I can´t take this anymore. Where ever I look, there they are. My hopes shattered to pieces. People walk around, looking pasulong for their activities. I won´t even think about trying something new. Everything I do just fails, so why should I try, try again to succeed? I just end up on the floor again, humiliating myself.
I tried to do something, something only I can do. But then someone comes along, with that talent. I become excited and take him as my image. But what began as fiery passions, ends up in heart-broken pictures, floating away with the wind. Nothing works out, everything is slipping through my fingers. Like sand, like dust. I often escape the araw sa pamamagitan ng climbing into the night, looking up at the stars, taking me so far away. Dark woods surround me, and nature holds me gently. That is until the wind blows, shattered dreams brushing against my skin. A chill runs through me, freezing my insides once again. I climb into my warm kama as dark sleep overwhelms me.
Life is a cycle. A cycle of pain.
I tried to do something, something only I can do. But then someone comes along, with that talent. I become excited and take him as my image. But what began as fiery passions, ends up in heart-broken pictures, floating away with the wind. Nothing works out, everything is slipping through my fingers. Like sand, like dust. I often escape the araw sa pamamagitan ng climbing into the night, looking up at the stars, taking me so far away. Dark woods surround me, and nature holds me gently. That is until the wind blows, shattered dreams brushing against my skin. A chill runs through me, freezing my insides once again. I climb into my warm kama as dark sleep overwhelms me.
Life is a cycle. A cycle of pain.
As The time pass over me,,,
I Can't stop the clock from Moving
why am I still Wait Here?
stand besides Dark And the Light of the pain...
I just Can watch them passing ,moving ,saying ,,,,anything............
But I've Nawawala My self..
where did I stand, who should I wait..Can I have enough time to breath again,,,after swallowed in somewhere off the past..
As I Lied here And cry,,
to My self..
To My puso
To the Believers And the Lovers,,
they can see how i've passed it all...
But, they Can taste it,,
even they want me to share it...
you'll never know..as i say to Them,,
you'll never understands this...
How Can you say the word that you never listen before,,,
as I realized it...and i still stand in the same pouring rain,,,,,then CRY
I Can't stop the clock from Moving
why am I still Wait Here?
stand besides Dark And the Light of the pain...
I just Can watch them passing ,moving ,saying ,,,,anything............
But I've Nawawala My self..
where did I stand, who should I wait..Can I have enough time to breath again,,,after swallowed in somewhere off the past..
As I Lied here And cry,,
to My self..
To My puso
To the Believers And the Lovers,,
they can see how i've passed it all...
But, they Can taste it,,
even they want me to share it...
you'll never know..as i say to Them,,
you'll never understands this...
How Can you say the word that you never listen before,,,
as I realized it...and i still stand in the same pouring rain,,,,,then CRY
Peacful night in bed
A quiet night outside
Ticking of the clock
A sudden loud noise
A shadow dances across the room
You duck
You hide
You run away
From the Ilusions of the mind
Nice walk in the park
Birds ar singing
Children playing
Suddenly no song
Suddenly no laughter
You duck
You hide
You run away
From the Ilusions of the mind
Walking tahanan from school
People talking on the phone
Not minding where they go
Forgeting who they are
No one hears you call thier name
You duck
You hide
You run away
From the Ilusions of the mind
Ten past midnight
You cant sleep
Insomnia distroys the person you were
You see a shadow move
You duck
You hide
You run away
No
Im not running anymore
Im not afraid
No one governs me
Not even the Ilusions of the mind
A quiet night outside
Ticking of the clock
A sudden loud noise
A shadow dances across the room
You duck
You hide
You run away
From the Ilusions of the mind
Nice walk in the park
Birds ar singing
Children playing
Suddenly no song
Suddenly no laughter
You duck
You hide
You run away
From the Ilusions of the mind
Walking tahanan from school
People talking on the phone
Not minding where they go
Forgeting who they are
No one hears you call thier name
You duck
You hide
You run away
From the Ilusions of the mind
Ten past midnight
You cant sleep
Insomnia distroys the person you were
You see a shadow move
You duck
You hide
You run away
No
Im not running anymore
Im not afraid
No one governs me
Not even the Ilusions of the mind
Echoing sounds through the hallway as floorboards click into thier place.
02.58
The clock ticks slowly as each segundo takes forevery to take place.
02.58
The pitch black of the night eluminated sa pamamagitan ng a small glow from the laptop.
02.58
Time never seems to stop
02.58
Rarely changing a didgit
02.59
The word is heard through ears as the forgotten sound of keys on the keyboard form thier own melody of words
02.59
03.00
Curfew was at 10
03.00
Gone past then
03.00
I want to wake up from this nightmare
03.00
But never can you wake
02.59
For it takes you back
02.58
To where you started
02.57
Never ending
02.56
Never stopping
02.55
Never escaping from its grasp
06.00 AM
For there is no cure
12.00 PM
Ive tried them all
3.00 PM
None seem to work
5.00 PM
Not yawning since forever
9.00 PM
The cycle goes on
11.00 PM
For insomnia
12 Midnight
Insomnia never sleeps
02.58
The clock ticks slowly as each segundo takes forevery to take place.
02.58
The pitch black of the night eluminated sa pamamagitan ng a small glow from the laptop.
02.58
Time never seems to stop
02.58
Rarely changing a didgit
02.59
The word is heard through ears as the forgotten sound of keys on the keyboard form thier own melody of words
02.59
03.00
Curfew was at 10
03.00
Gone past then
03.00
I want to wake up from this nightmare
03.00
But never can you wake
02.59
For it takes you back
02.58
To where you started
02.57
Never ending
02.56
Never stopping
02.55
Never escaping from its grasp
06.00 AM
For there is no cure
12.00 PM
Ive tried them all
3.00 PM
None seem to work
5.00 PM
Not yawning since forever
9.00 PM
The cycle goes on
11.00 PM
For insomnia
12 Midnight
Insomnia never sleeps
Everyday,
Like any other day,
I woke up like any other people do.
Still sleepy and bleh.
Well things started to change.
I used to hear Aso barking.
Pusa clawing,
Birds chirping,
But thats all gone.
Now, all I hear and feel is nothing
But sadness.
I couldnt really tell anyone why I feel like this.
Why?
Im afraid to tell.
No one would've understand.
No one would even talk to me.
Thats how everything changed.
Everyone used to talk to me.
But now,
At a new place,
Even different faces,
Not one person talks to me.
They see me,
But they would push me
And shove me in lockers.
Then tease and taunt me.
I would tell you what I am so afraid of,
But its hard for you to understand.
Just dont worry about it.
Some how,
I dont know how,
But Things just started to become different.
Sometimes,
Things are meant to be changed
But,
Sometimes not supposed to.
Like any other day,
I woke up like any other people do.
Still sleepy and bleh.
Well things started to change.
I used to hear Aso barking.
Pusa clawing,
Birds chirping,
But thats all gone.
Now, all I hear and feel is nothing
But sadness.
I couldnt really tell anyone why I feel like this.
Why?
Im afraid to tell.
No one would've understand.
No one would even talk to me.
Thats how everything changed.
Everyone used to talk to me.
But now,
At a new place,
Even different faces,
Not one person talks to me.
They see me,
But they would push me
And shove me in lockers.
Then tease and taunt me.
I would tell you what I am so afraid of,
But its hard for you to understand.
Just dont worry about it.
Some how,
I dont know how,
But Things just started to become different.
Sometimes,
Things are meant to be changed
But,
Sometimes not supposed to.
I loved you so much
I thought about you everyday
But there was something
That I never got to tell you.
I pag-ibig you
I want you
But now I can't
Anymore. Now that
I am gone.
Everytime in the halls,
And I passed sa pamamagitan ng you,
My puso would beat so fast.
Sometimes, I thought you liked me too.
We have been mga kaibigan for a long time,
But, it hurts everytime that I think of you
You aren't there anymore.
I never got to tell you how much I loved you.
How much I cared about you.
How much you helped through tough times.
I guess we were never meant to be.
I'm sorry.
I thought about you everyday
But there was something
That I never got to tell you.
I pag-ibig you
I want you
But now I can't
Anymore. Now that
I am gone.
Everytime in the halls,
And I passed sa pamamagitan ng you,
My puso would beat so fast.
Sometimes, I thought you liked me too.
We have been mga kaibigan for a long time,
But, it hurts everytime that I think of you
You aren't there anymore.
I never got to tell you how much I loved you.
How much I cared about you.
How much you helped through tough times.
I guess we were never meant to be.
I'm sorry.
When I smiled,
When I laughed,
It was because I thought of death.
When I cried,
When I screamed,
It was because my death was to slow.
When I smiled my final smile,
No one cried,
No one cared.
I grabbed a kutsilyo and a slip of paper,
I wrote my final words,
I sat in my room staring at the knife.
I heard a laugh,
I heard a cry,
Turned to see my family right sa pamamagitan ng my side.
I ran away,
I’m scare to death,
I grab my kutsilyo but it wont kill.
Someone had grabbed my arm,
Someone cried for me to stop,
I turned and fell deep in love.
I turned so fast,
I fell so fast,
You caught me on the verge of death.
You saved me,
You cared about me,
I felt alone,
I now felt loved,
But the susunod araw you died,
The susunod araw I cried,
I need to be with you,
I want to be with you,
I grabbed the gun,
I pulled the trigger,
Then I saw a beautiful figure.
You came,
I saw,
You wrapped me in your arms,
And now we will walk together,
Forever.
When I laughed,
It was because I thought of death.
When I cried,
When I screamed,
It was because my death was to slow.
When I smiled my final smile,
No one cried,
No one cared.
I grabbed a kutsilyo and a slip of paper,
I wrote my final words,
I sat in my room staring at the knife.
I heard a laugh,
I heard a cry,
Turned to see my family right sa pamamagitan ng my side.
I ran away,
I’m scare to death,
I grab my kutsilyo but it wont kill.
Someone had grabbed my arm,
Someone cried for me to stop,
I turned and fell deep in love.
I turned so fast,
I fell so fast,
You caught me on the verge of death.
You saved me,
You cared about me,
I felt alone,
I now felt loved,
But the susunod araw you died,
The susunod araw I cried,
I need to be with you,
I want to be with you,
I grabbed the gun,
I pulled the trigger,
Then I saw a beautiful figure.
You came,
I saw,
You wrapped me in your arms,
And now we will walk together,
Forever.
You kissed another girl but why couldn't that be me?
Then you say I pag-ibig you to her why isn't that me your
Saying That to?
When you hug her, why am I not the one to be hugged?
When you protect her from bad things, why aren't I the one to feel safe?
When she cries, how come I'm not the one to crie on your
Shoulder?
When you hold her tight, why can't I be held in your arms?
When you tell her we belong together, why couldn't we be together?
When you make her laugh, how come I can't be the one
To smile and laugh with you?
When you see her smile and start halik her, why can't that be me?
Then you say I pag-ibig you to her why isn't that me your
Saying That to?
When you hug her, why am I not the one to be hugged?
When you protect her from bad things, why aren't I the one to feel safe?
When she cries, how come I'm not the one to crie on your
Shoulder?
When you hold her tight, why can't I be held in your arms?
When you tell her we belong together, why couldn't we be together?
When you make her laugh, how come I can't be the one
To smile and laugh with you?
When you see her smile and start halik her, why can't that be me?
Here I lay so pale and weak
I wish I could be healty,
coz that is what I seek.
Seeing, people living so happily,
I do not need to think twice.
I wish I could have what a healthy person has,
being jumpy, happy and so full of life.
Where most of these days I feel,
I can't talk or breath
As people say live and let live.
Why must I be buried in my bed,
Feeling no hope, in my puso or head.
People can jump around,
be who they want to be.
Where as I feel like I can't get out of bed,
but thats just me.
Seeing, people living so happily,
I do not need to think twice.
I wish I could have what a healthy person has,
being jumpy, happy and so full of life.
I wish I could be healty,
coz that is what I seek.
Seeing, people living so happily,
I do not need to think twice.
I wish I could have what a healthy person has,
being jumpy, happy and so full of life.
Where most of these days I feel,
I can't talk or breath
As people say live and let live.
Why must I be buried in my bed,
Feeling no hope, in my puso or head.
People can jump around,
be who they want to be.
Where as I feel like I can't get out of bed,
but thats just me.
Seeing, people living so happily,
I do not need to think twice.
I wish I could have what a healthy person has,
being jumpy, happy and so full of life.
can be so sweet and disturbing
the same time.
I look at you stealthily,
admiring the beauty of your body.
Oh this can't be real,
oh am i falling in pag-ibig again?
Should i stop?
Am i being reckless?
Does he look at me the same way
i look at him?
Too many questions,
don't know what to think,
my puso is so full of him,
i don't want to think.
If i halik him,
will it be that sweet as i imagined?
Oh,save me,
my puso is so full of him!
I'm such a coward when he's around,
trembling on every small attention
he's been giving to me.
But,he sees.
He sees that very well.
He knows my puso is almost his,
and he's playing this game,
he's vain,and i'm just a catch.
Oh will he betray me?
I should have thought of that
before.
I shouldn't let that happen
so fast.
But now it's too late,
isn't it?
I buried my fears so deep
i thought i fooled them.
But they are always awake
and aware.
The fears of my own know
that very well...
My puso is so full of him.
Of what,
of who?
Could it hurt,
could the pain return again?
There's me holding that
cold glass of wine,
staring at her,
trying to forget...
There's he,
sad and distant
like usual.
Oh why,
oh why?
There's me again,but this time
i was happy.
So happy for all those sweet
kisses he gave me...
And again he,looking at me
and wondering...
Oh i should have known!
Inside my pantasiya i seek
for his kisses that
poisoned my body,
i paghahanap for the reason,
trying to see...
There's he again,
oh his kisses,
what did he do to me,
oh he fooled me again...
Nothing was real,
he was wondering,
oh he was trying to see
her in my eyes,
oh...
He gave me all that sweetness,
but he belongs to her.
Oh,he's so sad because of her.
He's so distant because of her.
Oh,he disrupt my dreams
because of her.
ME^.^YOU
a simple word
for a special world
for you and me
a simple thought
for a special bond
one cannot see
it wraps us up
in its cocoon
and holds us fiercely
in its womb
this simple word
was created from the Moon
for you and me
in puwang and in time
my soul desperately
tries to find you
in the reality
of our infinity
it is so easy
for me to tell you
that all I want
is to LOVE you
all of YOU
i want to pag-ibig you
like no one else
could ever pag-ibig me
like you do
will you ever
forgive me
to pag-ibig you
like I do?
to accept the truth
about who you really are?
Maybe,
maybe that's who i am...
A frightened girl
that has created
her own world of pantasiya
just to protect herself
from all those dark thoughts
that could ruin her peace.
Inside this agony of love
she lets the fear to enter,
she lets the tears dripping
so slowly,
intensively.
But,
every inch of my body
yearn to feel your
soft hands.
Desire will be locked
deep inside myself,
to burn there,
to fly there...
To you,
my love. ♥
time goes sa pamamagitan ng
as i think of you
staring in the mirror of my room
your lips are warm
my mouth it lingers
i think of you
with fiery eyes
i want you now
my sweety pie
you are my life
my world my earth
time goes sa pamamagitan ng
with you in mind
i stare off silentl;y
wisshing you were right beside me
looking through
you are my air
the only thing
that keeps me breathing
my darkess larawan
are disapearing
you are my pag-ibig
just like a kalapati
peacefull and beutiful
with oh such beuty
you call to me
through the waves of life
you are my baby
my lil muffin
my one true pag-ibig
that i cannot get enough of
I pag-ibig you bree with all my puso
forever you will have my love
as i think of you
staring in the mirror of my room
your lips are warm
my mouth it lingers
i think of you
with fiery eyes
i want you now
my sweety pie
you are my life
my world my earth
time goes sa pamamagitan ng
with you in mind
i stare off silentl;y
wisshing you were right beside me
looking through
you are my air
the only thing
that keeps me breathing
my darkess larawan
are disapearing
you are my pag-ibig
just like a kalapati
peacefull and beutiful
with oh such beuty
you call to me
through the waves of life
you are my baby
my lil muffin
my one true pag-ibig
that i cannot get enough of
I pag-ibig you bree with all my puso
forever you will have my love
miss you pag-ibig
you disapear
your like a ghost
but I do not fear
Behind my tears
you never come
I miss your face
the angelic grace
I miss you pag-ibig
you I cannot see
I cannot speak
it's been forever pag-ibig
sice I've talked to you
I miss you madami
than I ever loved
pag-ibig is pag-ibig
and missing you is sad
I need to see you
to talk to you
I need to pag-ibig you again
I always pag-ibig you but I miss loving you to your fave
pag-ibig
pag-ibig pag-ibig
come back
mysteriously the rose petals have all turned black
the flame is blowing out
and warmth is torn from me
I miss you pag-ibig
please come back to me
my arms are waiting and I need you madami than ever
I miss you love
you disapear
your like a ghost
but I do not fear
Behind my tears
you never come
I miss your face
the angelic grace
I miss you pag-ibig
you I cannot see
I cannot speak
it's been forever pag-ibig
sice I've talked to you
I miss you madami
than I ever loved
pag-ibig is pag-ibig
and missing you is sad
I need to see you
to talk to you
I need to pag-ibig you again
I always pag-ibig you but I miss loving you to your fave
pag-ibig
pag-ibig pag-ibig
come back
mysteriously the rose petals have all turned black
the flame is blowing out
and warmth is torn from me
I miss you pag-ibig
please come back to me
my arms are waiting and I need you madami than ever
I miss you love
