I'm in a pag-ibig triangle. Both guys are aware of each other.
I still pag-ibig my ex..
About my ex:
His name is Sean and lives in New Jersey, but was adopted from South Korea. When I was getting bullied at school, he was always there for me. I was being called a lot of names and believed them. I used to cut myself and he had me stop along with my best friend who is like a sister to me. (Laura) Sean is super sweet and has a few flaws.
1. He has a foot fetish. I had heel-cord surgery and my feet are my sensitive. I also have a 3rd degree burn on my right ankle. So if he ever gave me a foot massage, I would be tense and make him worried that I didn't like him anymore.
2. He loves making our rps (sexting or rping anthros) into something sexual. Right now, my life consists on my mom having an affair and talking about sex is hard for me. I know a lot and madami than I should though I'm 14(still young and yeah..) and a virgin. (proud to be) Though Sean is a virgin, he goes from sweet to sexual. Like "you are the pag-ibig of my life" to "I would fuck you so hard". Many times, I talked to Laura about this, and the last straw came. We broke up with each other over his mom who didn't like him in long distance relationships and everything sexual. I cried that night, not sure what to do.
My bf now:
His name is Christopher. He lives in Alabama. He works part time and is raising money to see me. When we do talk about that, he always talks about how he would hold me close.
The only sexual talk was when we were still friends.
Me- you a virgin?
Him- yes and proud :D
Me- me too!!
And after that it was walang tiyak na layunin talk. After a couple weeks, I did the oddest things. I told him one night, "I pag-ibig you." he sinabi the same thing. Ever since, we barely ever sext, our conversations go for like 2 hours of laughing, talking, and smiling. The only arguments we have are
"I pag-ibig you most"
"I missed you more"
"Why would you shun me?"
And its all for play.
Chris is sweet as Sean, not as sexual. Chris is a wonderful guy though he has a rough past. We barely talk about our pasts. He has never made me cry and Sean only has when we broke up.
I care and pag-ibig for both guys, yet it's hard. Yes, Chris will make some things sexual but doesn't ask for anything. He doesn't like too. Sean asks but I'm afraid his mom might catch him.
Please help.
I know I'm only 14 but both make me feel as beautiful as any girl out there. They make me feel like a reyna when I feel as if I don't need to feel like that. My therpist tried helping me on the Sean thing and told me what Laura told me. Set the rules, which I did and he didn't listen. I want to give him another chance but I'm with Chris. Yet both are far away. All three of us have trust issues, so makes the relationship stronger with the long distanced.
Being 14 and being young, I know. But there are 8 taon olds dating. I'm going to be a freshman, my older brother told me to petsa guys in my school, which I'm afraid of. They would never ask me out, I'm not rich or popular. I go to a private school only because my old school picked on me a lot.
Thank you all and if you want, message me your advice, otherwise you may post here.
Thank you again! Have a nice year! School taon or work whatever works :p
I still pag-ibig my ex..
About my ex:
His name is Sean and lives in New Jersey, but was adopted from South Korea. When I was getting bullied at school, he was always there for me. I was being called a lot of names and believed them. I used to cut myself and he had me stop along with my best friend who is like a sister to me. (Laura) Sean is super sweet and has a few flaws.
1. He has a foot fetish. I had heel-cord surgery and my feet are my sensitive. I also have a 3rd degree burn on my right ankle. So if he ever gave me a foot massage, I would be tense and make him worried that I didn't like him anymore.
2. He loves making our rps (sexting or rping anthros) into something sexual. Right now, my life consists on my mom having an affair and talking about sex is hard for me. I know a lot and madami than I should though I'm 14(still young and yeah..) and a virgin. (proud to be) Though Sean is a virgin, he goes from sweet to sexual. Like "you are the pag-ibig of my life" to "I would fuck you so hard". Many times, I talked to Laura about this, and the last straw came. We broke up with each other over his mom who didn't like him in long distance relationships and everything sexual. I cried that night, not sure what to do.
My bf now:
His name is Christopher. He lives in Alabama. He works part time and is raising money to see me. When we do talk about that, he always talks about how he would hold me close.
The only sexual talk was when we were still friends.
Me- you a virgin?
Him- yes and proud :D
Me- me too!!
And after that it was walang tiyak na layunin talk. After a couple weeks, I did the oddest things. I told him one night, "I pag-ibig you." he sinabi the same thing. Ever since, we barely ever sext, our conversations go for like 2 hours of laughing, talking, and smiling. The only arguments we have are
"I pag-ibig you most"
"I missed you more"
"Why would you shun me?"
And its all for play.
Chris is sweet as Sean, not as sexual. Chris is a wonderful guy though he has a rough past. We barely talk about our pasts. He has never made me cry and Sean only has when we broke up.
I care and pag-ibig for both guys, yet it's hard. Yes, Chris will make some things sexual but doesn't ask for anything. He doesn't like too. Sean asks but I'm afraid his mom might catch him.
Please help.
I know I'm only 14 but both make me feel as beautiful as any girl out there. They make me feel like a reyna when I feel as if I don't need to feel like that. My therpist tried helping me on the Sean thing and told me what Laura told me. Set the rules, which I did and he didn't listen. I want to give him another chance but I'm with Chris. Yet both are far away. All three of us have trust issues, so makes the relationship stronger with the long distanced.
Being 14 and being young, I know. But there are 8 taon olds dating. I'm going to be a freshman, my older brother told me to petsa guys in my school, which I'm afraid of. They would never ask me out, I'm not rich or popular. I go to a private school only because my old school picked on me a lot.
Thank you all and if you want, message me your advice, otherwise you may post here.
Thank you again! Have a nice year! School taon or work whatever works :p
1:Only u
2:There is no 2 person
3:This is not my third word
4:I obey u.
5:Come into my heart
6:It feels dry and hallow
7:I wanted to know I miss u all week.
Sky is blue.
My pag-ibig is true.
Leaf is green.
My pag-ibig is clean.
Rose is red.
My pag-ibig for u never ends.
Like rose u smell nice
And like sky u seem nice and cool
Like a leaf u r smashable and breakable so I just don't want to break your puso or your feelings.
Wh poems
What did u do to me?
When did I first met u?
Why did I fall in pag-ibig with u?
How did I have a crush on u?
What time did I first met u?
How long did I have a feelings on u?
How far that u and my puso goes?
How old that u and me are different?
2:There is no 2 person
3:This is not my third word
4:I obey u.
5:Come into my heart
6:It feels dry and hallow
7:I wanted to know I miss u all week.
Sky is blue.
My pag-ibig is true.
Leaf is green.
My pag-ibig is clean.
Rose is red.
My pag-ibig for u never ends.
Like rose u smell nice
And like sky u seem nice and cool
Like a leaf u r smashable and breakable so I just don't want to break your puso or your feelings.
Wh poems
What did u do to me?
When did I first met u?
Why did I fall in pag-ibig with u?
How did I have a crush on u?
What time did I first met u?
How long did I have a feelings on u?
How far that u and my puso goes?
How old that u and me are different?
well, pag-ibig is a feeling we can't help having. its like this big bright hole that you suddenly find urself falling into.the light is blinding your eyes and you can't see anything. you feel like everything has changed. and then your eyes adapt and so do you. you open your eyes and suddenly this whole new place pops out. everythings the same but different. suddenly the parking lot in front ur school looks like heaven. the stpid lamp post you used to kick so often looks like an angel, the gods messenger. love, the slight touch of it changes everything.. you find urself smiling alone, mangarap ng gising a lot even fantasizing.. it makes you a better person.. although i'm not saying that pag-ibig is a necessary boon for us. all i can say is you need to drop into the hole to find the light...
