Hm, okay, so, we're all familiar with Operation: Cheer up Mef, arn't we?
If not, go read Dib's and Nny's articles; Operation: Cheer up Mef & Operation: Cheer up Mef- THE SECOND.
Personally, I want to thank these two the most. Dib, it was YOUR idea for this whole 'Operation,' and Nny, you were the most contributous- TWO GIFTART PICTURES!? AND AN ARTICLE?! Damnit, you must care about me a LOT. I'll promise not to explode your head.
That's not to say I'm not also extreamly greatful also to the following;
SierraDawn9.
InvaderRaven.
Zenzes.
IntrepidKeris.
BlackRoseLove.
Catgirl140.
PhoenixRoyale.
All of you guys either nagkomento on Dib or Nny's articles, and sinabi something I either appreciated, or liked hearing. If you didn't do that, then I put you there sa pamamagitan ng accident. (xD)
A lot of people have been asking me 'What's wrong?' and I appreciate the care. My response has usually been 'Life's being shit again,' or something along those lines.
The reason? I didn't really want to say anything about what's really happening in the life of Mephisto N.
Because of all the support I've got from the amazing people here, I've decided to lunok my goddamned pride and actually say what's been troubling me.
BEFORE I do that, however, I hasten to add this; I hate sympathy letters. Send me sympathy letters and I'll send you hatemail. So, not after sympathy, I'm after actual ADVICE.
O ja, en Nny? Jy het aan my gegee pretty damn goeie raad. Ek kan nie genoeg dankie sê vir wat. Ek is na ander mense se mening is hy ook al is, okay? ;)
Back to English now, so madami than one person knows what I'm saying and it isn't mindless gobbledegook. (Is that even a word?)
sa pamamagitan ng 'shit' I'm refering, not to any particular aspect of my life, but life in general.
Just today I got my test results back from a Doctor's appointment- I've been fainting, see? I have low blood pressure, and that's one of the reasons I've been having these spells. Further causes are unknown- I'm quite concerned, I don't want to faint and not wake up again.
On the topic of bodily functions other than removing people's vital organs, I've been hallucinating much madami freqently. Grinning maggot-slugs, about 6 foot, are crawling all over my walls as I type this. I'm using all of my self-control to focus on the screen and not scream, and start beating the revolting things with my baseball bat.
sinabi hallucinations are also starting to have a major influence on how paint- larawan desribing my Schizophrenia better than one could put in words. Swirls of dark red and black, depicting mutilated Buto and ice-cold beings, Nawawala in seas of their own creation.
It seems everything I do- The way I talk, the way I move, the way I paint and draw and write- has taken on this dark hue. Saturated in my own shit.
Forgive me for sounding so melodramatic... 8/ It sounds like overdramatic prose, I know, I hate it as much as you do.
My hypnophobia is getting worse, too- I'm 3 days without sleep and I feel like my eyes are going to burn right out of my skull.
The reasons for sinabi hypnophobia, is unknown to me as of yet. Sure, I've been having nightmares, but they don't trouble me all that much.
Drowning. I'm always drowning, or suffocating. The rest of the dream is irrelevant, but it's always freezing cold, I can always feel ice growing over me, penetrating me through the Buto and leeching into every fibre of my being... I'm deathly scared of water.
I've looked this up in my 'Nightmares; How to make sense of your darkest dreams,' book. Apparently, I'm under much stress, drowning in all the crap that's been going on.
That crap, it's everywhere. Seems to be flowing out of all the bastard's in my lifes pores, suffocating each other and me in particular.
I haven't eaten in 4 days. My ribs keep jabbing into my stomach and it's quite unpleasant. I'm borderline anorexic, apparently. I can't get away with wearing close-fitting shirts anymore, or else people get concerned...
Annie, my foster-mother, is being a REAL bitch. She hates what I draw, what I paint, what I read, and wat I write, because it's not 'happy.' Urgh. It's almost as if she can't quite grasp it's how I'm feeling...
Constant talk of moving to Emerald. That's FAR away from where I live now- It'd mean I'd never be able to see Robert (foster-dad) and I'd be stuck on a bulaklak farm, going to some posh School that I don't wanna go to. It means, all my friends... Gone. Just like that. I can't let that happen...
Not that even bothering to try and stay in Croydon is that appealing either. There's so many assholes in my class- Keegan, Chyanne and Rob for starters- and I often daydream about ripping their lungs out, and possibly fracturing some Buto whilst I do so.
There are very few people that understand me, in my life. One of the reasons why I've been cutting myself- No, I'm not emo, it's my shoulder I cut. No main veins there. I'm not trying to kill myself, I just want a breather, and self-inflicted pain is bliss.
Have you ever felt like nothing around you is real, or solid? As if you're floating, nothing is important but ending the misery your life has condemned you to?
A lot of people come to me for advice, and I try and give it best I can. Who do I turn to, though? ... No-one listens to me, I'm the quiet little freak sitting at the back desk.
I can honestly say that most of the people in my life, I hate.
I just want out of all this.
It's shit.
I never asked for it.
...
Ah, shit... There's one of those death-maggots crawling across my screen... Tsk...
...
Having sinabi all that... The people here have always been supportive of my interests, what I like, and people understand me here, as nerdy as that sounds.
Sure, some of you disagree with my rather pessimistic view. I think that's great, though! It gives me something to think about, other than this crap!
For this, what you've all done to help me, or support me... I thank you all again. You mean a lot to me. I cannot express my gratitude enough.
If not, go read Dib's and Nny's articles; Operation: Cheer up Mef & Operation: Cheer up Mef- THE SECOND.
Personally, I want to thank these two the most. Dib, it was YOUR idea for this whole 'Operation,' and Nny, you were the most contributous- TWO GIFTART PICTURES!? AND AN ARTICLE?! Damnit, you must care about me a LOT. I'll promise not to explode your head.
That's not to say I'm not also extreamly greatful also to the following;
SierraDawn9.
InvaderRaven.
Zenzes.
IntrepidKeris.
BlackRoseLove.
Catgirl140.
PhoenixRoyale.
All of you guys either nagkomento on Dib or Nny's articles, and sinabi something I either appreciated, or liked hearing. If you didn't do that, then I put you there sa pamamagitan ng accident. (xD)
A lot of people have been asking me 'What's wrong?' and I appreciate the care. My response has usually been 'Life's being shit again,' or something along those lines.
The reason? I didn't really want to say anything about what's really happening in the life of Mephisto N.
Because of all the support I've got from the amazing people here, I've decided to lunok my goddamned pride and actually say what's been troubling me.
BEFORE I do that, however, I hasten to add this; I hate sympathy letters. Send me sympathy letters and I'll send you hatemail. So, not after sympathy, I'm after actual ADVICE.
O ja, en Nny? Jy het aan my gegee pretty damn goeie raad. Ek kan nie genoeg dankie sê vir wat. Ek is na ander mense se mening is hy ook al is, okay? ;)
Back to English now, so madami than one person knows what I'm saying and it isn't mindless gobbledegook. (Is that even a word?)
sa pamamagitan ng 'shit' I'm refering, not to any particular aspect of my life, but life in general.
Just today I got my test results back from a Doctor's appointment- I've been fainting, see? I have low blood pressure, and that's one of the reasons I've been having these spells. Further causes are unknown- I'm quite concerned, I don't want to faint and not wake up again.
On the topic of bodily functions other than removing people's vital organs, I've been hallucinating much madami freqently. Grinning maggot-slugs, about 6 foot, are crawling all over my walls as I type this. I'm using all of my self-control to focus on the screen and not scream, and start beating the revolting things with my baseball bat.
sinabi hallucinations are also starting to have a major influence on how paint- larawan desribing my Schizophrenia better than one could put in words. Swirls of dark red and black, depicting mutilated Buto and ice-cold beings, Nawawala in seas of their own creation.
It seems everything I do- The way I talk, the way I move, the way I paint and draw and write- has taken on this dark hue. Saturated in my own shit.
Forgive me for sounding so melodramatic... 8/ It sounds like overdramatic prose, I know, I hate it as much as you do.
My hypnophobia is getting worse, too- I'm 3 days without sleep and I feel like my eyes are going to burn right out of my skull.
The reasons for sinabi hypnophobia, is unknown to me as of yet. Sure, I've been having nightmares, but they don't trouble me all that much.
Drowning. I'm always drowning, or suffocating. The rest of the dream is irrelevant, but it's always freezing cold, I can always feel ice growing over me, penetrating me through the Buto and leeching into every fibre of my being... I'm deathly scared of water.
I've looked this up in my 'Nightmares; How to make sense of your darkest dreams,' book. Apparently, I'm under much stress, drowning in all the crap that's been going on.
That crap, it's everywhere. Seems to be flowing out of all the bastard's in my lifes pores, suffocating each other and me in particular.
I haven't eaten in 4 days. My ribs keep jabbing into my stomach and it's quite unpleasant. I'm borderline anorexic, apparently. I can't get away with wearing close-fitting shirts anymore, or else people get concerned...
Annie, my foster-mother, is being a REAL bitch. She hates what I draw, what I paint, what I read, and wat I write, because it's not 'happy.' Urgh. It's almost as if she can't quite grasp it's how I'm feeling...
Constant talk of moving to Emerald. That's FAR away from where I live now- It'd mean I'd never be able to see Robert (foster-dad) and I'd be stuck on a bulaklak farm, going to some posh School that I don't wanna go to. It means, all my friends... Gone. Just like that. I can't let that happen...
Not that even bothering to try and stay in Croydon is that appealing either. There's so many assholes in my class- Keegan, Chyanne and Rob for starters- and I often daydream about ripping their lungs out, and possibly fracturing some Buto whilst I do so.
There are very few people that understand me, in my life. One of the reasons why I've been cutting myself- No, I'm not emo, it's my shoulder I cut. No main veins there. I'm not trying to kill myself, I just want a breather, and self-inflicted pain is bliss.
Have you ever felt like nothing around you is real, or solid? As if you're floating, nothing is important but ending the misery your life has condemned you to?
A lot of people come to me for advice, and I try and give it best I can. Who do I turn to, though? ... No-one listens to me, I'm the quiet little freak sitting at the back desk.
I can honestly say that most of the people in my life, I hate.
I just want out of all this.
It's shit.
I never asked for it.
...
Ah, shit... There's one of those death-maggots crawling across my screen... Tsk...
...
Having sinabi all that... The people here have always been supportive of my interests, what I like, and people understand me here, as nerdy as that sounds.
Sure, some of you disagree with my rather pessimistic view. I think that's great, though! It gives me something to think about, other than this crap!
For this, what you've all done to help me, or support me... I thank you all again. You mean a lot to me. I cannot express my gratitude enough.
Age:19
Gender: female
Race:Squirrel
DARK, HERO, NEUTRAL: hero
Special Power (if any): nothing unique
*Flight, Speed, or Power: Power
Silly was born into a family of pirates, and most of her life was spent on the family ship, named the Crusader with her father's crew, the Straw Hats. she has two brothers that are twins, Monkey and Brick. she has one older sister, who is now the captain of the Straw Hats, Lilly Crusader. Silly has excellent fighting skills, and is pretty good with a hand gun. right now, she lives in London, England with her friend Shadow DCE. until Lilly decides Silly is ready to take over as captain, Silly will be a member of the chaotix. her best friend is Vector. as you might of guessing, adores sailing of any kind.
Sandy meets up with us. "hi, sis" sandy says
"hi" Cream and me head into the vents "so ruby you're a spy" cream says "yea, cream be quiet they will know we're here" "sorry" "it's ok" then we here eggman talking "sh" i say to cream. she just nods I crawl onto the vent hole I see sandy walking in. "who are you" eggman says there was no answer from sandy "answer me" eggman says "sandy" then i see sonic and tails stealing the chaos emeralds "what, sonic" eggman says I see the other chaos emeralds and drop down and take them then emma drops down in front of me "ruby give me those emeralds" "never, traitor" I scream at her I run out of eggmans base and meet up with Sandy, Sonic, Tails, and Cream. "did we get all of them" I ask "I think" tails sinabi I give the chaos the two chaos emeralds to sonic "thanks" Sonic says "bye, everyone" I say
"where are you going" cream ask "any where I can go" I walk of not knowing this wasn't over.
"hi" Cream and me head into the vents "so ruby you're a spy" cream says "yea, cream be quiet they will know we're here" "sorry" "it's ok" then we here eggman talking "sh" i say to cream. she just nods I crawl onto the vent hole I see sandy walking in. "who are you" eggman says there was no answer from sandy "answer me" eggman says "sandy" then i see sonic and tails stealing the chaos emeralds "what, sonic" eggman says I see the other chaos emeralds and drop down and take them then emma drops down in front of me "ruby give me those emeralds" "never, traitor" I scream at her I run out of eggmans base and meet up with Sandy, Sonic, Tails, and Cream. "did we get all of them" I ask "I think" tails sinabi I give the chaos the two chaos emeralds to sonic "thanks" Sonic says "bye, everyone" I say
"where are you going" cream ask "any where I can go" I walk of not knowing this wasn't over.
Firstly,I wanna thank MasterLink For being an awesome Rper,Epic friend,and makes meh laugh,But sadley he is not on here anymore,A moment of silence please...
Osiris for being the replacment of Master Link... Sorta.... XD Anyways,The guy is a fun guy,Don'tcha know?
MephilestheDark for being a Like,TOTALLY EPIC FRIEND,TOTALLY. XD And for having epic artz,characters,Rps,Humor. Geez... I can't listahan it all. XD
Princess Viviana for Being an awesome rper,but sadley she recolors,and is not here either... ANOTHER moment of silence...
ThirdDevision for being just plain Epic.
Pheonix Royal Just met the gal,AND SHE'S ALREADY AWESOME. XD
And Finally,LadyLyric (Or AktatheWolf,I forget... ^^;) For being meh first fans.
SINCERELY,Markeh456
Osiris for being the replacment of Master Link... Sorta.... XD Anyways,The guy is a fun guy,Don'tcha know?
MephilestheDark for being a Like,TOTALLY EPIC FRIEND,TOTALLY. XD And for having epic artz,characters,Rps,Humor. Geez... I can't listahan it all. XD
Princess Viviana for Being an awesome rper,but sadley she recolors,and is not here either... ANOTHER moment of silence...
ThirdDevision for being just plain Epic.
Pheonix Royal Just met the gal,AND SHE'S ALREADY AWESOME. XD
And Finally,LadyLyric (Or AktatheWolf,I forget... ^^;) For being meh first fans.
SINCERELY,Markeh456