer really bad for my mental health and shit. Especially with college being added among all that for my brain to try to make me anxious or depressive over.

It was starting yesterday and it put SO much effort to it today Posted sa loob ng isang taon na ang nakalipas

Man I just pag-ibig the game Sonic Forces so much. It gives me such a feeling of bliss. I even loved it so much, I wanted to invite Riku to watch.

She sinabi no. Posted sa loob ng isang taon na ang nakalipas

Also I dunno if I sound like it, but I dont hate YandereDev or anything. Its just a bit of a shattered image I had before. I still do appreciate his work towards things and his ability to chase his dream and all, plus I understand where he is coming from. I just disagree with his personality and his actions.

Personally, Im still going to follow its development, but yeah. Posted sa loob ng isang taon na ang nakalipas

Ugh. Its literally been two days into being out of school - a literal weekend worth

And my brain is already excited to start Summer Mental Hell-th Posted sa loob ng isang taon na ang nakalipas

Dissociation feels like that really disorientating feel when you were REALLY deeply asleep or engrossed into your dream and wake up completely confused as to where you are, who everyone is, and whats going on for a good few seconds

Cept it isnt a few segundos and you werent asleep Posted sa loob ng isang taon na ang nakalipas

"Why didnt you just leave? Why didnt you tell someone?"

I was kinda watching a Doki Doki Natsuki tagahanga game episode randomly and those tanong came up and honestly, when it comes to child abuse - or abuse overall, there is a lot that goes into it. Especially if it has been long term. At that point, you dont say anything and dont leave because its the normal and everyone you live around seems to feed into that 'normal'. Sometimes they let you know doing so would make things worse. etc. Posted sa loob ng isang taon na ang nakalipas

Im trumpet sexual Posted sa loob ng isang taon na ang nakalipas

Honestly, I dont even know what my brain was or where I was in the past years.

Like... Seriously, especially in 9th grade, I was literally like... crazy. I really should have had a therapist then. But to be fair, 9th and 11th grade werent that far apart in how badly I should have had a therapist. XD Just I had one in 11th grade. Who knows how bad 11th grade could have been without one Posted sa loob ng isang taon na ang nakalipas

My face is so badly burnt Posted sa loob ng isang taon na ang nakalipas

God what the fuck is wrong with me....I don't want to worry anyone, but I had a completely 100% legit urge to mail my income tax money susunod taon to Riku so she can buy a computer....

My grasp on how important it is to not waste money combined with my desire to give things to people is really scary sometimes. Posted sa loob ng isang taon na ang nakalipas

I am officially graduated and officially on summer vacation!

BUT EVEN BETTER

STEAM SUMMER SALE WOO

PEOPLE GET AMNESIA WHILE ITS $3

sumali MY CULT Posted sa loob ng isang taon na ang nakalipas

Honestly though, I dont really like eating with my whole family or doing family events without my boyfriend simply because I just feel out of place, awkward, and like a sore thumb. It usually just feels like Im intruding or just dont simply mesh with the people there and the conversations they talk about so I honestly kinda avoid eating with them.

Thus why I kinda DONT want a graduation dinner. Its just... eh. Posted sa loob ng isang taon na ang nakalipas

Tomorrow I graduate for real. Wooooo.

Finally done with high school XD Posted sa loob ng isang taon na ang nakalipas

So i have my sims on Free Will and try not to intervene much out of guiding them to fufill wishes and I ended up on a petsa with one of my RP characters since he asked me out

>character is known for being mentally unstable and psychotic / psychopathic
>arrives to a completely empty lot
>empty lot is sa pamamagitan ng tumawid roads
>tries to watch a movie but instead goes to tour the theatre
>dumpster dives with date
>gets nauseous and vomits
>chases deer
>apparently the petsa ended at some point Posted sa loob ng isang taon na ang nakalipas

Riku: "Dammit Wanta! I was expecting you to say something serious!"

Wanta: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1WCFbdOOmOY Posted sa loob ng isang taon na ang nakalipas

Once you've gotten to the point of hating yourself and wanting to die and trying stuff recommended for BFRB, loro feather pulling, self mutilation, and drug addiction to stop plucking, you gain a large resistance to the disheartening feels of a relapse since its hard to hold yourself accountable or to have your hopes dropped when you kinda never had them high in the first place Posted sa loob ng isang taon na ang nakalipas

Honestly my parents are so disgustingly judgmental and in denial over it.

Like pretty much assuming my sister is aspirationless, goalless, and doesnt want to do anything / CANT do anything because she cant / wont answer their tanong right away.

I tried explaining my older sister's reasoning, backing, and shit cos they were trash talking her in front of me and my oldest sister is the one Ill defend to the death

And just right over their head and ignored Posted sa loob ng isang taon na ang nakalipas

Rikus paborito character from G-Senjou no Maou would likely be Tokita Yuki or just Maou. Blind's would prolly be Shiratori Mizuha. Lefteris I would say....eh....Haru or Ei-chan.

Clearly for me Haru is the best. My paborito sa pamamagitan ng a wide margin.

God I loved that game. I might play another 50 hours of it just cuz I pag-ibig the characters so much...or I might hold out for Riku to get the game and I might watch her read it XD Posted sa loob ng isang taon na ang nakalipas

Also, you dont realize how much tension plucking removes until you start doing it or a substitute for it (shaving) and feel the odd, subtle, but strong euphoria and whole body relaxation

Its honestly like a drug. Kind of why I have yet to be able to ever stop completely over the past nine or so years.

Quite literally I've looked up ways to stop Trich and other BFRBs, self harm and cutting, and drug addiction and little of it has actually helped Posted sa loob ng isang taon na ang nakalipas

No but the post below XD

I was going to take a shit before kama and I was like "Geesh my legs are hairy. You know I could let off some tension sa pamamagitan ng shaking small really hairy patches on my leg instead of pluckign which is 99.99% healthier"

Then look shaved a little too much

So then I just sinabi fuck it and shaved a chunk to make it even

Then sinabi fuck it and shaved the whole left guya to make it look right

Then realized I had to do the same to my right guya Posted sa loob ng isang taon na ang nakalipas

Help. I accidentally shaved my left leg Posted sa loob ng isang taon na ang nakalipas

I think Riku fits into a new category I'm dubbing "Utsudere" Posted sa loob ng isang taon na ang nakalipas

O-oh... god...

I was bored and now Im finding major shit on YandereDev's character and personality..

...

I mean I still like his goals and his personality he can ipakita on the channel but...

uh.... why do all the youtubers I have turn out to have majorly assholish genuine characters..?

I wonder how Markiplier is doing. Posted sa loob ng isang taon na ang nakalipas

Shh. Riku doesnt know I gave up on forcing myself to eat during my lunch breaks. If she finds out, she’ll hassle me Posted sa loob ng isang taon na ang nakalipas

I am REALLY good with anxious mga hayop apparently.

Theres this dog I was helping watch for a few hours for reason I cant elaborate for and apparently hes super scared of and barks / tries to bite 98% of strangers excluding my older sister and apparently me.

In fact, he kissed my face within like... 15 segundos of knowing me cos I gave him like.... 5 segundos to sniff my hand, 5 segundos of head scratch, then like went right up to his face XD Posted sa loob ng isang taon na ang nakalipas

Was randomly humming when I realized I just somehow seamlessly transitioned from Bleach to Taylor matulin and then into Pokemon bike music Posted sa loob ng isang taon na ang nakalipas

I am taking applications for people to be my dad for Fathers Day. Posted sa loob ng isang taon na ang nakalipas

You see, I know Im an extrovert - a highly selective one at that - because my definition of "me time" isnt pagbaba a book, watching TV, or doing something on my own

It usually refers to time being sa pamamagitan ng the computer or doing casual calm stuff like walks or watching TV with people I find relaxing, simple, and can be comfortable around and just lounge doing nothing

RARELY do I ever think of actually spending "me time" alone Posted sa loob ng isang taon na ang nakalipas

Google : How to get social things done at the same time as sleeping? Posted sa loob ng isang taon na ang nakalipas

Me: Im so tired

Me: I should probably sleep

"Then you should. You sound tired"

Me: Nah. I havent been awake long enough. ... I mean had free time enough

"Is there anything you are craving to do rn then?"

Me: Sleep.

Me: ... but I wont Posted sa loob ng isang taon na ang nakalipas

*curls up in a ball of tired*

tomorrow is possibly / probably madami tiring and annoying Posted sa loob ng isang taon na ang nakalipas

Also, after the band banquet, I am glad to leave behind a legacy in the band and school. I raised so many children and so many of them are major band leaders, people taking part in activities, and major people in the school.

It makes me glad. Posted sa loob ng isang taon na ang nakalipas

Honestly I just kind of want to talk about something. A lot of my band knows me as the Rookie Collector / Dad / Satan and all that stuff, and its very fitting and everything. I put A LOT of work into gaining those titles

But really, there was one person - Jacob Gordon - who literally probably put my character on the path to the nice place it is now madami than most others. He was the person that took ME in as a rookie and honestly was the person that made me want to stay in band Posted sa loob ng isang taon na ang nakalipas

Riku is a very oddly fellow. Posted sa loob ng isang taon na ang nakalipas

Like if you too have an irrational fear of spiders Posted sa loob ng isang taon na ang nakalipas

araw 834: Riku still doesnt understand the concept of being just straight or just gay. Posted sa loob ng isang taon na ang nakalipas

I just beat Riku at math Posted sa loob ng isang taon na ang nakalipas

I've been asked this before, but my memory loss / memory failures pretty much stretch back... two or three tops. Its after that point that my memory gets really foggy if really existent at all.

I have a really strong procedural and declarative memory which makes it so I can excel in school, but episodic / autobiographical memory is literal shit.

The furthest back I can clearly remember can be as short as like... a few days to a week. Posted sa loob ng isang taon na ang nakalipas

"You gotta have that amnesiac goldfish memory looked at" ~Wanta @ Riku 2018

:v :v :v Posted sa loob ng isang taon na ang nakalipas

I dunno, some how at some point, I came to really like Yuri's psychoness at least as an aesthetic and ended up solidifying her as a favorite?

I think this is the power of me actually giving titles to characters.

Once I give them a special title, its like adding a multiplier to how much I pag-ibig them for no other reason than the fact I decided to make it official and rank them special XD Posted sa loob ng isang taon na ang nakalipas

This is why I don't write side stories. Like...friggin living up to the bar Riku set is so stressful... Posted sa loob ng isang taon na ang nakalipas

If I could get personal puwang that would be niceee.. Posted sa loob ng isang taon na ang nakalipas

*makes an image edit of a character Riku used to be obsessed with*

Riku: "who dat?"

Me: *walks to corner of depression* Posted sa loob ng isang taon na ang nakalipas

If Yuri is Libitina, shell probably be madami of a paborito of mine XD Posted sa loob ng isang taon na ang nakalipas

I have a bad headache and am sore... Posted sa loob ng isang taon na ang nakalipas

A Q U A

G O T

N O R T E D Posted sa loob ng isang taon na ang nakalipas

I’m just going to hide here 😅because my last post on walang tiyak na layunin supposed to be funny but now I’m just scared xD Posted sa loob ng isang taon na ang nakalipas

So me and Wanta started playing Sims, him watching me and we are working on making the RP characters on there.

So far the two interactions between the three we made (two being as pets XD) is very accurate to how theyd probably be in the RP Posted sa loob ng isang taon na ang nakalipas

I could make a reality ipakita off the drama I had to deal with today Posted sa loob ng isang taon na ang nakalipas

Its so interesting change of events that Aqua is now dark and shit dude. She got Norted Posted sa loob ng isang taon na ang nakalipas

"Imbeciles... You would knowingly shackle your puso to a chain of memories born of lies? You would be one who has a heart, yet cast aside your heart's freedom?! You turn from the truth because your puso is weak.... you will never defeat me!"

Literally have been listening to those 34 segundos on repeat as my "music" for the past three days. Posted sa loob ng isang taon na ang nakalipas

Honestly, there was a point when Organization XIII from Kingdom Hearts felt like a really large extended metaphor for the extreme emptiness and apathy I had so there was actually a point when I mentally had the entire concept of Organization XIII on my relatable listahan XD Posted sa loob ng isang taon na ang nakalipas

Dude so hyped for the susunod icon round. Just made probably the most complex icon that took the most time for me to make in a long while if over all. 11 layers on pixlr to make it and I personally think I captured what I meant to display pretty well. Posted sa loob ng isang taon na ang nakalipas

Honestly though. My older-middle sister seems to have gone from spoiled to "princess" "Im entitled to ____".

Like Im not kidding, she claimed to have a right to have a reserved restaurant graduation celebration in Beverly Hills with all her mga kaibigan being paid for my my parents with none of the money coming from her own pocket or her mga kaibigan pocket

Plus she was SUPER upset me and my oldest sister were pointing out how expensive that is Posted sa loob ng isang taon na ang nakalipas

mga kerubin of Death the anime starts July 6, 2018 apparently so #Hype for that too Posted sa loob ng isang taon na ang nakalipas

I also should really cut back in how much I jokingly say "Imma stab someone" Posted sa loob ng isang taon na ang nakalipas

Well apparently I tested on my Math Placement test with 7 points higher than the minimum for the hardest class I could take and 3 higher than the minimum Trig sub score XD

I mean Imma go for the segundo hardest since Math 21M says "Should only be considered if you got a 5 on the AP Calculus BC exam" and I got a 3 on that one XD So Imma be ligtas and not kill myself the first taon Posted sa loob ng isang taon na ang nakalipas

Messenger on Fanpop is the only website that lags for me. #MySacrifice Posted sa loob ng isang taon na ang nakalipas