Like everyone else, I was pretty damn (Sorry about that.) shocked when I heard about Carrie Fisher's death. I was talking to my friend on Google+ when he informed about her death. I knew that she had a puso attack about a week before she died, but I didn't expect this.
Without any further a due, let's being!
bituin Wars is my segundo paborito franchise of all time. Not only is it a big part of my childhood, but also a big part of my life.
While I didn't grew up watching the original trilogy, I do respect the entire bituin Wars franchise, as whole. Later, I did manage to watch the original trilogy, and I have to say, I was very impressed. One of my paborito characters in the pelikula was of course Princess Leia.
Carrie Fisher was still a teenager when she was cast as Princess Leia, and George Lucas gets a lot of mileage, especially early in the trilogy, out of the contrast between Leia’s youthful, sweet appearance and her sharp tongue and forceful manner. Leia is a post-feminist sort of princess, equally comfortable firing a blaster or piloting a ship as she is conducting a medal ceremony. Toward the end of the trilogy, we also learn that Leia has the potential to become a Jedi, just like Luke. Leia is a Senator, a princess, and a leader of the Rebel Alliance, and her devotion to duty and to the cause of freedom is one of her defining characteristics. This devotion prevents Leia from acknowledging to Han her growing pag-ibig for him, and it even prevents her from admitting it to herself. Leia tells Han that he is needed as a leader and a pilot, but never that she needs him herself. Han, of course, tries to goad an admission out of her, but his efforts only cause her to bottle up her feelings even more, though she does make some efforts to inspire jealousy in Han sa pamamagitan ng halik Luke (Before she learns that they are brother and sister.). Leia finally tells Han that she loves him, just when it is almost too late and he is about to be nagyelo alive.
Leia takes part in the rescue of Han Solo from Jabba the Hutt, freeing him from the carbon freeze, only to be taken captive herself sa pamamagitan ng Jabba. Up to this point in the trilogy, Leia has dressed modestly, favoring practical, functional clothing over anything fancy. Now, however, she is forced sa pamamagitan ng Jabba to don a revealing harem outfit, complete with ginto bikini, and to wear a chain around her neck. Leia’s reaction to the situation is thoroughly in character and reveals the way her character smashes the adventure-fantasy stereotypes about sexy princesses. In the confusion caused sa pamamagitan ng Luke’s surprise attack, Leia hops behind Jabba, loops the chain around his massive neck, and strangles him to death. Leia then helps Luke destroy Jabba’s barge before escaping with the others. The scene is a perfect summation of the kind of reversal of expectations typical of Leia throughout the trilogy.
One of the things I loved about Carrie Fisher the most was her "poetic honesty".
Sometimes, I like going to Audible.com and listen to samples of famous actors with iconic voices reading; particularly because I pag-ibig the sound of their voices. Every time I listen to them reading, it feels like I'm getting smarter and madami understanding towards them. They are celebrities, but they're still people.
When I listened to Carrie Fisher's samples of her pagbaba her own books, I was surprised to hear the voice of Angela from Family Guy. You see, up until that point, I didn't know that Carrie Fisher also played Peter Griffin's boss. I was surprised, to say the least.
My paborito books written sa pamamagitan ng Carrie herself are: "The Princess Diarist"; "Wishful Drinking"; and "Shockaholic."
In "The Princess Diarist", Carrie is talking about her role as Princess Leia; where she would've been without bituin Wars; about how it changed her life.
A very interesting thing I remember was when she sinabi "Am I Princess Leia, or is Princess Leia me?" Which, like I said, I find very fascinating. Everyone is a tagahanga of something, and there's always a character whom we admire, who is portrayed sa pamamagitan ng an actor, who the fans also admire for breathing life into the character. However, a good performance isn't just a good a performance; a lot of things to into it, like: the writing, lighting, music, camera work, etc. But the actors are the ones who gave the characters...well...character. However, many actors do start off as just some walang tiyak na layunin actor before they're cast in the role that will shape who they are. Is the actor making the character, or is the character making the actor?
In "Wishful Drinking", Carrie is talking about how, in her youth, she tried to fit in with everyone else, but she always stuck out, and her parents were always known to stick out, and how she found herself sticking out with them. She doesn't ask for people to feel pity for her, but rather, she wants to describe her former life to us, so we can understand her more. It reminds me a lot when I described my life and myself to others in my "Getting to know Renegade1765 (Updated Version).". I didn't write that artikulo and describe how miserable I was during that time so I may gain sympathy from people, but because my original "Getting to know..." artikulo (Which turned 2 years old.) was rather disappointing.
An interesting part that Carrie wrote/read was when she was talking about how she barely saw her father in real life, but saw her a lot on TV. She talks about how hard it is to understand this incomprehensible world of ours.
And in "Shockaholic", she talks about how hard her life was. About how she has to accept and pag-ibig others, before she can truly pag-ibig herself.
In an interesting part of the book, Carrie is talking about how surprised she was when she was told that she needs to have shock therapy.
Another thing that I loved about Carrie Fisher was that she was proud of her mental illness; or rather, her being proud about being different from other people. She was a woman who wasn't afraid to speak her mind to people, even if what she was talking about might scare people.
Let me tell you, I can relate...
Back in January of 2015, I argued with my mother about my solitude. Later, at night, my parents came and started talking about how my solitude was unhealthy; that my laptop was like a drug and that I should stop using it; that I should make mga kaibigan with others, not just online. The problem was that I didn't know how! Back then, I barely had any friends; we only talked during school...which was a hell hole (Sorry about that.). Nearly everyone was a complete and utter moron with no sense of empathy, and the girls were bunch of annoying, unsympathetic bimbos.
Another reason why I was so introverted was because I had problems with my emotions, so I always tried to hold them back when I was around other people, because I was afraid of being judged wrongly or hurt them.
My father even sinabi that I need a psychiatrist.
After he left, my mother stayed tahanan and I told her why I'm so introverted and what was happening. I told her about my crush on Elsa from nagyelo because how much I related to her. I told her about the mga kaibigan I made online. I told about my hobby of Pagsulat articles. She was judgemental at first, but over time she became much madami acceptable about my interests.
Back in November of this year, I started going to a psychiatrist, after I accidentally told my mother that I wanted to kill myself for receiving bad grades at school for exams in Romanian and Psychiatry. I worked so hard and even put my very puso and soul into them, but I still flunked. Luckily, I had better grades before those, so I passed the semester - but I still couldn't help but feel mortified beyond belief.
I remember I told my best friend on Hangouts that I wanted to kill myself. I didn't talk to him after that, not because I was so depressed after my grades, but because my tablet wasn't working right. He was desperately trying to get an answer out of me. I remember feeling awful after telling him that and then not respond to him. He was in so much shock, I felt like I made the biggest mistake of my life.
The psychiatrist herself is very nice, and I feel ligtas that I could express my problems in front of someone who could understand me and not think of me as a freak.
The reason I told this story is because I relate a lot to Carrie. In fact, during the making of this article, I realize how similar we actually are.
Even though I didn't grew up with the original bituin Wars trilogy, I have nothing but respect towards them. I respect the effort that was put into them. I respect the impact they made on the media. I respect the actors who owe their career to this series. I even respect George Lucas himself for bringing his vision to life.
On December 27th, we Nawawala a wonderful, daring, inspiring, and admirable woman, and a great friend. Shame she wasn't a friend of mine, too. I would've loved to have conversations with her.
Rest in peace, Carrie Fisher. Princess, advocate, and beacon of strength for the world. May the Force always be with you.
