Keep your mind sealed
to everyone else,
but make it bright to yourself.

What are you afraid of?
What is it you cannot speak about?

Devil is your best friend from time to time!

Hide yourself in dark,
so nobody could see
what you're going through.

Devil is your best friend from time to time!

Memories,
those sweet memories
of happiness keep you alive,
although you feel very dead.

Devil is your best friend from time to time!

What are you afraid of?
Why is your soul restless?

Devil is your best friend from time to time!

It has been settled inside for a while
to remind you
of what you've been hiding from,
tearing your soul to parts,
won't leave you be...

When your at your worst
don't pick up your purse
dept can be quite a curse

When your sad and wishing you were dead
then remember these words.."I pag-ibig you"
and let it matunog na halik you over the head.

And even if its not from your chosen one,
at least its from someone. You can never say
that your not wanted. nor will you ever be forgotten.

And as I'm Pagsulat this poem, I remember something
you once sinabi as you sat in bed.

"I'm not wearing any socks"

......As I get a nose bleed now, has anyone got a tissue? Its very much in need.

Sweet and innocence
Filled with hidden rage
Going swimming with her
Will be the you're life's last stage
Little girl from a past life
Was bullied and harmed sa pamamagitan ng mean girls
Drowning and returning was the beginning of her strife
Poor little girl sa pamamagitan ng the pond and flowers
Wanted a friend so badly
But she sits alone or swims for hours.
Her deepest darkest secrets
Revealed in the end
Oh why and why
Does she kill her new friends?
Her horrid rage and attitude
Left alone in a sloth
Within deep sleep and solitude
Her life didn't end like a fairytale
But it ended in the bottom of a lake
This tale of this little girl
Will end in heartbreak.

So far away
And yet so close
We change each others ways
We make each other smile
We make each other cry
This is our pag-ibig

We cannot hold each others hand
We cannot touch each others skin
We cannot feel each others warth
This is our pag-ibig

I reach for your hand but it isnt there
I stretch my arms out to hug you but there is no embrace
I look for your face but see only thin air
This is our pag-ibig

I think about you at night
You give words to soothe me
But its no enough
This is our pag-ibig

I long to hear your voice
To see you face to face
For all this to be clear in front of me and yet it cant
This is our pag-ibig

pain sadness pag-ibig happyness tears laughter joy despair
This is our pag-ibig

Watching waiting longing listening comforting
This is our pag-ibig

You and me
This is our pag-ibig

♫ Some say pag-ibig was all he had
Some say pag-ibig was all he gave
Some say pag-ibig was all he wanted
Some say pag-ibig was all he had on his sketch pad
Some say pag-ibig was all he craved
Some say pag-ibig was all he chanted
Some say pag-ibig that teared him apart
Some say pag-ibig was through his magical smile
Some say pag-ibig was all sang
Some say pag-ibig was all of his heart
Some say pag-ibig was his life style
Some say pag-ibig was his slang
Some say pag-ibig was all he had
Some say pag-ibig was all he gave
Some say pag-ibig was all he wanted ♫

Beauty will blind
But inside you'll Find
Something so hored and vile




Lust will linger
But You Will Never Care





Ignorance Will in Time Fowllow u
You always cover your pain




Nieve For Never leting go it Will Hurt u
It Will Smash Your Heart





Determand to Destroy Hurt and kill You Rip me Apart
You are

Beauty will blind
Lust will linger
Ignorance will Folow in time
NIeve For Never Letting Go
Determand To Destroy Me

A poem about sunlight

The beams of sun long to touch the Earth
They long to grace the face of people passing by
When they're close to the ground, dark clouds choke it off
The sun is pushed around sa pamamagitan ng the clouds, like a bully at school

The sunlight try to penetrate the cover of gloom
However, to no avail
With no sun reaching the ground, the clouds rain
The rain lands on the heads of people and changes the mood
Everyone is gloomy along with the cover on the sky

However, once the sky clears light fills the world
It warms our faces and cheers us much
The beams of sun reach the Earth and receive what they desired.




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Anger
Nothing but anger
I should have listened to Mama
She knew best
I didn't listen to her
Yes Mama, they all laughed at me.
The blood.
Everyone jeering and cheering
Just like in the locker room
The pig's blood on the dress I made.
The laughter.
Their ear splitting and cruel laughter.
I start to cry
Tommy yells at them, telling them to stop.
The bucket falls down and he lays there unconsious.
The lights turn red.
Still laughter.
They tried going out the door
I trapped them all inside with only my mind.
The hose unwrapped from the emergency glass.
I turn up the water pressure.
They all scream.
Electrical wiring
The fires
I did it
The town I grew up in
Damaged and destroyed.
All from my mind.
I go home
I go inside.
And I wake up
In a pile of stones from the sky.
All from my mind.
This destruction I caused.
They laugh at me no more.

tears fell down her face
i asked her what was wrong
for her sake
she said
"I'm just sitting here,
feeling sorry for myself for
believing him."
to which i replied:
fuck him.
he doesnt deserve your love
she says:
I know...


Hundreds

a hundred mga paru-paro couldnt sweep me away
a hundred winds couldnt blow me farther from you
a hundred wrongs couldnt make what were doing right
a hundred people couldnt block my veiw
a hundred rights couldnt make me go left
a thousand oceans couldn't keep me away from you.

I am mysterious yet sweet
I wonder what the future brings
I hear mga lobo pag-awit to the moon
I see diamonds swimming in a black sea above me as I lay in the grass.
I want people to understand me completely

I am walang tiyak na layunin yet shy
I pretend I am always going on new adventures
I feel misunderstood
I touch shards of my past, remembering them
I worry that I won't find someone who can view things the way I do

I am courageous yet cunning
I cry because the blames fall on me
I understand people's problems
I say witty things that persuade people
I dream of an absolution & life of adventure
I try to fit in but it's just so boring
I hope to travel around the world making madami mga kaibigan along the way.

I am all that I am, I am all of me

Forever old
I want to be forever old
I already lived
And I am waiting every day
To die
I have arthritis in my whole body
I also feel lots of pain
I can't no longer walk
I am wheelchair bound
I can no longer feed myself
I have a
Personal support worker
Who gives me my shower
And also changes my diaper
Full of poo
Because I doo poo
In my diaper
Also he dresses me in
My pajamas
Now he is going to feed my breakfast
That he made for me
I look pasulong to my breakfast
It is always very tasty

Do remember those times when we used talk nonstop?
Those times when you told those guys to leave me alone and knock it off?
So tell me, why'd you throw it all away?

You were there for me like I was for you.
It's true.
Yea, we'd fight sometimes, but that's what mga kaibigan do time to time.

So tell me, what happened to the old you?
The one I couldn't get enough, too?
And even sometimes called me Boo?

I thought that sinced I moved, You'd still care about me.
And and be there for me. Atleast try to be.
Guess I was wrong.

If I had that chance to atleast say goodbye before I moved, would you still wanted to try talking to me?
Or see?
No matter what, I'll always have in my puso and memories..

Stuck
Alone in my prison
Tongue bitten to hold
my screams
Smile worn to conceal
my fear
Free me from
this deep abyss
Save me from
this Lunar Eclipse
Take my pale
shaking hand
Collapse my
bindings to this
petrifying land
Frantic
the walls are closing in
puso beating slowly
so slowly
Pull me from this
cave of sorrows
Please I want to
see tomorrow
Take my pale
shaking hand
Collapse my
bindings to this
petrifying land
I can
pull at my hair
I can
claw at the ground
I can
yank on my chains
I can
cringe at the sound
of the crying souls
I don't wanna sumali them
I need your help
Will you take my pale shaking hand
and collapse my
bindings to this
petrifying land
-Nikki Fulfer

Welcome to where
your days will be different,
welcome to where your soul
will be filled sa pamamagitan ng happiness.


But, days like these
live only in your eyes,
like a dream, like a wish,
and the shine inside your
eyes makes the dream
valuable.


Every araw you wake up
knowing that life did
nothing for you,
and yet, you did nothing
for yourself.


Some dreams just
can not become true
and knowing it
your life becomes pointless,
that glow inside your eyes
is fading slowly,
and you are no longer alive,
reality has crumbled on you.



You live like a shadow,
as if your footsteps are
all that is left,
and your puso is as empty as
your eyes.
Your life is fading along with
your forgotten dreams.
Some dreams are not meant
to be achieved.

As I slip onto unconsciousness
My mind never sleeps
My eyes twitch, indicating dreaming

Odd dreaming
I feel dead inside
As I feel like I'm dying in my sleep

Aching muscles try to awaken me
I try kicking and screaming
My neck cannot turn or move

I feel trapped
It's almost like I'm in a coma
I cannot awaken

Somebody please!
Please!
Awaken me from this nightmare!
I truly think my dreams are trying to kill me!

Where's the morning light?
The light that wakens me
The dawn's light peaking over the horizon
It's not there for me

The mind is a place to escape from harsh reality
Yet it can be awfully deadly
So I hope you try to awaken yourself
When your body feels heavy and sleepy

When you sleep you can be in peace
Sometimes I am
Sometimes I'm not