Dream Diary Article: Poem Girl

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posted by malmcd

If I where to disappear...
Would you look for me?
Would you cry that I was gone?
Or even care that I might never come back?
If something were to happen I want you to know...
I will be at the light at the other end of your dark tunnel, or other words life...
Because in the end of all this darkness theres something better...
I'll be waiting there for you to find your way,
Even if I haven't found my own way or have ibingiay up..
I'll wait to see you finally find happiness...
Like I said.
I'm here for you..
And even if I'm not here
I will always be with you
Your never truly alone
I will also be there to talk to
Even when you can't see me...
If I were to go I want you to know its not your fault
Don't blame yourself because I wanted out..
Or that you couldn't save me
Because right now I'm not sure anyone can..
But you will never be alone because I'll always be here..
I've thought of my way out how I want it to be..
It could be
Pills, cuts, bleach, or even a shot to the head or a jump of a bridge...
I've thought of my note I'd leave because I've written over 20 of them trying to get it right...
But the thing I want you all to know and remember is..
Everything I did
Or wrote
Or the reason I stay alive is..
For the Kids who are different..
My journey is for you...
I live for you...
I hope you know that
Because I might not always be here for you
Because someday I could disappear...
But I want you to know...
I pag-ibig you...

Fierce & Love
Mallory McDonald
MaLmcD
Poem Girl
Mallort
BF
Bitch
Slut
Nerd
Freak
Stupid
Dumb
Fore eyes
ect.

Beyal8 and SongGirl50701 like this

SongGirl50701 Why give up now? Your first breathe that you took helped you fight because it was the beginning of the fight. Please don't Mallory. Your none of the hurtful names people call you. Why? Because your Mallory McDonald (Poem Girl).

malmcd I've been fighting my whole life no joke. When I was a baby I had a hard time eating and it took my forever just to drink a bottle of milk I was starving to death. I've been fighting my whole life, and at this point I can't fight anymore...

SongGirl50701 What's the point in stopping?! Your not dying for the right time! You have a reason to live ! I found that out last night when I was thrown down after being bear hugged as I ranawy from home! I have you guys. You have us and we have you. All for one! Never one fading!

malmcd The point of stopping is that I can't fight anymore....I'm being eaten alive by the darkness.... And I want you to know if I ever give up and give in to the gun or into the knife I'll say goodbye...

SongGirl50701 Please stay strong! Alli will be on soon and we need to stay together for her! And Mallory, you're wounded but I know your still strong, I know you can still fight! Your Mallory McDonald. You can and I know you will!

SongGirl50701 Think about all the people who love you and care about you. The doubts are what keep you determined and hungry and it also pushes the darkness away angrily for peace! You can!

malmcd I love how you say that... Because you guys have always thought of me as strong.. But the truth is I'm not strong at all..

malmcd The life in my eyes is slowly disappearing...

SongGirl50701 Yes you are! You're the one who is able to explain how people feel and how they are because you feel for us! We don't want to loose you Mallory- NEVER! I NEED YOU. WE NEED YOU. DREAM DIARY NEEDS YOU. why? You're a piece- and not a small piece! YOU'RE SO DAMN SPECIAL TO ALL OF US!!!!!!

SongGirl50701 Please don't go....