“I have so much to learn about life,” 22-year-old superstar Taylor matulin tells Sunday’s issue of PARADE. “I know nothing compared to what I’m going to know someday.”
The onetime outsider—a songwriting savant bullied sa pamamagitan ng mean girls in junior high and overlooked sa pamamagitan ng the guys she crushed on— has evolved into the ultimate insider, an entertainer Forbes ranked as the highest-paid celeb under 30 this year, with earnings of $57 million. Her fourth album, Red, is a blockbuster that moved madami than 1 million copies its first week. She has A-list BFFs, a couple of hit movies, and a growing listahan of high-profile ex-boyfriends (including Taylor Lautner, Jake Gyllenhaal, John Mayer, and Robert F. Kennedy Jr.’s 18-year-old son, Conor). So why can’t matulin shake the fear that she’ll somehow mess it all up? “I’m scared of this whole thing backfiring,” she admits. “Or chewing me up and spitting me out, and all of a sudden, I don’t pag-ibig it anymore.”
Here are some highlights from the interview. Check out the full interview with Taylor matulin in this weekend's issue of PARADE, and go behind the scenes of the star's cover shoot in the exclusive video below.
Despite Pagsulat about it so prolifically, matulin claims not to know much about love.
I tend to think things are pag-ibig and then look back and reevaluate. How many times has she been in love? I know how many people I’ve sinabi ‘I pag-ibig you’ to. I could probably count it up, but I don’t feel like it. Part of me feels you can’t say you were truly in pag-ibig if it didn’t last. If I end up getting married and having kids, that’s when I’ll know it’s real—because it lasted.
matulin on the bad boys she often seems drawn to.
There’s a really interesting charisma involved. They usually have a lot to say, and even if they don’t, they know how to look at you to say it all. I think every girl’s dream is to find a bad boy at the right time, when he wants to not be bad anymore.
matulin is the first to admit that her romances tend to develop—and end—rather swiftly.
I don’t think there’s an option for me to fall in pag-ibig slowly, or at medium speed. I either do or I don’t. I don’t think it through, really, which is a good thing and a bad thing. You don’t look before you leap, which is like, ‘Yay, this is awesome! Let’s not think twice!’ And then you’re like, ‘We used to be flying. Now we’re falling. What’s happening?’
On the difficulty of living in the public eye.
I don't know necessarily how much privacy I’m entitled to, but I know I don’t get much of it. At the same time, I asked for this. I could be playing in a coffee house. I’d be happy doing that, [but] not as happy, probably. Knowing that people are going to hear the music I make is the most amazing feeling. Knowing that there are dudes waiting outside my house with cameras, hiding in the bushes, is a less awesome feeling.