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***Randy's POV***

Randy sees you go to the bathroom alone, wanting to wash your face. He held his tears back well, not letting one single drop fall when being with you.

Randy: I'm gonna go out to get some air.

Randy walks out of the hospital and sits on the stairs. His held back tears fall to the ground like a smooth river flowing. He covers his hand to his mouth, trying to not make any noises. The larawan of you crying your puso out, shouting that you wanted to live, comes to his mind...

***your POV***

You see Randy sitting there, moving his shoulders up and down as if he were crying.

Jamie: Randy....

Heaven
It had been 3 hours from the Jamie and Landon wedding. She was so beautiful in that dress. Landon looked breathlessly as she came down the aisle. She smiled at Landon and never wanted to be without him ever again.
"I somberly swear to take Jamie Elizabeth Sullivan to be my lawfully wedding wife" Landon said. "I somberly swear to take Landon Rollins Carter to be my lawfully wedding husband" Jamie said. "I pronounce you husband and wife" Hegbert said.
After the wedding
They had a big reception with so many people. The cake was huge. All Landon's mga kaibigan were there. Jamie was happy that she...

Randy goes in your room when the doctor sinabi it was ok. He sees you sleeping and he can smell the bleach from cleaning up your blood. He grabs a chair and sits susunod to you. He holds your hand and feels it cold. He warms them up for you sa pamamagitan ng breathing on them. Randy starts tearing up again and his tear drops fall on your hand. He quickly wipes them off your hand...

You wake up to see Randy asleep on the chair susunod to your bed. You look around and you realize your in a hospital. You can't remember anything that happened to you before except the dizziness you felt back at Randy's house. You smile...

I pag-ibig you, I only need you. Everytime I look at you, my words change. It feels like the sun is shining down on me, giving me the warm feeling that you are my one and only last love.

The whole day, you and Randy hang out together with his brothers and Angie. You guys just all hang and chill together wherevers..

**at night**

You tuck in Angie again and you hear a knock on your door. It's Randy again.

Jamie: *smile* Oh it's you again.
Randy: *smile* Can I?
Jamie: Sure.

Randy plops onto your kama and gets under your covers. You follow right after and you halik him lightly.

Jamie: Ugh tomorrow's school.
Randy:...

****

Winter vacation is finally over and you guys all go back to school...

Shawn: uy Taylor. You think we can talk?
Randy: Uh sure.

Shawn and Randy go to the back of the school and they just stand there...

Shawn: Ok. I wanna be truthful and I wanna be as simple as possible too. You should let go of Jamie.
Randy: ...*kinda laughs* What?
Shawn: You should let go of Jamie. I mean you haven't even broke it with Lauren.
Randy: Oh...I totally forgot about her.
Shawn: See. Your just playing them.
Randy: Shawn, buddy, I know you like Jamie a lot but she's mine. I like her and she likes me. Lauren is just...unrequited...

Is my pag-ibig really that bad? Everyone is happy when they're in love, but I'm here crying. Why am I hurting so much? I would leave anything for this pag-ibig to happen...

You and Lauren head to the back of the school and she gives you a dirty look. You get a bad feeling and she pushes you and says:

Lauren: Are you a f**ing whore?!
Jamie: ...
Lauren: First you like him, then you break up with him, and now you're with him again?! Are you trying to play him?!
Jamie: ...
Lauren: Are you?!
Jamie: The only reason I left him was because of you. You sinabi you were suicidal...
Lauren: Randy Taylor is mine! Got it?!...

In the middle of the night again, you wake up feeling a sharp twisting pain in your stomach. You twitch and you quickly yet gently ilipat Randy's hands off your waist. You leave the sopa and you run to the bathroom and you head to the toilet. You just start throwing up and throwing up into the toilet, closing your eyes but feeling the acidic burn in your throat. When your done throwing up, you look and you see blood in the toilet.

Jamie: Oh god...

**next morning**

You go back to your kama and you plop onto the bed, not being able to fall asleep. You look up at the ceiling, just staring into the...

Randy: Y-yah sure. Come in.

Randy lets Shawn in the house and Brad sees him. Brad's face turns to >:0 and he says:

Brad: I'm glad your here Shawn cuz now I need to give you what you deserve.

Brad is about to manuntok Shawn but his dad sees this and shouts:

Tim: uy uy hey!! What the hell is wrong with you Brad?
Brad: Dad...you don't even know what he did to Jamie.
Tim: What did he do huh?
Shawn: I tried to rape her sir.
Tim: I'm sorry I didn't catch that.
Shawn: I tried to rape her...sir.
Tim: ...you know what how DARE you try to pull something like that to a poor, sick girl and-

While saying that, the...

Even though you might never be sa pamamagitan ng my side again, I will never forget you. You won't understand how happy I was with you. When those memories come sa pamamagitan ng me, I will be thankful.

Randy: I want to Jamie really...but I can't let you. I don't wanna get hurt sa pamamagitan ng you again.
Jamie: ...
Randy: And besides...what about Shawn? And what about Lauren? You always cared for them madami than you did for me or for you.
Jamie: ...
Randy: I'm sorry Jamie...
Jamie: Then at least drop me off at my house. That's the least you could do...right?
Randy: Of course.

You grab Angie and you sit in the back upuan of Randy's car with Angie...

Jamie: H-huh?
Randy: I like you Jamie. Not just as a friend but madami than that.
Jamie: ...I...
Randy: I know your going through a really tough time. I mean your grandma just died, you just broke up with your boyfriend, and...and your health.
Jamie: ...what?
Randy: I know...about your leukemia.
Jamie: ...
Randy: But Jamie...I want to help you. I don't want you to go through this alone.
Jamie: Randy...I want you to leave.
Randy: Wh-what?
Jamie: I want you to leave.
Randy: B-but-
Jamie: Randy...*tears* leave...
Randy: ...

Randy gets up and walks out your door. You hear him get in his car but something pulls...

Why won't you understand my heart? Even if it's not me, can't it just be me? I've never had this want for anyone before. Can't it be me? Can't it be me in this life time, or can it be me in the susunod life time? Even if you promised today is the end, I won't be afraid...

Randy parks in your driveway susunod to Shawn's car and you see Shawn squatting down at your porch. He sees you and Randy and you get out of the car with Randy. You quickly get Angie and you walk susunod to Randy, in case Shawn might do something to him. Shawn walks up to you and he starts yelling.

Shawn: Where the hell were you?!?!?...

**October**

So a whole buwan passed sa pamamagitan ng and you and the whole group have gotten closer, esp. Randy. You and Shawn have started to barely hang out outside of school and you spend the rest of your time either studying, sleeping, eating, or hanging out with both Angie and Randy.

**Friday**

Randy: So what do you wanna do this weekend Jamie?
Jamie: Um I don't know. My grandma wants me to go to church with her but I'm not all that spiritual.
Randy: Oh. Well what days you going?
Jamie: Saturday night and Sunday for a regular service.
Randy: Oh. Well we can hang out at your church then so you won't be bored....

As time goes sa pamamagitan ng you'll be able to forget everything...

You've been getting closer with the group while getting farther from Shawn. You don't even bother hanging out with him when you see him around school. You just walk with Randy and the rest of the group (you and Randy have every single class together and 6th period too). You and Randy have been getting pretty close and you guys can crack jokes to each other now. In 6th period, you go to your coach and you give him the note from the doctor. You look at the coach's expression while pagbaba it and he looks like 0,0...

Coach: Sullivan...
Jamie:...

**basketball:6th period**

You and the varsity team are all practicing drills and today for some reason, you feel really out of breathe and dehydrated. On your water break, you gulp down your whole water bottle but you still feel dehydrated. You feel dizzy and you fall on your knees.

Coach: Sullivan!! Get your behind over here!!

You try to get up but you can't. You just fall right back down to your knees and the assistant coach goes to you, Tommy.

Tommy: What's wrong Jamie?
Jamie: I feel dizzy.
Tommy: Why don't you sit down. Do you need water?
Jamie: Y-yah...

Tommy gets you cold water and you gulp it...