{Warning: Mention of suicide. Please don’t read if it triggers you.}
I don’t know what to do. I feel numb. Empty. Alone. Lost. It feels surreal, really. And I really wish it was.
“Justin, honey?” Mom’s voice is gentle as it brings me out from my dark and haunting thoughts. I slowly look up from my intertwined fingers placed in my lap.
“Yeah?” I croak out, biting my bottom lip to desperately stop the tears pressing on at the back of my eyes.
“Oh, honey.” And she’s there almost before the words leave her lips; on her knees in front of me while clasping my shaking hands in her own.
It still hasn’t sunken in that Y/N is dead. She took her own life. She’s gone - forever. Maybe it will never sink fully in. The pag-ibig of my life is dead and it feels like it’s all my fault. If I had just gotten there a little earlier… If I had called her before I left… If I had just…
“You weren’t there, mom. You didn’t see how pale and vulnerable she looked. And the pills… Mom, there were so many pills.” My voice cracks and I just give up on the idea to stay strong right there.
Mom coos softly and wraps her small arms around my trembling body. I let the tears fall freely as she hugs me tightly against her. It doesn’t take long until Y/N’s living room echoes with my sobs.
I can feel mom’s tears making a wet patch on the shoulder of my sando which only makes it twice as bad. To know that my mom is crying because my girlfriend is gone - it hurts. Y/N had so many that cared so much about her, yet she still took her life.
“It hurts, mom. I-I didn’t even-even say goodbye.”
“Shh. I know, baby, I know. I know you loved her very much and I know how hard it is going to be for you during the susunod few weeks, but you know that she wouldn’t want you to be depressed about this, right? Although we can’t understand it now, I’m sure she had a reason.” She pulls away and kisses my forehead gently.
“Why don’t you go outside and Scooter will drive you home, hmm? I’ll be tahanan soon. I just have to talk with an officer and Y/N’s mom, okay?”
I only nod numbly and untangle myself from mom’s petite body. She wraps my clammy hand in her own and I’m in my own state of mind as she leads me towards the front door. I barely register weaving through the mass of people and before I know it, Scooter is helping me into my own bedroom.
That’s how I am when mom comes back tahanan later; in my bed, buried under the covers. It still smells from Y/N’s sweet perfume which only brings me to think about all the good memories we shared in this bed.
My door creaks open and mom pops her head through the crack. She smiles sadly when she sees me and when she meets my eyes, she takes it as a yes to enter my room.
She sits down on the edge of my kama with a small sigh. I watch curiously as she fingers a crinkled paper as she inhales deeply. When she meets my eyes again, I can easily see the shine of unshed tears.
“The officers found this, in the drawer of Y/N’s bedside table. It’s for you.” Her voice is hoarse and I know for a fact that she has cried madami after I left. She places the note on my covered torso, pats my thigh and then she’s gone again.
I don’t know what to expect as I reach for the paper, but I can’t help but feel like the air disappears from my lungs when I see the headline. This is it. This is Y/N’s suicide note.
Dear, Justin
Remember how we used to make fun of people always starting their letters like this?
First of all; I’m sorry. I know you’re gonna miss me. I’m gonna miss you too, believe me. It’s just… I couldn’t do it anymore, Justin. It was all too hard. The hate from your fans, the pressure from everyone around me, school… Everything.
I just want you to know one thing - this is not your fault. Please, do not blame yourself. Trust me when I say this, you have nothing with me taking my life. It was just too much and I couldn’t deal with it.
You might think I’m a coward for ending it without really trying to fix it - but I’m just not strong enough. I can’t, Justin. I really can’t. So… That’s why I’m doing this.
I really am sorry. I will be here up in heaven, watching over you, your family, my family and the crew. I’ll make sure each one of you are safe, I promise.
Just know that I pag-ibig you very, very much. It hurts so bad to think that I’ll never get to halik you again, that you’ll never hold me in your arms again. We will never get married and have the life we’ve talked about. It hurts. But I have to do this and I’m sorry.
I pag-ibig you, Justin.
Forever & always,
Y/N
I’m practically sobbing once again when I’m done with the note. I don’t know if I appreciate the note or if I wish that mom would have never ibingiay it to me. This is the only goodbye I have from her.
So that’s how I fall asleep; crying while clutching the beautifully handwritten note.
I don’t know what to do. I feel numb. Empty. Alone. Lost. It feels surreal, really. And I really wish it was.
“Justin, honey?” Mom’s voice is gentle as it brings me out from my dark and haunting thoughts. I slowly look up from my intertwined fingers placed in my lap.
“Yeah?” I croak out, biting my bottom lip to desperately stop the tears pressing on at the back of my eyes.
“Oh, honey.” And she’s there almost before the words leave her lips; on her knees in front of me while clasping my shaking hands in her own.
It still hasn’t sunken in that Y/N is dead. She took her own life. She’s gone - forever. Maybe it will never sink fully in. The pag-ibig of my life is dead and it feels like it’s all my fault. If I had just gotten there a little earlier… If I had called her before I left… If I had just…
“You weren’t there, mom. You didn’t see how pale and vulnerable she looked. And the pills… Mom, there were so many pills.” My voice cracks and I just give up on the idea to stay strong right there.
Mom coos softly and wraps her small arms around my trembling body. I let the tears fall freely as she hugs me tightly against her. It doesn’t take long until Y/N’s living room echoes with my sobs.
I can feel mom’s tears making a wet patch on the shoulder of my sando which only makes it twice as bad. To know that my mom is crying because my girlfriend is gone - it hurts. Y/N had so many that cared so much about her, yet she still took her life.
“It hurts, mom. I-I didn’t even-even say goodbye.”
“Shh. I know, baby, I know. I know you loved her very much and I know how hard it is going to be for you during the susunod few weeks, but you know that she wouldn’t want you to be depressed about this, right? Although we can’t understand it now, I’m sure she had a reason.” She pulls away and kisses my forehead gently.
“Why don’t you go outside and Scooter will drive you home, hmm? I’ll be tahanan soon. I just have to talk with an officer and Y/N’s mom, okay?”
I only nod numbly and untangle myself from mom’s petite body. She wraps my clammy hand in her own and I’m in my own state of mind as she leads me towards the front door. I barely register weaving through the mass of people and before I know it, Scooter is helping me into my own bedroom.
That’s how I am when mom comes back tahanan later; in my bed, buried under the covers. It still smells from Y/N’s sweet perfume which only brings me to think about all the good memories we shared in this bed.
My door creaks open and mom pops her head through the crack. She smiles sadly when she sees me and when she meets my eyes, she takes it as a yes to enter my room.
She sits down on the edge of my kama with a small sigh. I watch curiously as she fingers a crinkled paper as she inhales deeply. When she meets my eyes again, I can easily see the shine of unshed tears.
“The officers found this, in the drawer of Y/N’s bedside table. It’s for you.” Her voice is hoarse and I know for a fact that she has cried madami after I left. She places the note on my covered torso, pats my thigh and then she’s gone again.
I don’t know what to expect as I reach for the paper, but I can’t help but feel like the air disappears from my lungs when I see the headline. This is it. This is Y/N’s suicide note.
Dear, Justin
Remember how we used to make fun of people always starting their letters like this?
First of all; I’m sorry. I know you’re gonna miss me. I’m gonna miss you too, believe me. It’s just… I couldn’t do it anymore, Justin. It was all too hard. The hate from your fans, the pressure from everyone around me, school… Everything.
I just want you to know one thing - this is not your fault. Please, do not blame yourself. Trust me when I say this, you have nothing with me taking my life. It was just too much and I couldn’t deal with it.
You might think I’m a coward for ending it without really trying to fix it - but I’m just not strong enough. I can’t, Justin. I really can’t. So… That’s why I’m doing this.
I really am sorry. I will be here up in heaven, watching over you, your family, my family and the crew. I’ll make sure each one of you are safe, I promise.
Just know that I pag-ibig you very, very much. It hurts so bad to think that I’ll never get to halik you again, that you’ll never hold me in your arms again. We will never get married and have the life we’ve talked about. It hurts. But I have to do this and I’m sorry.
I pag-ibig you, Justin.
Forever & always,
Y/N
I’m practically sobbing once again when I’m done with the note. I don’t know if I appreciate the note or if I wish that mom would have never ibingiay it to me. This is the only goodbye I have from her.
So that’s how I fall asleep; crying while clutching the beautifully handwritten note.
The event will take place at London’s Wembley Stadium on 9th June 2012.
Announcing the line-up on their ipakita yesterday, CapitalFM also revealed that Usher, Katy Perry, ColdPlay, The Wanted, Kelly Clarkson, Jessie J, Ed Sheeran, Flo Rida, Example and Pit toro were also confirmed for the June event.
Boyband One Direction won’t be appearing though. The boys were blacklisted sa pamamagitan ng CapitalFM after Harry Styles mistakenly thanked Radio 1 listeners for the band’s Brit Awards win back in February.
Summertime Ball 2012 tickets go on sale at 8am on Monday 23 April. A portion of ticket sales profit is donated to “Help a Capital Child” charity.
Jelena were watching the Los Angeles Lakers play basketbol on Monday night when they appeared on the court’s halik Cam – which zooms in on couples to make them lock lips – and although they complied, Selena was enormously embarrassed.
Selena told Ryan Seacrest on KIIS FM radio show:
“It’s the most humiliating thing that’s ever happened to me, probably.
“They were ipinapakita these little elderly couples, and it was so cute. Then all of a sudden we’re both looking up and we come on the screen and it’s like… It was so awkward.
“It was so weird. I mean you have to kiss, right?”
Do you think Selena should or shouldn’t feel humiliated sa pamamagitan ng Justin’s kiss?
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Adele
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Michael Buble
Lady Gaga
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Eminem
Lady Gaga
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A Justin Bieber tagahanga just paid $40,000 to own the star's hair!
As we reported last week, after getting a cut recently - the U Smile singer then donated a lock of his chopped hair to talk ipakita host Ellen DeGeneres.
During Justin's appearance on The Ellen DeGeneres Show, the just turned 17-year-old told her: "It’s really my hair. But there’s a perk. I wanted to do something good.
"I’m giving pieces of it to different people," he said. "The thing is, we’re doing something special. We want you to donate it to whatever charity you want."
Ellen then put the hair - along with a box signed sa pamamagitan ng Bieber - on eBay, and the auction just closed with a winning bid of $40,668.
OMG JB UUR SO CUTE TALENTED AND BEAUTIFUL,THE MOVIE IS ABOUTHIS LIFE STYLE FROM BIRTH TO FAME . JUSTIN WAS ALWAYS A SWEET BOY HIS MOM sinabi WE ARE SO PROUD OF HIM CITIZINS OF CANADA THEY pag-ibig U JUSTIN GIRLS AREFIGHTING SELENA GOMEZ IS NOT FOR U . YOU NEED TO DO SOME THING ABOUT IT OK IM IN pag-ibig WITH UUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU JB FOR EVERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR
SELENA TOUGH LUKE HUNNY PLL HATE YOU RIGHT NOW SO BACK OF OK IM NOT SHOUTING OK
SELENA TOUGH LUKE HUNNY PLL HATE YOU RIGHT NOW SO BACK OF OK IM NOT SHOUTING OK
He says that he’s not tied to the hairdo and sinabi that he may shave it off for his susunod album. In a new interview, he said, “I’ve cut this style different ways, but I was thinking about shaving it off or changing it. But I know now isn’t the right time. Maybe for my susunod album.”
What do you think? Should the Biebz shave off his ‘do?
about my opinion..
justin bieber is cool and handsome with hair and without hair too..
because alot of things,most important
because of his nice personality,it decorates him from inside and from outside..and there is more
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Iconic Singer
Jason Derulo
Justin Bieber
Katy Perry
Ke$ha
Lady GaGa
Taylor Swift
Iconic Song
"Airplanes"-B.O.B ft. Hayley Williams
"Baby"-Justin Bieber ft. Ludacris
"California Gurls"-Katy Perry ft. Snoop Dogg
"Tik Tok"-Ke$ha
"Bad Romance"-Lady GaGa
"OMG"-Usher ft. Will.I.Am
Iconic Tweeter
David Archuleta
Joe Jonas
Justin Bieber
Katy Perry
Kim Kardashian
Ryan Seacrest
Iconic Male Star
Joe Jonas
Justin Bieber
Nick Jonas
Robert Pattinson
Taylor Lautner
Zac Efron
Iconic Triple Threat[Acting,Singing, and Dancing]
Alyson Stoner
Big Time Rush
Demi Lovato
Julianne Hough
Justin Bieber
Icon of The Year
Justin Bieber
Miley Cyrus
Nick Jonas
Selena Gomez
Taylor Lautner
Taylor Swift
Iconic Singer
Jason Derulo
Justin Bieber
Katy Perry
Ke$ha
Lady GaGa
Taylor Swift
Iconic Song
"Airplanes"-B.O.B ft. Hayley Williams
"Baby"-Justin Bieber ft. Ludacris
"California Gurls"-Katy Perry ft. Snoop Dogg
"Tik Tok"-Ke$ha
"Bad Romance"-Lady GaGa
"OMG"-Usher ft. Will.I.Am
Iconic Tweeter
David Archuleta
Joe Jonas
Justin Bieber
Katy Perry
Kim Kardashian
Ryan Seacrest
Iconic Male Star
Joe Jonas
Justin Bieber
Nick Jonas
Robert Pattinson
Taylor Lautner
Zac Efron
Iconic Triple Threat[Acting,Singing, and Dancing]
Alyson Stoner
Big Time Rush
Demi Lovato
Julianne Hough
Justin Bieber
Icon of The Year
Justin Bieber
Miley Cyrus
Nick Jonas
Selena Gomez
Taylor Lautner
Taylor Swift
Justin is so famous, everyone wants to know just how this 16-year-old bituin rose to fame.
The movie about his life is being directed sa pamamagitan ng John Chu. Here is what the director has to say about the flick:
"[It's] a movie for his fans, a movie for people who don't know him, and we're gonna tell the underdog story of where he came from. Because it's a really fascinating story and it has a lot to do with our sort of digital lifestyle now... we're gonna make a really fun movie."
He also added:
"There's not going to be acted-out scenes and I can't talk about the rest. It's not your typical konsiyerto film and it's not going to be a biopic ... but it is about his life," Chu said. "I think it's madami of a documentary. We're going to figure it out as we go."
Sounds interesting. As of now we do not have the opening dates for the movie. But we will keep you posted.
Justin Bieber bumagay up nicely susunod to Ciara as they attend the New Look Foundation’s First Annual World Leadership Awards at Cobb Energy Performing Arts Centre in Atlanta on Friday night (August 6).
The 16-year-old musician received the UNL Honoree: Global Youth Leader Award. The World Leadership Awards, which will bring together heads of state, civic and community leaders, philanthropists, and celebrities, will honor eight individuals for their commitment to supporting youth as leaders and change agents of some of our world’s most pressing issues.
The 16-year-old musician received the UNL Honoree: Global Youth Leader Award. The World Leadership Awards, which will bring together heads of state, civic and community leaders, philanthropists, and celebrities, will honor eight individuals for their commitment to supporting youth as leaders and change agents of some of our world’s most pressing issues.