Wake up, Contemplate suicide Have exestential crisis pagtatalo philosophy with a shotgun or rope Throw on a sando and shorts Tell my husband and daughter how much I pag-ibig them Go to work Go home Go back to work Go back home Sleep
Wake up five minutos before needing to leave for work Attempt to drink coffee and get dressed in that puwang of time Go to work Dream about work finishing for the day Go back home Play games or keyboard Watch LoL Make pagkain and cup of tea, or drink booze Have a cigarette Go to bed Watch madami shit Try and actually go to sleep Finally, after however long I fall asleep
Wake up Instantly feel like I got no fucking sleep Contemplate getting outta bed Get up anyway Grab old drink I had sitting on a dumi ng tao net to my bee Walk to kusina to fill up my drink Check drink for stupid ants Go back to room Go back to kama (until my aunt says I have to get up) Get back up Find food Cook it Eat it Check Fanpop, Facebook and other social media platforms Play Fornite Watch YouTube for, like, 3 hours Check my email to see I got any feedback from my job applications Watch Youtube again, because you have 0 real-life friends Try on a bunch of my aunts outfits while she’s at work Contemplate going outside to get some Vitamin D Stay inside because it’s too damn hot Read stupid book that my social worker gave me Avoid immediate family because I know they don’t understand me Wander if my father will ever get a long enough break from work so that I could see him again Tells myself I don’t need friends Feels lonely as a result Gets over it sa pamamagitan ng watching YouTube again Skips lunch Wants to go out and do something But social anxiety kicks in Constantly worries about being in situations that I know I’ll never be in Tries to be productive Loses motivation Wait for nighttime so I can go back to sleep
