It’s Monday evening. Cuddy has just packed the last things. Rachel already sleeps. The movers arrive tomorrow morning at 8 am. Cuddy sets the clock on 6:30 so she has time to rid the beds and take the last things in the bathroom. Then she lies on her kama but can’t sleep, too many thoughts haunt her mind. She puts the radio on and listens to the music, she hopes so to find some peace and some sleep. Malcolm told her he didn’t manage to get her apartment earlier, she so has to go to this MacEnzie, which doesn’t really please her, but she has no real choice, she doesn’t want to offend her new colleagues and go to a hotel. I just hope that House is there… I miss him so much… I hope he’ll want to see me and will understand that I couldn’t help but accept the invitation of MacEnzie for a few days, he can be so violent and do so crazy things when it’s about me, sometimes he scares me, I don’t know if I do the right thing sa pamamagitan ng going there where he lives. I know he never wanted to hurt me or Rachel, and I can understand how hurt he must have felt when he saw me with the guy that Julia invited, but … Cuddy, what do you really want? she asks herself and looks at the ceiling. Do you simply know it? Are you sure you want this man? Are you sure you can deal with all he’s done to you? Are you sure you can forgive him? Are you sure you want to spend the rest of your life with him? You have once already tried and that badly ended… You know him, you know he’s screwed up, you know he’s a drug-addict, are you ready to deal with all his sides? Are you ready to accept his faults too? Because if you’re not, then don’t go there, even if you pag-ibig him, if you’re not ready to forgive him, it won’t work. NOOOOO, she suddenly shouts. It has to work because I can’t live without him, I need him in my life, Rachel needs him too… I pag-ibig him, and I know he loves me… Wilson was right, we can’t live without each other…
“Oh can’t you see
That for worse or for better
We’re better together
Please, just come back home
And don’t say that you’re sorry
And I won’t say I told you so…”
The words of the song suddenly hit Cuddy. They fit so perfectly with her and House. He told her he would do horrible things to her again because he hadn’t change and that their relationship wouldn’t work, but she didn’t want to hear him, to listen to what he said. She thought, she was sure she could handle him and his “bad sides”, she tried and believed she could, but indeed she couldn’t, she failed to pag-ibig him the way he deserves it, she screwed up and now she feels so bad, so sorry, even guilty… They had hard times when they were together, they didn’t really dare to have a fight about little things, they both accumulated of small criticism to the other one and at the end she “exploded” and left him out at the door. After a few days he eventually apologized but she knows that she wasn’t fair play. She pouted like a little spoilt girl whereas he tried to be like she wanted him to be. Then they reconciled and she was happy again, but was he really happy with her? Is she what he really needs? Why is it so hard? Why can’t it be simple? She loves him, he loves her, so what’s their problem? Why can’t they just be happy together?
On the other side of the country, House can’t sleep either. Cuddy arrives tomorrow afternoon, Malcolm told him a few hours earlier. He wanted to know if House would like to pick her up at the airport. House didn’t take the time to think about it and answered immediately yes. He doesn’t want that MacEnzie picks Cuddy up and drives her immediately to him, he wants to see her first, he needs to see her, he misses her so much… And he wants to warn her about MacEnzie, he wants to tell her that this man will try to seduce her, that she has to be careful with him… that he’s not the man she needs… but sa pamamagitan ng what right can he say that? MacEnzie will maybe a good man for Cuddy and Rachel, a man who understands them, a man who can supply to their needs… a man who’ll be there when they need him… all that he never was… Suddenly he hears Wilson coming home.
-Hey, Wilson! How was your date? House asks with a little smile.
-House! It’s 3 am, why are you not sleeping? I’m a big boy, I don’t need a chaperon!
-Really? I thought you’d like to speak about your evening with your friend…, House says and stares at Wilson. So? How was this girl?
-Why do you want to know that? Wilson asks suspicious…. Do you know her? Do you tell her to go out with me because you feel guilty to get soon Cuddy back at you while I’m still alone?
-Wilson! How can you simply imagine that? You offend me! ang sumagot House and pretends to be vexed. Wilson looks at his friend, but he can’t say if House plotted everything or not.
-Well, let’s say that I leave you the benefit of the doubt…
-Thank you so much, ang sumagot House ironically. Will you eventually tell me how your hapunan was?
-It was great, this evening was really great, House. And Kate, she…
-Kate?
-Yes, Kate, she’s really nice, she’s beautiful, smart and funny, she likes the theater and the contemporary art, she works in a picture gallery of the city center, we have a lot in common, I … I think I’m gonna give her a try, Wilson sagot his eyes glittering with happiness.
-Good for you! House says and smiles to see his friend so happy. He knew that Wilson will like Kate the segundo he saw her.
-Yeah,… thank you, House. … And what about you? Why are you still up?
-I … can’t sleep…
-You think about her, don’t you?
-Yes. What do you think I should do, Wilson? House asks and seems so Nawawala and desperate that Wilson decides to help him to go through this.
-Well, we go and pick her and Rachel up tomorrow at the airport, then I take Rachel with me and YOU talk to Cuddy.
House looks at Wilson, he’s the best friend he ever had. And if she doesn’t want to talk to me?
-Don’t be stupid, House! When I left her a week ago, she spoke everyday about you! She missed you, House! She still loves you, believe me!
-I hope you’re right, Wilson, House says in a low voice. But do you think that I’m the man she really needs? Are you sure that I’m good enough for her? That I deserve her? She’s so beautiful, so smart, so funny… she’s so … I can’t find a word to describe how wonderful she is… She probably deserves someone better than me. Maybe I should go and let her live her life, start a new life…
-House! What are you thinking of? Don’t be so stupid! Don’t depreciate you so much! I don’t even recognize you! That’s not the man that Cuddy loves and wants! She wants the strong, brilliant, funny House! That’s this one she loves! Not a pale image of him!
-Do you believe it?
-Of course! And Cuddy is as screwed up as you. She wasn’t happy with Lucas although he assured her a certain feeling of safety, of stability. She’s uncommon just like you, and she needs an “uncommon life” with the “most incredible man she’s ever known”, she doesn’t want a life of routine, she got bored with Lucas because nothing “special” happened. With you, she knows she’ll have hard time, but she also knows you’ll offer her an interesting life, full of surprises and love.
-Maybe.
- And if you want to have … madami time just for the two of you, I can take care of Rachel.
-Really? You’ll do it?
-Of course, I do! You and Cuddy need to talk seriously. And it will take some time.
- And what about Kate?
-Don’t worry, Kate told me she loves children.
-Good point for her.
-She told me too that … she hopes to find soon a man who can be the father of her future children, if you want to know the truth, adds Wilson a little embarrassed.
-It seems that you find a woman who knows exactly what she wants… I’m afraid to screw it up one madami time with Cuddy. … I don’t want to lose her, Wilson, she’s all I need!
-House, you won’t screw up this time, just open up to her, just accept to open your puso to her, she knows you, she understands you like nobody else, I’m sure she has already forgiven you.
-I hope so… I want her, I need her in my life…and I’ll be there for her and for Rachel every time they’ll need me.
-I’m sure you do. But you have to open up and let her see your feelings, your fears… Trust her, talk to her and it will work.
-Ok, thanks, Wilson.
-You’re welcome. Now, let’s go to kama or we’re gonna be so tired that Cuddy and Rachel will be scared, Wilson adds and smiles.
-And what about MacEnzie?
-What? She doesn’t know him! How can she fall for him? He’s nothing compared to you! And …
-And? Wilson, tell me what you plan!
-Nothing, just let me do tomorrow and take care of Cuddy… the way she needs the most, if you see what I mean, Wilson says and gives House a wink full of allusions.
