I was stuck in between what fate wanted and what i wanted.The future was in my hands,i just couldnt balutin my head around why my destiny was so poor.
I sat on the sopa questioning myself about it.
Should I let it happen?And if I did would i ever forgive myself?I was always telling others,bad things happen for a reason,but was just another excuse?
There were no anwsers,simply because life has no anwser,just tanong and sometimes you have to take a risk and leap with no fear.
"Daddy,look what drew."Kenna sinabi with a smile.
She wobbled in the living room,holding a picture.
She gave it to me,it had a house on it with 4 stick people on it.The 1st one had a palda drawn on and the 2nd one had pants on.
"Whose that?'i pointed to the 1st one.
"Thats mommy."she said.
"Whose that?'i pointed to the segundo one.
"Thats Drew."
Pain struck my heart,i tried to be strong,but i got choked up.The other two were sperate.
"Those two are me and ronnie."
"Wheres Daddy and Alex?"
"Well,it doesnt matter.Ronnie says your going to leave again with Alex and mommy loves Drew."
"Look here.''i sinabi to her,"I'm not leaving ever,and dont you forget that.now come here,i pag-ibig you."
I grabbed her and put her on my lap and hugged her,tears slowly fell from my face.
"Ronnie.'i called out.
"What?'' she walked down stairs.
"Come here beautiful."
"whats wrong daddy?"
"nothing i just pag-ibig you guys so much."I got up and hugged her."Im not leaving."
She smiled,it reminded me of why i live.For my kids.
"Okay you can let go now'' she giggled.
"But I dont want to."I smiled.
"I gotta get ready,im going out to the pelikula with Derek."
"Your still dating that punk?''i asked.
"Yes,remember you said.."
"i know what i said,just how is jameson and Angel?''
"They came here earlier when you were asleep.''
"Really?''
"Yes now can you let go?Kennas getting jealous"
"Oh no she didnt!'kenna sassed.
I let go of Ronnie and picked up Kenna.
"You need to stop hanging out with your uncle Harry."
"But he gives me cookies"
"What are those?Some type of child biscuit?'
"Dad you know you like your child biscuits."ronnie said.
''Quit eatin my cookies!''
The door kampanilya rang.
"That must be Derek."
Ronnie went to anwser the door.
shortly she came back.
"Dad,Some man is here...?''
"Huh?''
On our porch stood with a cane, a familar elderly old man.He had gray white hair and sharp blue eyes.Looking in to his eyes i could see his soul.Such fierce eyes covered with anger but love.Immedatelity recongized him,courtneys father.
"Ronnie take Kenna and go in your room."i ordered her.
"but Dad.."
"Its yes sir,now go."
she left for her room.I stepped on the porch.
"Why are you here?"i asked.
"Why wouldnt I?''
"Your at my house,i ask the questions."
:"Is that your children?Shes very beautiful."
I pulled out a gun,and pressed it under his chin.
"You will not lay a finger on my children,I sware to god if you dont tell me why you are here?''
"What are you doing??"Derek walk on the porch.
"Please dont shoot!I mean no harm,ive changed"
I had to think about it...I had a gun pressed against an sick elderly mans head....it probablly made me look bad.
"James!"i shouted.
"Woah,Mr.malik..put the gun down...''
i slowly released him.
"James come back another time."
"Give me the gun."he said.
i gave him it.
The old man fell to his knees.
''I have came to make things,right,my time is short.Please understand,i was young and stupid.I was wrong,but you are gifted.You were the man.For God's sake have mercy on me"he begged.He was bowwing down to me,begging me.I didnt know what to do,but only thing to do.
i knelt down with him and touched his shoulder.
He look at me.We were eye to eye,I could see his sorrows and regret.i got up held out a hand.
He reached for it and i helped him up.
I sat on the sopa questioning myself about it.
Should I let it happen?And if I did would i ever forgive myself?I was always telling others,bad things happen for a reason,but was just another excuse?
There were no anwsers,simply because life has no anwser,just tanong and sometimes you have to take a risk and leap with no fear.
"Daddy,look what drew."Kenna sinabi with a smile.
She wobbled in the living room,holding a picture.
She gave it to me,it had a house on it with 4 stick people on it.The 1st one had a palda drawn on and the 2nd one had pants on.
"Whose that?'i pointed to the 1st one.
"Thats mommy."she said.
"Whose that?'i pointed to the segundo one.
"Thats Drew."
Pain struck my heart,i tried to be strong,but i got choked up.The other two were sperate.
"Those two are me and ronnie."
"Wheres Daddy and Alex?"
"Well,it doesnt matter.Ronnie says your going to leave again with Alex and mommy loves Drew."
"Look here.''i sinabi to her,"I'm not leaving ever,and dont you forget that.now come here,i pag-ibig you."
I grabbed her and put her on my lap and hugged her,tears slowly fell from my face.
"Ronnie.'i called out.
"What?'' she walked down stairs.
"Come here beautiful."
"whats wrong daddy?"
"nothing i just pag-ibig you guys so much."I got up and hugged her."Im not leaving."
She smiled,it reminded me of why i live.For my kids.
"Okay you can let go now'' she giggled.
"But I dont want to."I smiled.
"I gotta get ready,im going out to the pelikula with Derek."
"Your still dating that punk?''i asked.
"Yes,remember you said.."
"i know what i said,just how is jameson and Angel?''
"They came here earlier when you were asleep.''
"Really?''
"Yes now can you let go?Kennas getting jealous"
"Oh no she didnt!'kenna sassed.
I let go of Ronnie and picked up Kenna.
"You need to stop hanging out with your uncle Harry."
"But he gives me cookies"
"What are those?Some type of child biscuit?'
"Dad you know you like your child biscuits."ronnie said.
''Quit eatin my cookies!''
The door kampanilya rang.
"That must be Derek."
Ronnie went to anwser the door.
shortly she came back.
"Dad,Some man is here...?''
"Huh?''
On our porch stood with a cane, a familar elderly old man.He had gray white hair and sharp blue eyes.Looking in to his eyes i could see his soul.Such fierce eyes covered with anger but love.Immedatelity recongized him,courtneys father.
"Ronnie take Kenna and go in your room."i ordered her.
"but Dad.."
"Its yes sir,now go."
she left for her room.I stepped on the porch.
"Why are you here?"i asked.
"Why wouldnt I?''
"Your at my house,i ask the questions."
:"Is that your children?Shes very beautiful."
I pulled out a gun,and pressed it under his chin.
"You will not lay a finger on my children,I sware to god if you dont tell me why you are here?''
"What are you doing??"Derek walk on the porch.
"Please dont shoot!I mean no harm,ive changed"
I had to think about it...I had a gun pressed against an sick elderly mans head....it probablly made me look bad.
"James!"i shouted.
"Woah,Mr.malik..put the gun down...''
i slowly released him.
"James come back another time."
"Give me the gun."he said.
i gave him it.
The old man fell to his knees.
''I have came to make things,right,my time is short.Please understand,i was young and stupid.I was wrong,but you are gifted.You were the man.For God's sake have mercy on me"he begged.He was bowwing down to me,begging me.I didnt know what to do,but only thing to do.
i knelt down with him and touched his shoulder.
He look at me.We were eye to eye,I could see his sorrows and regret.i got up held out a hand.
He reached for it and i helped him up.
One Direction have flown to Los Angeles, where they are rumoured to be recording their debut album.
The X Factor boyband landed in the US earlier this week and Tweeted about their excitement when they arrived in California.
Zayn Malik, Louis Tomlinson, Liam Payne, Niall Horan and Harry Styles are expected to release a debut disc through Simon Cowell's Syco label later this year.
Other acts from last year's ipakita expected to release records this taon include winner Matt Cardle, runner-up Rebecca Ferguson, who recently signed with Epic, Cher Lloyd and Aiden Grimshaw.
The tuktok 9 acts from the ITV1 talent ipakita head out on the 'X Factor Live Tour' on February 19
The X Factor boyband landed in the US earlier this week and Tweeted about their excitement when they arrived in California.
Zayn Malik, Louis Tomlinson, Liam Payne, Niall Horan and Harry Styles are expected to release a debut disc through Simon Cowell's Syco label later this year.
Other acts from last year's ipakita expected to release records this taon include winner Matt Cardle, runner-up Rebecca Ferguson, who recently signed with Epic, Cher Lloyd and Aiden Grimshaw.
The tuktok 9 acts from the ITV1 talent ipakita head out on the 'X Factor Live Tour' on February 19
Nice to have Zayn from 1D back today. A bit of freehand sleeving to be continued! Got a lovely pic of him with Albert….Gonna get it printed out so he can sign it susunod time I tattoo him and then we can donate it to Bulldog Rescue auction to raise some cash for a charity close to mine and Karens heart!
We can’t wait to see Zayn’s new ink!