okay, i was just surfing the site and i ended up in the new moon spot, and i thought it was a bit small so ive decided to post the first part of my new moon fanfic entitled eternal night.
im only going to put the first bit up and if you guys like it, the rest is in the twilight spot.
i realise that many people from the new moon spot are also fans of the twilight saga spot so if you have already read this, feel free to ignore it.
this is edwards POV of when he is away from bella in New moon.
It had been about four months now. I assumed that it was four months, but I could be wrong. I hadn’t really been paying attention.
I was in the middle of a jungle somewhere, Brazil I thought. I didn’t really know because it didn’t matter. This wasn’t where I wanted to be.
I stopped the thought in its tracks. I couldn’t think about it. It only made it worse.
I refocused on a droplet of water hanging from a leaf in front of my face. It had been raining for three days straight and almost all of Victoria’s scent had been washed away. Well, I was a useless tracker anyway. Thinking of Victoria made a small ripple of anger run through me. Anger was pretty much all I felt anymore, besides pain. It was all for her of course. To make the world safer for her. She was so fragile, so soft—
No. I scolded myself silently. Thinking her name will just make it harder. But I couldn’t help it.
Bella.
A moan escaped my lips. How could I leave her? The sole reason for my existence and I left her! What if she is still lying there, waiting for me?
No, I told myself again. Alice had called me, told me that she would be found.
I uncurled from my position, knees to chest, chin to knees, sitting on the forest floor.
I had to go back. Just to catch a glimpse of her, assure me that she was moving on. But I couldn’t, I knew that. One look and I would be on the ground in front of her, begging for her to take me back.
The tiny pieces of my puso ached painfully. It was broken beyond repair. Who knew a silent, unbeating puso could break? Mine certainly had.
I knew, beyond a doubt, that I wouldn’t last much longer not seeing her. I was past trying to live through one day, one oras at a time. It was coming down to minutes.
I shook my head violently, but I couldn’t dislodge the thoughts of her swirling around my head.
I stood up quickly, closing my eyes so I could smell Victoria better. I regretted it instantly.
Looking back at me from behind my eyelids was Bella’s face. Anguished, confused, frightened. The last expression I had seen her with. Her deep tsokolate eyes stared back at me, pleading, begging for me to stay. I moaned again, madami quietly this time. How could she believe me so quickly? After all the times I sinabi I loved her? What was she thinking?
I needed to know she was alright, that she was happy. If she was happy I could last a little bit longer.
I thought about calling Alice, to make sure, so of course the phone vibrated in my pocket.
Sighing I fished it out of my pocket, glancing at the call register to make sure it was really Alice.
“Hello?” my voice was empty, lifeless. Alice was the opposite.
“Edward! Why didn’t you call sooner? Esme has been frantic.” Alice rushed on at full speed.
“Anyway, I know why your calling and I swear I wasn’t keeping tabs of her, it’s just I'm already attuned so I can’t control what—“
“Alice that’s fine.” I said, cutting her off. My voice was still dead.
“I just want to know how she’s been, then I'm going to keep going after Victoria.” I didn’t know if I could though. Her scent was almost completely washed away.
I realised Alice hadn’t sinabi anything.
“Alice? Are you still there?” not that it mattered anyway. I could feel my resolve wavering. I could just go back for one day....
“Yeah, I'm still here.” She sinabi quietly. I was surprised. Alice was never quiet.
“Edward, I’ve seen how you’re going to react to this news, and I don’t really want to tell you.”
I waited, somewhat impatiently.
“Don’t break the phone.” She warned me.
“Alice, tell me” the words came out in a growl. A flicker a shame ran through me.
I could almost hear Alice bitting her lip.
“Umm.... well I’ll tell you the good news first then.” She rushed through the words, even faster than usual.
“Bella’s going out to see a movie with Jessica tonight. Their going into Port Angeles and tomorrow she’s going to volunteer to answer a tanong in class.” She gushed. The way she sinabi this made me think it wasn’t a regular occurrence.
Alice went on. “She smiled today and she talked to Charlie without him starting the conversation.”
She was running out of steam.
“And...Umm--”
But then it clicked. If this was the good news...
A deep growl built up in my chest, making me shake.
“Edward,” Alice squeaked. “Careful of the phone!”
I realised that the plastic of the phone was bent almost to breaking point. Willpower alone made me loosen my grip. My breaths came uneven and rough and it felt like the huge, gaping hole my torso had grown to twice its size. The deep growling in my stomach got louder.
“Four months?” my voice was scarcely a whisper, but the pain made the words choked.
“Edward it’s alright, she’s getting better!”
“Four months?!” I repeated. I couldn’t breathe. An odd choking made its way up my throat.
“She still hasn’t gotten over me after FOUR MONTHS?!”
“I know it’s hard to take in, but she is getting better! She smiled and laughed today! Just because it happened later than you wanted doesn’t mean anything! She’s getting better!” Alice insisted, talking even faster, so I struggled to catch the words.
The choking sound faded. I just kept repeating to myself over and over, she’s getting better, she’s getting better. Well, that was madami than I could say for myself.
“Thanks, Alice.” I was whispering again.
“Will you come home?” Alice asked, already resigned to my answer.
“No, I—I can’t. I’m sorry. It would just hurt everyone more.” There was no need for anyone else to see me like this.
“I pag-ibig you Edward. Just think about calling me and I’ll know.”
“Thanks, Alice. Bye.” I flipped my phone shut.
The rain was coming down harder but I didn’t even notice.
Four months.
Silently, I began tracking Victoria where I had left off.
***** *****
Seven months had passed, and I was hunting.
I had been trying to ignore the burn deep in my throat, but I had reached my limit. I had already caught two jaguars. Even though the burn was still there, I had no desire to keep hunting.
I was about to return to tracking when my phone vibrated in my pocket. I briefly considered ignoring it, but the vibration was annoying.
“Hello?” my voice was even worse than before. It sounded almost human it was that rough. I fought the urge to shudder.
The voice that answered me was a stark contrast to my voice. It sounded like golden wind chimes.
“Edward? You sound like crap.” Rosalie was as direct as always.
“What do you want?” I sinabi in my dispassionate voice.
“Ummm...” Rosalie was reluctant. Rosalie was reluctant?
“What’s going on?” I sinabi quickly. “What is it?” my voice had an undercurrent of panic in it.
“Edward I... I don’t know how to tell you this...but...it’s about Bella.” Rosalie sinabi nervously.
I froze, my body like ice. What could make Rosalie sound like this?
“She...she’s dead, Edward. She jumped off a cliff. Alice is going to forks now to help Charlie.....I...I’m sorry.” Rosalie was sorry. Rosalie was sorry?!
I didn’t answer. I was frozen. Absolutely motionless.
“Edward?” Rosalie’s tentative voice came over the phone.
I didn’t even hear her. My finger moved to the end call button and I hung up.
I stood there, phone to my ear.
Bella was dead. No, it couldn’t be true. No. NO! The world would feel different somehow.
I couldn’t exist in a world where she didn’t.
My fingers moved over the keys, dialling out a number I never thought I would again.
The phone rang twice before a deep, husky voice answered.
“Swan residence.” I recognised the voice from somewhere but it didn’t register. Nothing mattered but my susunod question.
“It’s Dr. Cullen.” Some part of my brain still working gave me what I needed to say. “Is Charlie there?” I didn’t ask for Bella. What if she was dead?
“He’s not here.” The voice had changed. It was cold, menacing.
“Where is he?” my voice reacted to the change. I was bordering on rude.
There was a short pause before the answer. “He’s at the funeral.”
I hung up.
Without being aware of my reaction, I shut the phone and put it my pocket.
I stood there, motionless. My head was trying to process the information, but it was too painful.
I was too late to do anything. I couldn’t save her this time.
My mind was made up before I had even comprehended what I was thinking.
I was going to Italy.
***** *****
i hope you like it! feel free to comment :)
im only going to put the first bit up and if you guys like it, the rest is in the twilight spot.
i realise that many people from the new moon spot are also fans of the twilight saga spot so if you have already read this, feel free to ignore it.
this is edwards POV of when he is away from bella in New moon.
It had been about four months now. I assumed that it was four months, but I could be wrong. I hadn’t really been paying attention.
I was in the middle of a jungle somewhere, Brazil I thought. I didn’t really know because it didn’t matter. This wasn’t where I wanted to be.
I stopped the thought in its tracks. I couldn’t think about it. It only made it worse.
I refocused on a droplet of water hanging from a leaf in front of my face. It had been raining for three days straight and almost all of Victoria’s scent had been washed away. Well, I was a useless tracker anyway. Thinking of Victoria made a small ripple of anger run through me. Anger was pretty much all I felt anymore, besides pain. It was all for her of course. To make the world safer for her. She was so fragile, so soft—
No. I scolded myself silently. Thinking her name will just make it harder. But I couldn’t help it.
Bella.
A moan escaped my lips. How could I leave her? The sole reason for my existence and I left her! What if she is still lying there, waiting for me?
No, I told myself again. Alice had called me, told me that she would be found.
I uncurled from my position, knees to chest, chin to knees, sitting on the forest floor.
I had to go back. Just to catch a glimpse of her, assure me that she was moving on. But I couldn’t, I knew that. One look and I would be on the ground in front of her, begging for her to take me back.
The tiny pieces of my puso ached painfully. It was broken beyond repair. Who knew a silent, unbeating puso could break? Mine certainly had.
I knew, beyond a doubt, that I wouldn’t last much longer not seeing her. I was past trying to live through one day, one oras at a time. It was coming down to minutes.
I shook my head violently, but I couldn’t dislodge the thoughts of her swirling around my head.
I stood up quickly, closing my eyes so I could smell Victoria better. I regretted it instantly.
Looking back at me from behind my eyelids was Bella’s face. Anguished, confused, frightened. The last expression I had seen her with. Her deep tsokolate eyes stared back at me, pleading, begging for me to stay. I moaned again, madami quietly this time. How could she believe me so quickly? After all the times I sinabi I loved her? What was she thinking?
I needed to know she was alright, that she was happy. If she was happy I could last a little bit longer.
I thought about calling Alice, to make sure, so of course the phone vibrated in my pocket.
Sighing I fished it out of my pocket, glancing at the call register to make sure it was really Alice.
“Hello?” my voice was empty, lifeless. Alice was the opposite.
“Edward! Why didn’t you call sooner? Esme has been frantic.” Alice rushed on at full speed.
“Anyway, I know why your calling and I swear I wasn’t keeping tabs of her, it’s just I'm already attuned so I can’t control what—“
“Alice that’s fine.” I said, cutting her off. My voice was still dead.
“I just want to know how she’s been, then I'm going to keep going after Victoria.” I didn’t know if I could though. Her scent was almost completely washed away.
I realised Alice hadn’t sinabi anything.
“Alice? Are you still there?” not that it mattered anyway. I could feel my resolve wavering. I could just go back for one day....
“Yeah, I'm still here.” She sinabi quietly. I was surprised. Alice was never quiet.
“Edward, I’ve seen how you’re going to react to this news, and I don’t really want to tell you.”
I waited, somewhat impatiently.
“Don’t break the phone.” She warned me.
“Alice, tell me” the words came out in a growl. A flicker a shame ran through me.
I could almost hear Alice bitting her lip.
“Umm.... well I’ll tell you the good news first then.” She rushed through the words, even faster than usual.
“Bella’s going out to see a movie with Jessica tonight. Their going into Port Angeles and tomorrow she’s going to volunteer to answer a tanong in class.” She gushed. The way she sinabi this made me think it wasn’t a regular occurrence.
Alice went on. “She smiled today and she talked to Charlie without him starting the conversation.”
She was running out of steam.
“And...Umm--”
But then it clicked. If this was the good news...
A deep growl built up in my chest, making me shake.
“Edward,” Alice squeaked. “Careful of the phone!”
I realised that the plastic of the phone was bent almost to breaking point. Willpower alone made me loosen my grip. My breaths came uneven and rough and it felt like the huge, gaping hole my torso had grown to twice its size. The deep growling in my stomach got louder.
“Four months?” my voice was scarcely a whisper, but the pain made the words choked.
“Edward it’s alright, she’s getting better!”
“Four months?!” I repeated. I couldn’t breathe. An odd choking made its way up my throat.
“She still hasn’t gotten over me after FOUR MONTHS?!”
“I know it’s hard to take in, but she is getting better! She smiled and laughed today! Just because it happened later than you wanted doesn’t mean anything! She’s getting better!” Alice insisted, talking even faster, so I struggled to catch the words.
The choking sound faded. I just kept repeating to myself over and over, she’s getting better, she’s getting better. Well, that was madami than I could say for myself.
“Thanks, Alice.” I was whispering again.
“Will you come home?” Alice asked, already resigned to my answer.
“No, I—I can’t. I’m sorry. It would just hurt everyone more.” There was no need for anyone else to see me like this.
“I pag-ibig you Edward. Just think about calling me and I’ll know.”
“Thanks, Alice. Bye.” I flipped my phone shut.
The rain was coming down harder but I didn’t even notice.
Four months.
Silently, I began tracking Victoria where I had left off.
***** *****
Seven months had passed, and I was hunting.
I had been trying to ignore the burn deep in my throat, but I had reached my limit. I had already caught two jaguars. Even though the burn was still there, I had no desire to keep hunting.
I was about to return to tracking when my phone vibrated in my pocket. I briefly considered ignoring it, but the vibration was annoying.
“Hello?” my voice was even worse than before. It sounded almost human it was that rough. I fought the urge to shudder.
The voice that answered me was a stark contrast to my voice. It sounded like golden wind chimes.
“Edward? You sound like crap.” Rosalie was as direct as always.
“What do you want?” I sinabi in my dispassionate voice.
“Ummm...” Rosalie was reluctant. Rosalie was reluctant?
“What’s going on?” I sinabi quickly. “What is it?” my voice had an undercurrent of panic in it.
“Edward I... I don’t know how to tell you this...but...it’s about Bella.” Rosalie sinabi nervously.
I froze, my body like ice. What could make Rosalie sound like this?
“She...she’s dead, Edward. She jumped off a cliff. Alice is going to forks now to help Charlie.....I...I’m sorry.” Rosalie was sorry. Rosalie was sorry?!
I didn’t answer. I was frozen. Absolutely motionless.
“Edward?” Rosalie’s tentative voice came over the phone.
I didn’t even hear her. My finger moved to the end call button and I hung up.
I stood there, phone to my ear.
Bella was dead. No, it couldn’t be true. No. NO! The world would feel different somehow.
I couldn’t exist in a world where she didn’t.
My fingers moved over the keys, dialling out a number I never thought I would again.
The phone rang twice before a deep, husky voice answered.
“Swan residence.” I recognised the voice from somewhere but it didn’t register. Nothing mattered but my susunod question.
“It’s Dr. Cullen.” Some part of my brain still working gave me what I needed to say. “Is Charlie there?” I didn’t ask for Bella. What if she was dead?
“He’s not here.” The voice had changed. It was cold, menacing.
“Where is he?” my voice reacted to the change. I was bordering on rude.
There was a short pause before the answer. “He’s at the funeral.”
I hung up.
Without being aware of my reaction, I shut the phone and put it my pocket.
I stood there, motionless. My head was trying to process the information, but it was too painful.
I was too late to do anything. I couldn’t save her this time.
My mind was made up before I had even comprehended what I was thinking.
I was going to Italy.
***** *****
i hope you like it! feel free to comment :)