Cas sank down in Indian style and reached out to the flames, which didn’t seem to affect him at all.
“I’ll go see how Meg’s doing” Sam sinabi softly and he left Dean alone with Cas.
“Alone at last” Cas smiled slowly.
“Why did you do it, Cas? Why did you kill so many people?” Dean asked hurt.
Cas looked down and played with his fingers. “I didn’t” he mumbled defensive. “I told Meg I was going to kill them all, to impress her, to sound like a bad guy. But she never actually saw me kill anyone. Okay, I killed those three men. But, Dean,…they raped me. You can’t possibly understand how fucked up I am, because of that. But I didn’t kill anyone else. Meg killed Heather, go ask her”
“What about those customers in the snack bar?” Dean asked.
“That was an accident” Cas swore. “It was then that I got my powers back. First we were all having fun, then suddenly I’m glowing with power and susunod thing everyone is dead. I knew how you would react, which is why I ran”
“So you admit that you have your powers back?” Dean said, raising his eyebrows. Cas pulled his shoulders.
“What can I say? I can’t lie to you” he whispered and he pierced his glance in Dean’s eyes. Dean took a step back, but Cas grabbed his sando and pressed his lips against Deans.
“I’ll go see how Meg’s doing” Sam sinabi softly and he left Dean alone with Cas.
“Alone at last” Cas smiled slowly.
“Why did you do it, Cas? Why did you kill so many people?” Dean asked hurt.
Cas looked down and played with his fingers. “I didn’t” he mumbled defensive. “I told Meg I was going to kill them all, to impress her, to sound like a bad guy. But she never actually saw me kill anyone. Okay, I killed those three men. But, Dean,…they raped me. You can’t possibly understand how fucked up I am, because of that. But I didn’t kill anyone else. Meg killed Heather, go ask her”
“What about those customers in the snack bar?” Dean asked.
“That was an accident” Cas swore. “It was then that I got my powers back. First we were all having fun, then suddenly I’m glowing with power and susunod thing everyone is dead. I knew how you would react, which is why I ran”
“So you admit that you have your powers back?” Dean said, raising his eyebrows. Cas pulled his shoulders.
“What can I say? I can’t lie to you” he whispered and he pierced his glance in Dean’s eyes. Dean took a step back, but Cas grabbed his sando and pressed his lips against Deans.
Since there was no way any of them was going to get any sleep, they packed their bags and loaded the Impala. Dean placed himself behind the wheel, Sam sat susunod to him and Meg on the backseat.
“First stop: Pontiac, Illinois” Dean said, as he started the engines and drove ahead. As they drove Dean turned on the radio to break the silence.
Meg stared out of the window. She felt utterly powerless. Had she still been a demon she would’ve just zapped herself to him. But then maybe she wouldn’t have felt this way and she wouldn’t even bother to go find him.
Maybe this was a sign. Maybe she was supposed to let go and go back to her old life.
No!, she reproached herself. You’re not going back to killing for fun. You didn’t get this far to throw it all away. You’re going to find Cas and get him back.
“Everything okay, there?” Dean asked.
“Yeah, I’m good” Meg replied with a mischievous smile.
“First stop: Pontiac, Illinois” Dean said, as he started the engines and drove ahead. As they drove Dean turned on the radio to break the silence.
Meg stared out of the window. She felt utterly powerless. Had she still been a demon she would’ve just zapped herself to him. But then maybe she wouldn’t have felt this way and she wouldn’t even bother to go find him.
Maybe this was a sign. Maybe she was supposed to let go and go back to her old life.
No!, she reproached herself. You’re not going back to killing for fun. You didn’t get this far to throw it all away. You’re going to find Cas and get him back.
“Everything okay, there?” Dean asked.
“Yeah, I’m good” Meg replied with a mischievous smile.
Cas was lying on the bed, his head on Meg’s lap. Anna was also in the room, after Sam had summoned her. There was only one thing left to do. Anna would have to read Cas to see if he was being possessed.
“Are you sure you want to do this?” Anna asked soft. Usually she wasn’t so reluctant, but this wasn’t just anyone. This was Cas, her brother. She didn’t want to hurt him.
Cas nodded and Anna came closer to him. She placed her hand on his belly and looked at Meg. “Distract him” she sinabi and she stuck her hand inside Cas’ stomach.
Cas gasped and larawan of Zoey tearing his insides out flashed before his eyes. Meg took his hand and he clenched her fingers. It hurt, but Meg didn’t pull away.
After a minuto Anna withdrew her hand.
“He’s not being possessed” she said.
“What? But that’s impossible” Meg replied astonished.
“He’s not being possessed, Meg” Anna repeated, almost apologizing. And without another word she left the room.
“Are you sure you want to do this?” Anna asked soft. Usually she wasn’t so reluctant, but this wasn’t just anyone. This was Cas, her brother. She didn’t want to hurt him.
Cas nodded and Anna came closer to him. She placed her hand on his belly and looked at Meg. “Distract him” she sinabi and she stuck her hand inside Cas’ stomach.
Cas gasped and larawan of Zoey tearing his insides out flashed before his eyes. Meg took his hand and he clenched her fingers. It hurt, but Meg didn’t pull away.
After a minuto Anna withdrew her hand.
“He’s not being possessed” she said.
“What? But that’s impossible” Meg replied astonished.
“He’s not being possessed, Meg” Anna repeated, almost apologizing. And without another word she left the room.