Plz help me :(

You say you don't want anybody to know but you're announcing it here? lolokay

But seriously.

Talking is the best thing to do, it's healthy.

You could always go to a school counselor about it. You might want to check out the laws in your school district, but it least in my school they aren't allowed to tell your parents about anything if you don't give permission unless you're a danger to yourself or others. So that's always an option.

But I also know talking to adults sort of fucking sucks sometimes. Also talk to your friends. You might say you don't know who to go to, but I can tell you that you would be really surprised about which people have problems of their own. Most people would be willing to listen if you wanted to talk. And you could just somehow bring it up casually, I dunno. I know it's obviously different from depression, but when I was going through the whole coming out process I just sort of blurted it out to people and most were sympathetic. Don't ever think no one cares.

Honestly though, the thing with depression is that you sort of have to stick it out. It sounds like you're just self-diagnosing though, so maybe it's not even depression, but in any case you just grin and madala it. You tell who'll listen, but otherwise you just suck it the fuck up. Everyone deals with shit sometimes. Find things that make you happy, hold on to them, and just keep swimming. ;3

I don't think it's best to keep it from everybody you know...I had a serious depression last taon and until I confided in my mother I wasn't able to get help. So as much as you hate it, confide in somebody you know.

Completely agree w/Jeffersonian. Please talk to someone, like another adult you can trust.

My daughter went thru a depression last year. I got her out of her school (really bad environment for her), got her to a counselor, and she was on meds for a few months.

Things are so much better now, and she no longer needs meds.

Don't feel like you have to handle this alone.