I always knew
But I refused
To believe it
Cause I hoped
That somehow
She would accept me
For who I really am
But she didn't
I'm nothing to her
She doesn't care
I think she'd rather have
That I would close my eyes
And never open them again
I know that she wanted
A girly daughter
One that loves make-up
Dresses and shoes
But I'm not like that
I don't want to be like that
So she hates me
I wish
That I was born into another family
That loved me for who I am
That sometimes would say that I look pretty
That they pag-ibig me
That they care
My family only cares about my little sister
And her stupid boyfriend
Cause she's so cool
She can do anything
Everyone loves her
And she's perfect
While I feel down all the time
And I don't look pretty
I look average
And I can't do anything better
Oh cruel world
Just let me die
I hate this life
I hate my life
Could you please pull out the key
That keeps my puso going
It would give me peace
Then I could go
To a place where I'm loved
For who I am
Wouldn't that be wonderful?
It sure would be
I close my eyes
And slowly drift away
To that wonderful heaven
I can't madala it anymore
I want to touch you
To rip your clothes of
To push my body
Onto your body
To let my teeth sink
Into that delicious skin of yours
Until it bursts open
And fills me with the bittersweet taste of your blood
I want to have you
All of you
Your body, your heart, your soul
I want to see your perfect skin being filled with pearls of sweat
To see your beautiful green eyes look at me
With lust
And wanting
I want to fill you up completely
To hear you say my name
In a voice that shows me
How much you want me
Only me
And no one else
I wish you could be mine
But I can never have you
Cause I'm a monster
And you despise what I am
It hurts so much
I hate it
I want to die
I want to be human
So I can have you
But I can't
I'm trapped in this body
That I hate
For all eternity
And I will never have you
I pag-ibig you so much
madami then you will ever know
When you came into my life
It just got so much better
madami beautiful
madami meaningful
You were there for me
When the world crumbled around me
And I was hurt so much
That I wanted to die
Thank you so much for that
No words can ever explain
What you mean to me
How you've helped me
You're so beautiful
You shine like a diamond
In a room
That's as dark as the night
Oh, how I pag-ibig you
My pag-ibig
My dear anime
