Well... you know me... I can't really give up on Pagsulat fics, and since I don't really have time to write something longer, I decided to write a one shot :)
I hope you enjoy it, it's not really long and I just wanted to let myself try to explain what have been happening the last few months ;)
Reviews would be delightful :)
pag-ibig you sinners (:C
She crawled into her kama after the long, tiring day. Her kama seemed so empty, and so was her life.
He was the only thing that filled it and now he wasn't there.
They'd had a fight that day. A horrible one. She'd sinabi something she never thought she'd say. But the words had found their way to escape her lips.
As she sunk beneath cold bedding, she realized just how much she missed him.
She missed him as a friend, she missed him as her lover, she missed him as his constant.
He was always there for her, she was always there for him.
Until today.
She couldn't be there for him when she'd thought he could have been making the worst mistake in his life if he proceeded with what he'd wanted to do.
He wanted to leave his wife to be with her.
And it all started with her telling the press that she'd come to the terms with never having kids.
He couldn't put up with the fact that she'd been able to sacrifice so much just for him, just for their relationship.
She loved him, for a long time.
But she wanted to pag-ibig him in the confines of her and his home, she didn't want anyone to know what was going on between them. But the world knew.
The world was suspicious and they had madami than good reasons to be.
Hugh had, oh so nonchalantly, stopped wearing his ring to the public events. He'd wanted to ipakita her how serious he had been when he'd sinabi he'd wanted a divorce and to be with her.
She couldn't handle that. She couldn't bare the fact that he was throwing twenty years of marriage just to be with her.
She'd argued him about the ring and they'd had a huge fight when she hadn't wanted to come with him to the SAG awards with him. She'd insisted on him wearing the ring that night cause things had been getting out of control.
After the PCAs people had been buzzing about them 24/7. It had gotten so much out of control she'd asked the ipakita producers to put them apart at the Golden Globe awards.
She could still remember all those looks Hugh had been giving her that night. He had been tumawid with her for trying to sabotage his plans.
And it had all culminated today.
She could still hear him yelling at her for not letting him get a divorce. She'd kept talking about his kids and how he had to think about them first. The truth was, she knew the kids wouldn't mind. They already knew they were together. Jo knew as well, she'd moved on, having a man of her own in England. Everyone knew. And yet, she wasn't ready to let the cat out of the bag.
Or rather, confirm the cat had been let out of the bag.
It was hard for her. It was hard for her to admit that she'd become a tahanan wrecker.
Well... not that Hugh and Jo's tahanan hadn't been already wrecked once she'd stepped in his life, but she still felt she had been responsible for at least a bit of it.
Now, when she was curled in a ball thinking what happened that day, she couldn't find a valid reason for her to not accept Hugh's decision to finally get divorced.
But it was eating on her insides. It was the final call. She wasn't sure if she wanted him to take that final step that separated them of freely being together.
She could just never accept to be happy. Never. Well, not publicly anyway.
She sniffed a bit realizing how stupid she had been. She could just about have it all and she refused to.
It was her MO. She'd always been a bit of a masochist. It was like, she was punishing herself for something she really didn't know what it was..
But.. it must have been huge and somewhere all the way back in her subconscious when it wasn't letting her be happy.
She felt something on her kama and raised her head to see it was her cat. She stroked it and as she continued on doing it she managed to fall asleep.
She woke up to find herself curled up beside him. She had no idea when or how he'd gotten in her bed.
But he was there. The fact that he could overlook everything she'd done and sinabi the nakaraan araw made her realize one madami time just how much she meant to him. And that scared her... a lot.
She raised her head to find him staring at the ceiling.
“We can't go on like this forever” he sinabi still gazing up at the ceiling.
“I... know” she sighed, a tear forming in her eye.
“I pag-ibig you Lisa” He sinabi taking her hand and placing a halik on it.
“I pag-ibig you too Hugh”
She placed her head on his chest listening to his puso and she knew that it would be beating for her. Forever.
♥
Please rate and review :)
You know how to make Hilly happy (:C
♥
I hope you enjoy it, it's not really long and I just wanted to let myself try to explain what have been happening the last few months ;)
Reviews would be delightful :)
pag-ibig you sinners (:C
She crawled into her kama after the long, tiring day. Her kama seemed so empty, and so was her life.
He was the only thing that filled it and now he wasn't there.
They'd had a fight that day. A horrible one. She'd sinabi something she never thought she'd say. But the words had found their way to escape her lips.
As she sunk beneath cold bedding, she realized just how much she missed him.
She missed him as a friend, she missed him as her lover, she missed him as his constant.
He was always there for her, she was always there for him.
Until today.
She couldn't be there for him when she'd thought he could have been making the worst mistake in his life if he proceeded with what he'd wanted to do.
He wanted to leave his wife to be with her.
And it all started with her telling the press that she'd come to the terms with never having kids.
He couldn't put up with the fact that she'd been able to sacrifice so much just for him, just for their relationship.
She loved him, for a long time.
But she wanted to pag-ibig him in the confines of her and his home, she didn't want anyone to know what was going on between them. But the world knew.
The world was suspicious and they had madami than good reasons to be.
Hugh had, oh so nonchalantly, stopped wearing his ring to the public events. He'd wanted to ipakita her how serious he had been when he'd sinabi he'd wanted a divorce and to be with her.
She couldn't handle that. She couldn't bare the fact that he was throwing twenty years of marriage just to be with her.
She'd argued him about the ring and they'd had a huge fight when she hadn't wanted to come with him to the SAG awards with him. She'd insisted on him wearing the ring that night cause things had been getting out of control.
After the PCAs people had been buzzing about them 24/7. It had gotten so much out of control she'd asked the ipakita producers to put them apart at the Golden Globe awards.
She could still remember all those looks Hugh had been giving her that night. He had been tumawid with her for trying to sabotage his plans.
And it had all culminated today.
She could still hear him yelling at her for not letting him get a divorce. She'd kept talking about his kids and how he had to think about them first. The truth was, she knew the kids wouldn't mind. They already knew they were together. Jo knew as well, she'd moved on, having a man of her own in England. Everyone knew. And yet, she wasn't ready to let the cat out of the bag.
Or rather, confirm the cat had been let out of the bag.
It was hard for her. It was hard for her to admit that she'd become a tahanan wrecker.
Well... not that Hugh and Jo's tahanan hadn't been already wrecked once she'd stepped in his life, but she still felt she had been responsible for at least a bit of it.
Now, when she was curled in a ball thinking what happened that day, she couldn't find a valid reason for her to not accept Hugh's decision to finally get divorced.
But it was eating on her insides. It was the final call. She wasn't sure if she wanted him to take that final step that separated them of freely being together.
She could just never accept to be happy. Never. Well, not publicly anyway.
She sniffed a bit realizing how stupid she had been. She could just about have it all and she refused to.
It was her MO. She'd always been a bit of a masochist. It was like, she was punishing herself for something she really didn't know what it was..
But.. it must have been huge and somewhere all the way back in her subconscious when it wasn't letting her be happy.
She felt something on her kama and raised her head to see it was her cat. She stroked it and as she continued on doing it she managed to fall asleep.
She woke up to find herself curled up beside him. She had no idea when or how he'd gotten in her bed.
But he was there. The fact that he could overlook everything she'd done and sinabi the nakaraan araw made her realize one madami time just how much she meant to him. And that scared her... a lot.
She raised her head to find him staring at the ceiling.
“We can't go on like this forever” he sinabi still gazing up at the ceiling.
“I... know” she sighed, a tear forming in her eye.
“I pag-ibig you Lisa” He sinabi taking her hand and placing a halik on it.
“I pag-ibig you too Hugh”
She placed her head on his chest listening to his puso and she knew that it would be beating for her. Forever.
♥
Please rate and review :)
You know how to make Hilly happy (:C
♥