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not the person that you want me to be understand that you cant make me who im not even though you probably want to a lot i dont care what the heck you think okay? im gonna find myself and be who i really want to be everyday
Open your eyes and see why im this way its because of everything thats happened to me,that i think about everyday whats done is done but the effects are still here living everyday of my life with some sort of fear why do i not really like people and have issues? because i have been hurt sa pamamagitan ng them so many times theyve made me cry and go get tissues
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I feel like being both, but I feel like it's wrong to be both. everything with me is either one or the other.
On one hand,I feel like pushing people aside.Mostly because they annoy me,but also because I feel better when I'm alone. One the other hand,I feel like talking to everyone with joyfulness.
I feel like the whole world is frowning upon me.
But yet I feel like smiling and that I can do anything without being ashamed. Every time I do this though,it turns to be something to be ashamed about and just wanting to keep my happiness inside and to never ipakita it again.
Feeling like crawling inside a hole.
Feeling sorrow,guilt,embarrassment,happiness,unstoppable,trapped,and furious all at the same time. It's driving me crazy!
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Feeling like no one can save me from the depths of my disgrace.
All of my mga kulay have turned gray since the first araw I felt this way.
I know there's people who pag-ibig me and couldn't live without me,but that doesn't change the fact that I want to disappear. Because all I ever do is make mistakes.
Making the wrong ilipat at the wrong time is what I do. For there isn't room for people like me.
I don't want to feel any emotion. Not even pag-ibig for I fear there is still a gaping hole inside of me that I can't seem to fill.
Feeling detached from everything is the only way I can put how I really feel. Everything just seems so far out of reach. I want to be one of those people who feel complete but it seems impossible.
I am so weak because the only thing keeping me alive is my fear of pain.