This may come as controversial to some, but I feel that I need to get this off of my chest. I was raised a Christian, but now I'm a deist. This is my story.
Growing up in the tip of the Bible Belt, I was raised a Christian, specifically Southern Baptist. My grandfather was the pastor of the church that my family went to. As I got a little older, I grew to pag-ibig the church. My grandmother was a Sunday School teacher, and sa pamamagitan ng my early teens, I became one of her most dedicated students. However, one Christmas, something began to change.
In 2010, I almost Nawawala my mother to myocarditis. I still felt that my faith was strong, for my mother lived through it. Unfortunately, where my mother technically died twice, she was left with brain damage. A lot of things changed, but she was still my mother, which is why I did not turn my back on kristyanismo at first. That Christmas, on our way back tahanan from my grandparents' house, my dad and sister started saying things that contradicted what I was taught to believe. Naturally, I got defensive. This only made the situation worse. That night, I looked out the window, shook my fist at the sky and said, "My whole life has been a lie." I became spiritually confused, and I felt hurt that my grandparents had lied to me my entire life. Then it hit me. That's what they were raised to believe. A few years later, I began calling myself a non-denominational Christian. I still went to the Baptist church, for it made my grandparents happy.
A few months ago, I began to realize something. My nakakita are madami of that of a deist. Seeing all of the hypocrisy and hatred in kristyanismo was the stepping stone for me to say, "I'm done. I just don't understand it anymore." I just can't take the hypocrisy and they hatred. That's just one reason I became a deist. The other reason? I think religion is bullshit. I don't doubt the existence of God. I believe with all my puso that something is out there, but there's no such thing as miracles. If you think kristyanismo is for you, sa pamamagitan ng all means, go for it, but it's not for me.
Growing up in the tip of the Bible Belt, I was raised a Christian, specifically Southern Baptist. My grandfather was the pastor of the church that my family went to. As I got a little older, I grew to pag-ibig the church. My grandmother was a Sunday School teacher, and sa pamamagitan ng my early teens, I became one of her most dedicated students. However, one Christmas, something began to change.
In 2010, I almost Nawawala my mother to myocarditis. I still felt that my faith was strong, for my mother lived through it. Unfortunately, where my mother technically died twice, she was left with brain damage. A lot of things changed, but she was still my mother, which is why I did not turn my back on kristyanismo at first. That Christmas, on our way back tahanan from my grandparents' house, my dad and sister started saying things that contradicted what I was taught to believe. Naturally, I got defensive. This only made the situation worse. That night, I looked out the window, shook my fist at the sky and said, "My whole life has been a lie." I became spiritually confused, and I felt hurt that my grandparents had lied to me my entire life. Then it hit me. That's what they were raised to believe. A few years later, I began calling myself a non-denominational Christian. I still went to the Baptist church, for it made my grandparents happy.
A few months ago, I began to realize something. My nakakita are madami of that of a deist. Seeing all of the hypocrisy and hatred in kristyanismo was the stepping stone for me to say, "I'm done. I just don't understand it anymore." I just can't take the hypocrisy and they hatred. That's just one reason I became a deist. The other reason? I think religion is bullshit. I don't doubt the existence of God. I believe with all my puso that something is out there, but there's no such thing as miracles. If you think kristyanismo is for you, sa pamamagitan ng all means, go for it, but it's not for me.
