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Thing's I pag-ibig in Life I pag-ibig and Hate...

posted by malmcd

My life so far has been...different. My dad left me and my mom when I was two. But something great came out of that I got an amazing new dad named Bill who we now know has dementia but we'll make it through...My brother is a junior in collage and I can't believe I'm saying this but I pag-ibig him so. My mom is a nurse she's been married twice before Bill there going to get married lets hope soon! I pag-ibig mga hayop but I don't have any right now because my kitten got run over sa pamamagitan ng a car two days before my birthday..I found out she died the araw after my birthday...all I wanted that taon for my birthday was to she her again.I have had ten isda what can I say there not a real pet but I guess I'm the isda killer! Now let me tell you a little madami about me...

Love- I pag-ibig my mga kaibigan here on Fanpop
Alli I hope you never stop wrighting and believing in yourself you are Beautiful brown hair in all! You great soul and I hope that boy or your mga kaibigan don't break it...P.S you tell them that I sinabi that and maybe he'll remember to say HI!
Maria You've been through a lot so haven't I but you'll make it through all the pain and hurt and puso break...you are strong and no one can break you! Your beautiful and one araw you will see the light behind the darkness

Hate- When people talk bad about other people...it makes me sick! I've been bullied,called names. But the then that I hate most and the worst I've every been talked about is sa pamamagitan ng parents...Yes parents not kids. When I didn't know about my whole eye problem I had bad balance and I was a bad dancer...they would talk about me in the waiting room at dance about how I wound never be as good as the daughter or how I wound never be a good dancer. But look at me now...I'm on a dance team making my way to a solo! And I want those moms to know something...

I Heard Every Word...

Now think about that before you talk bad about something because the person your talking about always ends up hearing it.

Love/Hate- My life and how I look. I don't believe that I'm that pretty. When I look in the mirror I see a girl with big blue eyes and thick eye brows, and pale skin with a couple of freckles. A sort of big nose...and big round lips the go down like a frown. And I see uunmanageable hair that goes ten different ways. pag-ibig the color of my hair ever changing but I just wish it wasn't so fluffy and big! I pag-ibig how I'm creative and stuff but sometimes people take avantage of me with my drawings.

My life has been filled with amazement and gifts but is also been a cruse...But somw say all that pain makes you stronger...

I've been working on my Book series The Quest For Nova now for six months. I believe that I'm in every character on every page I'm there. I believe that I'm most like Artista because growing up I really wasn't aloud to be myself and we both have Artistic side of us! I believe I'm Viva because of her dark past. But I can't wait to share many madami great ideas with my mga kaibigan here and I hope your ready for Book to of The Quest For Nova called Wanted...and maybe there's going to be a book three? Find out soon...

This poem means a lot to me so I hope you like it

A Dancers Dream Ruined

I slip on my shoes
and puntas them up.
Knowing that this is the last time.

I step onto the floor,
And stroll to the center.
I look in the mirrors surrounding me.

And think how could I have messed up?
I was only trying to be perfect.
What did I do wrong? I was only doing what the others did.

I find the courage to do my dance one last time.
With people watching me and starting to cry,
I start to feel a tear run down my face.

But then I saw one little girl.
Who reminded me of me.
so I smiled and put on a happy face.

I didn’t want her to give up on her dream.
So I did my dance gracefully,
Better than I have ever done before.

Then when it was over and the light,
Was no longer shining bright.
and,
I Nawawala control.
My dream of being in that dance was over.

I tried so hard to be perfect, that
I had damaged my dream.
sa pamamagitan ng not seeing what was happening to me.

At first I thought this dream had damaged me
But now I see this dream is still with me…
But I live it thought in a new way.

Fierce & pag-ibig

Malmcd or Mallory McDonald

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allicyn123 /your mom probably just wanted to protect you, my dad calls me every christmas and begs for me to go see him.....i refuse

malmcd I know but you get to chose if you want to go see him...I don't.

allicyn123 I'm sorry that you don't get the option, but at least you don't have to put up with the sadness in his voice over an over again

malmcd At least you hear his voice...

allicyn123 But I don't want to, ever again

malmcd I don't ether but I always wonder were is my dad how is he! Alli I don't even remember what he sounds like...

allicyn123 Thats the good thing though, you can imagine his voice however you want to, i wish i didn't know, his voice haunts me, i try to push it out, but... i can't de dosn't even tell me anything our conversations, EVERY TIME 'Hey Alli Rae' 'Hi,' 'So what about christmas this year? I miss you' 'Since when you never even see me.' 'You never le me' 'And I never will' 'RaeRae, your killing me,'' 'Good' 'But hon i'm your-' 'Don't say your my dad, because your not' *I hang up* Its not that exiting

malmcd I get what you mean but he loved me and I loved him those summers were so much! He would send me cards and stuff for birthdays and Christmas and call. Then one time I couldn't go see him on summer then the cards came less there were less stuff and calls. Then the last card I ever got came. It was a Christmas card with a fire place that lit up. I loved it and after that I never heard from him again.

allicyn123 i'm sorry that you loved him so much... i'm sure that if he could choose he would be there right now with you

malmcd but who knows where he is...he's just a memory now and he's in the past...

allicyn123 :*( I have no words to express how sorry I am...

malmcd you shouldn't be sorry it's not your fault!

allicyn123 I know, I can't help the little pinch in m heart though...

malmcd But there's nothing you can do...

allicyn123 That only makes it hurt more, sad friends make me cry :*(

malmcd What I'm not sad I'm just staying the truth! This Is my life I've learn to deal with it!

allicyn123 And I want to jump through the computer screen and find that little place in you and make it better

malmcd okay then?...

allicyn123 But I can't... so I'm sad, you'll probably fix it yourself eventually, I hope you do :)

malmcd me to...:)

allicyn123 :)

AuthorForPooh i cried so hard! i wish i can help. ur such a sweet person!

malmcd thanks...

Happyflames I luv this so much!!!!!!!! U sound beautiful! I hav the same hair only dark brown and curls.

malmcd thanks you I just want to help people...

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Hearing Damage. CHAPTER 2- The Orphanage.

posted by anniewannie

Hearing Damage.

Hearing Damage
CHAPTER 2– The Orphanage.

This is the araw two men in black bumagay knocked on the front door.
“Hello,” one of them nodded at me. He slipped off his black lenses. “Are you the daughter of Lisa Moore?”
I nodded. “Y-yes…”
“We’re from FBI and we’re here to take you somewhere.”
“What?” I was confused.
“You will understand when we take you there. Grab the things you need from this house and we’ll be off to go.” The other man told me, almost too hastily.
I was about to turn and go inside when one madami thing popped in my mind and I turned my...

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{*} When Your puso Speaks{*} Chapter 3 of Sinseta's Diary

posted by allicyn1234

May 26th,
I can't make it stop.
The voice WON'T STOP.
Until I'm around her, Sasha. She makes the voices stop. I'm so frightened sa pamamagitan ng the voice, afraid I'll snap, like a twig, and let it overpower me. So I stay with her most of the time, started being with her more. It's so hard though when she's not there, I'll find myself staring at my mother the voice pounding in my head, 'Kill Kill Kill Kill, Kill them' And I'll push it away and run to find Sasha. Please make it stop. Today father came bye, he sinabi that the cities are mobbed sa pamamagitan ng murders and gang fights and the government has Nawawala all control,...

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Dreams Written In Ash (CHAPTER TWO- The Dream Diary Of Sara Holds)

posted by malmcd

CHAPTER TWO- The Dream Diary Of Sara Holds

She Kept on pagbaba the sentence over and over again in her head, “All I want is Peace.” She wondered what she meant sa pamamagitan ng make all my dreams come true, did she mean that what she wanted Peace? Which now a day’s seems so far away, peace and harmony the things she wished for the most. The book felled nice against her hands as she rubbed it trying to see what the cover of it said. She managed to make out to words in fancy lettering.

Dream Diary

She walked past another burning building her once white hair...

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Diary of Pixius (Part 1: The dawn )

posted by BeautifulBlaze

Prolauge:
I am a man who has been eteranly damned to walk this earth. I have been sent to paghahanap for redemtion for my many crimes against society. They have deprived me of my right to live..or at least tried to. My name is Pixius..and this is my story. (Pixius means "Put to flight")

Day 1:
This happened so suddenly. They captured me sa pamamagitan ng surprise. I did'nt even have time to breath. All I was doing is walking around, minding my own business...well,thinking of my susunod crime to comite. I was almost thinking about something peaceful..almost. Little did I know that the royal gurad was lurking in the...

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Surround Me In Darkness - Chapter 2 (Half Way Point)

posted by allicyn123

When I blink my eyes open, I'm curled in the baya window, Anneri Sleeping on my chest. When I wake she stirs and blinks her eyes. "Darka! Finally your awake, it's already noon!" Noo, mom will be gone to work for a pocket of change and Dad'll be out drinking it away. Anneri climbs over me and I sit up warily. She reaches into her pocket and pulls out a deck of cards. I laugh softly, Anneri was a wiz at cards mostly, poker. She smiles and opens the deck pulling out a peice of paperwork it and unfolds it. "Well Darka you better get playing cuz after yesterday's terrible failure it's Anneri 35 and...

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I See Only Darkness..... And You - Chapter 2

posted by allicyn123

Slowly I trudge through the pine forest. The scents swirl around me in perfect harmony. My boots step lightly on the needles and twing barely making a sound. Steadily I take my metal karneng hiniwa and throw it into the air with all my strength. The eagle falls to the ground at my feet. for some reason the kill seems to take away a little bit of the pain, make it a little easier to breath, a little less painful to live. Keep going is what my head says but my puso barely keeps pace and I fear at any moment will just break down and crumble up to peices. Just stop. I can't give in. I can't. I think back...

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FORBIDDEN DESTINIES part 6

posted by allicyn123

Izzy's puso thumped What's happening?!?! Izzy tried to thrash out of it but nothing happened, and she tried to scream at herself as she walked down the stairs What are you!?!? and a voice rang out in her head in a snake like hissing voice that made her want to cringe My name is Trinsessa, the spirit of dark teachings, and I have been sent here to teach you what you've wanted for quite a while... Izzy's mind swirled What is that? Trincessa laughed To be evil! Izzy felt a knot in her stomach Someone to teach me? Maybe this is for the best..... as Trincessa walked Izzy down the stairs and...

Surround Me in Darkness - Chapter 4

posted by allicyn1234

I return tahanan after the long walk to Curlie's. The hand gun at my side, I creep into the house and paghahanap it to make sure Dad isn't inside. Seeing that he's gone I open my closet and set the gun in the empty walk - in. I wish Anneri would come home, there is a little voice inside my head telling me that she needs to come home. It scares me beyond belief, half of me tells me to go out to the fields and find her, I wish I had listened to that voice. I wish i had listened to it even madami when I hear my mom open the door and run into me and Anneri's room. Her hair a flurry her eyes wide she looks...

An Angle to Save...(Foster's Story)

posted by malmcd

“Foster?” sinabi a sweet little voice.
    “Yes Aria?”
    “Can I ask you something?”
    “Yeah go ahead?”
    “Do you pag-ibig me?” Her voice almost sounded weak and worn.
    “I pag-ibig you to the Moon and back and to the star’s above!” He made baybayin to smile when he sinabi it to make her fell happy.
    “Can I ask you another thing Foster?” She grabbed his head as he sat susunod to her bed.
    “Shore.”
    “Why do...

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{*} When The Chains Started To Break {*} Chapter 2

posted by allicyn1234

May 24th
I haven't been able to write the past 2 days, the voice is driving me crazy, LITERALLY. Somtimes I'll wake up in the middle of the night and will find myself holding another kutsilyo or gun and padding up the stairs to the bedrooms. After last night when I woke up holding a gun my hand on my mother's bedroom door, I saw Sasha staring at me wide eyed, from her bedroom door and I dropped the gun. She looked terrified and her breathing was hard, I ran over to her where she shied away the fear of me in her eyes made tears well up in mine. "Sasha, baby come here." I held my arms out to her...

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Monsters and Thieves In My Closet - Chapter 1

posted by StReNgThHoPe

Montsers and Theives in My Closet

Chapter 1 - Normal

Sometimes she couldn't decide who she was. No. She could never decide who she was. She was odd, different, awkward and dying inside. Maybe she had thought about hanging herself on her closet rack a few times too many. Her own voice was destroying her. Searching endlessly for the one crack in this dark closet of a life she had. The little crack that she could squeeze into just to see the ounce of light. To feel the touch of another person who she could interact with. Maybe that would never happen. Maybe she tried to hard - changed herself too much - was too scattered to appeal...

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Poems about sfc's lol.

posted by Giz_4ever

Sandi:

Ribbon broke my heart,
I knew he would.
So what is he going to do?
I'd know if I could...

Gizbin:

SHUT IMBECILES, I'VE HEARD ENOUGH.

Killerpose:

People call me the terror.
People call me the selfish.
People call me the nasty.
People call me the cruel.
People call me the idiot.
People call me the stupid.
People call me the crazy.
People call me the annoying.
People call me the long lasting.
People call me the fishy.
People call me the curious.
People call me the laugh.
People call me the cheesy.
People call me the stubborn.
People call-
Everyone: SHUT IT!!

Lust The Deadly Sin

posted by malmcd

Lust

Oh, how you look at her,
You know you want her,
Don't you?
Yes, you do,
For she's the girl of your dreams.

I am one of the Seven Deadly Sins,
One of the dark sides of human nature,
One of the natural human instincts,
One of the daemons from the Pit;
I will tell you that
I am a great feeling to have,
And you know it, too.

I have infected the life
Of every teenage boy,
Making him want whatever girl
He desires,
Including the most popular girl
In the school.

Middle schoolers are so easy,
For they are so stupid,
They always fall for me,
And they do horrible things
That are a taboo in this poem.

I can also affect high...

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Vine In The Meadow Where The Soy Beans Grow - Part I

posted by allicyn1234

Vine In The Meadow Where The Soy Beans Grow (Bean)

Hi, I'm Vine In The Meadow Where The Soy Beans Grow. But I'm ussually called Bean. Now, I know ha ha funny your name is sitaw whatever. But where I come from, we all have names like that. My sister's name is Brooke That Swims Upstream Against All Odds. My brother's name is Blazing Sun On A Boiling June's Day. I come from a place know to only the Tribe Of Nature's First Green. Hydralinial. It's a small planet really. not too big, you could probably travel it's circumfrence in a matter of 45 days. Enough nerdy - introduction stuff, I'll tell you about the REAL mystery.
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"Bean! Get...

~.: Help! The Chains Are Gone!:.~ The Last Chapter of Sinseta's diary

posted by allicyn1234

May 30th,
I remember when i was a little girl. Me and my dad were alone after my mother died. See my parents are what you would call Memory Thieves. We take other beings memory to sustain our own strength but we only take memories now if we have to. When I was ten, my dad gave me a little white wooden box. He told me to sleep with the box open susunod to my kama and if I was a true memory thief my memory stone would be in the box when I woke up. A memory stone tips what gives us the ability to steal memories. When I woke up there if was. A blue stone, matching my eyes that glowed like a crystal....

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Dying Frost Prologue

posted by allicyn123

Dying Frost Prologue

Blood. It's everywhere. I whirl around to the open field, the field I once knew as an empty, lonely, ghostly zone, The battle field. Then it hits me. I'm gonna die. Struggling to hold onto reality the familiar face of Anacri flashes past me. Here's reality. I'm laying in a battlefield, the roar of war behind me, a apoy warrior holds his spear up aimed for my heart, he's going to kill me now. My people, the ice people are terribly outnumbered and about to lose our home. When time slows down Anacri holds her bow to the apoy warriors head and let's the palaso soar into the air....

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Dreams Written In Ash (Chapter One- When The Light Ended)

posted by malmcd

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This is to all my mga kaibigan on here who believe in me and believe in my dream’s. But one person who really helped me and has the same dream as me BeautifulBlaze or Daniel,
Thank You...
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My Dream

My dream is to make the world a better place.
For you and me and the people to come.
I want peace in this world,
And love,
And harmony.
The world we live in now is curl and cool,
and filled with war.
It’s like we’re all on a wheel of all the angry,
thoughts and feeling’s.
A never ending and every winning
race of hate.
My...

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Surround Me In Darkness - Chapter 1

posted by allicyn123

"What are you crying for weakling?!?!" Dad screams at me and clubs my cheek again The tears that had been tumbling down my face instantly stop. Remeber Darka you feel nothing I thought. Dad smiled and stumbled out "Remeber son, only a weakling cries." And he slammed the door. For a segundo I just stand there and let the blood froim the cut on my eyebrow bleed on to my face, then I remebered Anneri was there. In the corner of the room she curled up and peeked at me. Her grey-green eyes and long black hair was placed perfectly with porclean tan skin. Dad never touched her. Anneri was to fragile....

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Dreams Written In Ash ( CHAPTER FOUR- A Plan Set In Motion.)

posted by malmcd

CHAPTER FOUR- A Plan Set In Motion.

Asha’s eyes began to fill heavy so she pack up her bag and closed her book and took off her shoes and slowly made her way to the small kama on the floor and covered up and began to dream of a better world...

She woke in a field filled with bulaklak and tall green damo that made her feet wiggly. She looked around and then she looked up...She saw the bright blue sky and the sun she closed her eyes and just listened. She heard birds and mga hayop and then she began to hear her mothers old song that would always put...

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Poem for the Pagsulat Games

posted by malmcd

I new I could die at any second,
But I took the risk of loving you.
I keep on feeding myself with lies saying that I wound be perfectly fine,
And not to worry about it.
But inside I know there is nothing I can do to save myself.
The pain weighs down on you
I wish I could change it
But you can't
I was cursed with this disease
And I made you...
Weak
And get weary
I made you miss sleep
And get moody
You were in thoughts
And you wrote songs
But you sinabi you were in Love
And that I would walk on
So I believed you I keep holding on,
And fighting the constant Battle.
But we both new the results are the same
My life would...