Books About Depression

I want someone to love.Someone who I can make my own and is easy to talk to.I'll be their first choice and never their second.They'll play with my hair and twist it between their fingers just like my mom used to when I was little.My wanted someone will hug me tight and cuddle a lot. He will make me laugh when I'm down and be serious if necessary. We will act like little kids just for fun. He'll be romantic for sure. My someone will be at least somewhat cute so even his smile will make me smile. I want someone who appreciates me for me and will still pag-ibig me if I do something wrong. It would be nice if he was smart so he could help me out with stuff I can't do or don't understand. I know I sound selfish,but I know for sure I'd be super happy.

Of course since it is a lot to ask for,there is not likely to be a person like that and it is unrealistic and impossible.

(btw i already know the grammar and wording of sentences are bad so please don't complain about them)

Open your eyes to what is going on with me deep down and really understand why i sometimes frown i want you to see how i really am inside im tired of trying to cover it up and hide you think you know me but you really dont you should but you probably wont Open your eyes and see the real me
not the person that you want me to be understand that you cant make me who im not even though you probably want to a lot i dont care what the heck you think okay? im gonna find myself and be who i really want to be everyday
Open your eyes and see why im this way its because of everything thats happened to me,that i think about everyday whats done is done but the effects are still here living everyday of my life with some sort of fear why do i not really like people and have issues? because i have been hurt sa pamamagitan ng them so many times theyve made me cry and go get tissues