Chapter one –
Unlike the last few months the last three days had broken out of the tedious routine my days had grown tired and used to. My araw took the same route as every other one that was until I had to ipakita the new girl… Briara, where her locker was. Briara was cheerful and happy, dressed in an array of exotic bright colours that not only made me want to vomit but shield my eyes, her outfit an extreme contrast to my alternate altered clothing. My plain black vest top, freshly ripped into a V-neck with added buttons and a tie, matched only with skinny jeans in a dark grey. My dress style matched my hair, black with crimson highlights, Briara’s perfect blonde hair seemed to send alarm bells off in my head. Two words came to mind, FUTURE CHEERLEADER.
A cheerleader my worst enemies, they judge and degrade. I don’t mean to judge myself but the last blonde in colourful clothing I got asked to ipakita around is now bottom left on the pyramid, the blonde before that centre right – I think they give me the blondes just because they want to annoy me – and the first blonde I ever showed around Clarisse, reyna Bitch, head cheerleader and class president.
Anyway I caught Briara eyeing up Ash, the hottest, cutest, kindest, sweetest guy in the entire school. Ash’s real name is Robin but he told me when we were young to call him Ash always Ash, so I always have. Clarisse, Vanessa, Crystal, Rochelle, Louise and now Briara all want him; of course if he ever starts dating Clarisse will get dibs. I once had a crush but that apoy burnt out a long time ago, the araw I went from normal to Goth. See my childhood wasn’t crap but it wasn’t amazing, people sinabi I always smiled but after my Nan passed I couldn’t find it in me to smile and be happy, the light had gone. I went from bottom right on the pyramid to a fist fight with a wrestler chick. I wouldn’t want to be that girl again and I don’t want my Nan back, as much as I miss her it was her time and I’m grateful for her last act of pag-ibig towards me, to help me see clearly.
Just as predicted in that one araw Briara had ended Katia’s pyramid life and got her place on the pyramid. The pyramid isn’t just out on the field or in the gym; the pyramid is the order of status; Clarisse at the tuktok doing flips and tricks and landing safely every time, followed sa pamamagitan ng Rochelle and Louise, then Vanessa, Crystal and Briara, then the spotters and catchers with those who do unimportant small tricks around them. They always work in the groups and you never, catch Clarisse without at least two other “Attitude Cats”.
It was a headache to even know this school; I am truthfully pretty sure my teachers hate me they don’t always do it openly but I know somehow I get on their nerves. I count it as a talent I can make most people hate me within two segundos – and that’s when I’m not trying – I never want people around me any more. I have a best friend but she had to move, she’s now 3 States away.
I spent the rest of my araw getting into fights, breaking jaws, giving black eyes and in detention. My biggest achievement was Clarisse, she came up to me the entire squad behind her but leaving enough room for passers-by to watch and told me to stop being a freak then pushed me into a locker. Now lately my temper has had me pagganap up more, I asked her to take her hand off me… she didn’t so I broke that perfect pretty little nose of hers, then grabbed a flip kutsilyo and chopped walang tiyak na layunin pieces of her hair off. I then walked away and so everyone including me knows she will have her revenge on me.
I know if I watch my back I will survive, no one else would watch it. I had 3 periods left after that, Trig, chemistry and English Lit. Unlike most people these 3 lessons were “ma thing”, trig is easy sin- opp/hyp cos- adj/hyp tan-opp/adj, basic trig. Chemistry is the periodic mesa simple, hydrogen helium lithium beryllium boron carbon nitrogen oxygen fluorine neon… electronic structure protons, neutrons, easy. English lit, analysing work, mga panipi key words, information. For some reason I sit susunod to Ash in all these classes, not like we talk, a quick “hey” or discussing the work but we never really talk. I am one of the few people who know about his tahanan life because our parents are friends. I know he escaped going into foster, he has anger issues and has a violent streak in him. Born and raised in Philly he had to look after himself when he was out; he was near the tuktok of the pagkain chain and rarely Nawawala a fight if ever. He has kutsilyo skills and owns a gun. I know madami about him than any other in this school. He once opened up to me told me, he wasn’t proud of what he had done but he had survived and he didn’t tend to regret any of it. I was always who he came to, then people were all over him, trying to beat stuff out of me, so he stopped.
After finishing the araw I returned tahanan to find someone had broken into my house. I felt angry; nothing was taken from anywhere, nowhere ransacked except my room! What would I have to hide in my room, a whole house and my room, I just didn’t understand. It made no sense to me, if you are going to break in at least take the laptop or IPod but no just make it a mess I was undoubtedly going to be blamed for. For God sake if this was that little bitches’ way of revenge she was DEAD no way would she get away with it.
Unlike the last few months the last three days had broken out of the tedious routine my days had grown tired and used to. My araw took the same route as every other one that was until I had to ipakita the new girl… Briara, where her locker was. Briara was cheerful and happy, dressed in an array of exotic bright colours that not only made me want to vomit but shield my eyes, her outfit an extreme contrast to my alternate altered clothing. My plain black vest top, freshly ripped into a V-neck with added buttons and a tie, matched only with skinny jeans in a dark grey. My dress style matched my hair, black with crimson highlights, Briara’s perfect blonde hair seemed to send alarm bells off in my head. Two words came to mind, FUTURE CHEERLEADER.
A cheerleader my worst enemies, they judge and degrade. I don’t mean to judge myself but the last blonde in colourful clothing I got asked to ipakita around is now bottom left on the pyramid, the blonde before that centre right – I think they give me the blondes just because they want to annoy me – and the first blonde I ever showed around Clarisse, reyna Bitch, head cheerleader and class president.
Anyway I caught Briara eyeing up Ash, the hottest, cutest, kindest, sweetest guy in the entire school. Ash’s real name is Robin but he told me when we were young to call him Ash always Ash, so I always have. Clarisse, Vanessa, Crystal, Rochelle, Louise and now Briara all want him; of course if he ever starts dating Clarisse will get dibs. I once had a crush but that apoy burnt out a long time ago, the araw I went from normal to Goth. See my childhood wasn’t crap but it wasn’t amazing, people sinabi I always smiled but after my Nan passed I couldn’t find it in me to smile and be happy, the light had gone. I went from bottom right on the pyramid to a fist fight with a wrestler chick. I wouldn’t want to be that girl again and I don’t want my Nan back, as much as I miss her it was her time and I’m grateful for her last act of pag-ibig towards me, to help me see clearly.
Just as predicted in that one araw Briara had ended Katia’s pyramid life and got her place on the pyramid. The pyramid isn’t just out on the field or in the gym; the pyramid is the order of status; Clarisse at the tuktok doing flips and tricks and landing safely every time, followed sa pamamagitan ng Rochelle and Louise, then Vanessa, Crystal and Briara, then the spotters and catchers with those who do unimportant small tricks around them. They always work in the groups and you never, catch Clarisse without at least two other “Attitude Cats”.
It was a headache to even know this school; I am truthfully pretty sure my teachers hate me they don’t always do it openly but I know somehow I get on their nerves. I count it as a talent I can make most people hate me within two segundos – and that’s when I’m not trying – I never want people around me any more. I have a best friend but she had to move, she’s now 3 States away.
I spent the rest of my araw getting into fights, breaking jaws, giving black eyes and in detention. My biggest achievement was Clarisse, she came up to me the entire squad behind her but leaving enough room for passers-by to watch and told me to stop being a freak then pushed me into a locker. Now lately my temper has had me pagganap up more, I asked her to take her hand off me… she didn’t so I broke that perfect pretty little nose of hers, then grabbed a flip kutsilyo and chopped walang tiyak na layunin pieces of her hair off. I then walked away and so everyone including me knows she will have her revenge on me.
I know if I watch my back I will survive, no one else would watch it. I had 3 periods left after that, Trig, chemistry and English Lit. Unlike most people these 3 lessons were “ma thing”, trig is easy sin- opp/hyp cos- adj/hyp tan-opp/adj, basic trig. Chemistry is the periodic mesa simple, hydrogen helium lithium beryllium boron carbon nitrogen oxygen fluorine neon… electronic structure protons, neutrons, easy. English lit, analysing work, mga panipi key words, information. For some reason I sit susunod to Ash in all these classes, not like we talk, a quick “hey” or discussing the work but we never really talk. I am one of the few people who know about his tahanan life because our parents are friends. I know he escaped going into foster, he has anger issues and has a violent streak in him. Born and raised in Philly he had to look after himself when he was out; he was near the tuktok of the pagkain chain and rarely Nawawala a fight if ever. He has kutsilyo skills and owns a gun. I know madami about him than any other in this school. He once opened up to me told me, he wasn’t proud of what he had done but he had survived and he didn’t tend to regret any of it. I was always who he came to, then people were all over him, trying to beat stuff out of me, so he stopped.
After finishing the araw I returned tahanan to find someone had broken into my house. I felt angry; nothing was taken from anywhere, nowhere ransacked except my room! What would I have to hide in my room, a whole house and my room, I just didn’t understand. It made no sense to me, if you are going to break in at least take the laptop or IPod but no just make it a mess I was undoubtedly going to be blamed for. For God sake if this was that little bitches’ way of revenge she was DEAD no way would she get away with it.
Glance the other way
Rip your puso out
I just don't care anymore
You're useless
And uncaring
You know nothing!
Yet you pretend you do
You're a pretender
A pretender is just a liar in disguise
A pretender is a faker
A pretender hides
A pretender is a maker
Of the dark abyss
You told me once
I told you twice
Now what?
Do we forget the past?
Live for the future?
Or remember and continue on our path?
...Decisions...Decisions...
Left or right?
Up or down?
Wrong or right?
Please give me the answer
For I do not know
Right and wrong any longer
Rip your puso out
I just don't care anymore
You're useless
And uncaring
You know nothing!
Yet you pretend you do
You're a pretender
A pretender is just a liar in disguise
A pretender is a faker
A pretender hides
A pretender is a maker
Of the dark abyss
You told me once
I told you twice
Now what?
Do we forget the past?
Live for the future?
Or remember and continue on our path?
...Decisions...Decisions...
Left or right?
Up or down?
Wrong or right?
Please give me the answer
For I do not know
Right and wrong any longer
Chapter 4: Sunny day
These were the days of peace and happiness.
Days were spent in peace and love.
Jack loved his job, even though he wasn't that patient with children who didn't pay attention on his classes.
But, he knew. He was doing something
important, something useful.
And most of all, he knew that his lovely wife
and beautiful little Gwenny were waiting for him
at home.
Dana was amazing at kitchen.
Jack loved everything she made.
One happy family they were.
Like every morning, Jack would go to work,
and Dana would make a breakfast and some coffee to wake them up.
Morning coffee was something wonderful
for both of them.
After having breakfast, Jack would drink coffee
with Dana, looking at her with the same gentle
and passionate pag-ibig that never fades.
"I'll see you later, darling." - Jack sinabi and
went to work.
Dana was still sitting and enjoying in the coffee,
watching through the window the sunlight.
She could smell the bulaklak that were growing
in the yard.
These were the days of peace and happiness.
Days were spent in peace and love.
Jack loved his job, even though he wasn't that patient with children who didn't pay attention on his classes.
But, he knew. He was doing something
important, something useful.
And most of all, he knew that his lovely wife
and beautiful little Gwenny were waiting for him
at home.
Dana was amazing at kitchen.
Jack loved everything she made.
One happy family they were.
Like every morning, Jack would go to work,
and Dana would make a breakfast and some coffee to wake them up.
Morning coffee was something wonderful
for both of them.
After having breakfast, Jack would drink coffee
with Dana, looking at her with the same gentle
and passionate pag-ibig that never fades.
"I'll see you later, darling." - Jack sinabi and
went to work.
Dana was still sitting and enjoying in the coffee,
watching through the window the sunlight.
She could smell the bulaklak that were growing
in the yard.
I lied
I lied to them and got caught
I confessed up and told them the truth
but they get madami upset
I walk down the dark hallway
into my lonely empty room
I lie on my bed, thinking
I go to ilipat and I can't
I fall down
pain shooting threw me
they walk in
saying I'm faking to make them feel bad
they walk out
leaving me on the ground
crying out in pain
I finally give up
crawl over to the closet
get the gun and cocked it
put it to my temple and pulled the trigger
life...filled with hate
I've chased down all my demons
but it wasn't enough
mistreated,misplaced,misunderstood.
I lied to them and got caught
I confessed up and told them the truth
but they get madami upset
I walk down the dark hallway
into my lonely empty room
I lie on my bed, thinking
I go to ilipat and I can't
I fall down
pain shooting threw me
they walk in
saying I'm faking to make them feel bad
they walk out
leaving me on the ground
crying out in pain
I finally give up
crawl over to the closet
get the gun and cocked it
put it to my temple and pulled the trigger
life...filled with hate
I've chased down all my demons
but it wasn't enough
mistreated,misplaced,misunderstood.
I keep my rhythm
I tap in time,
My music is my world
An angry beat inside.
It can crash like a waterfall
Or gradually trickle down,
It can make you laugh and cry
That powerful sound.
My headphones on my head
The lyrics flowing though,
Filling up my brain
Music is the pagkain I chew.
It can be beautiful, strange
Crazy and cool,
I couldn't live without music
There's a style to suit all.
Music is like a brand new life
Jumping around your mind,
Each instrument that is played
Is an ingredient to find.
There's nothing quite like music
There's nothing quite like me,
You can always find a friend in music
Music will always be.
I tap in time,
My music is my world
An angry beat inside.
It can crash like a waterfall
Or gradually trickle down,
It can make you laugh and cry
That powerful sound.
My headphones on my head
The lyrics flowing though,
Filling up my brain
Music is the pagkain I chew.
It can be beautiful, strange
Crazy and cool,
I couldn't live without music
There's a style to suit all.
Music is like a brand new life
Jumping around your mind,
Each instrument that is played
Is an ingredient to find.
There's nothing quite like music
There's nothing quite like me,
You can always find a friend in music
Music will always be.