You are my beloved... Gin.
Always ever my beloved Gin. Many days have been spent without you, since we cannot meet, because you do not exist much...
Why do you run away from such a place as this?
You liked this place, didn't you?
I heard it from your own lips. You like and pag-ibig this place...
You born here and lived in here. There were other things to like here, right?
Why?

I do not know Gin, explanation fails again.
How many times were spent so missing you...
The worst is... with the days, which increase and flow,
I have felt Nawawala without you and like I lose you more, repeatedly each day...

I am surely full of pain and sadness...
Will you stay for me, then… sa pamamagitan ng my side a little longer…just a little longer...
I want to be with you as often as I can.
I want to be beside you. I can prove to you that I will not run away-from you or from the Soul Society! Can you?


I just need to say these words.
There is no other person that can change your position in my heart, Gin...
One thing, I can't stop myself from thinking of is you...
I pag-ibig you... and want to pag-ibig you madami again...

I am missing you and losing you as often as I think about you...
Do not get gone for my eyes...

Every time I think of losing you, you fading, forgetting, my hearts feel s like it exited... and that is so much hurt.
That is some big pain for me...

However, every time I think of your eyes, your face, your personality...
your gentle smile... I think I can hold those pains off for a few madami minutes...

Gin, just want to ask some tanong of you.
If I do this for you, whatever I do, would you do the same thing for me?
Would you sacrifice for me –even your sacrifice your life?
Moreover, will you save me when I need your help?

Would you do those things for me?
I do not know.

I do not even know if I will ever meet you again- in the Soul Society or elsewhere, but I hope I can meet you there.
Honestly, I do not know anymore... meeting you wherever, anywhere and I cannot madala to think about that...
I just can cry and madami and madami within I cry waiting you... just waiting for you to come back to me-to come back.
I am afraid, Gin, of losing madami of my heart...
I am afraid I cannot take the pain...

Why?
Why must this happen to me?
I do not know. I do not know.
I am losing my mind sometimes. Never mind.
I can only wait... even if I do not want to.
Waiting on someone...
Someone that I trust can be my soul mate...
Gin...
Ichimaru Gin...