Oh crap. She’s here. That’s not good. She could ruin everything. Please don’t mess this up Kelsey please, I prayed. I smiled weakly as Kelsey walked around the lake to meet up with Nicky and I. Nick splashed me so I splashed him back laughing. Kelsey eyed us. Kelsey please go away, I thought. “Karleigh can I sumali you and Nick?” I looked at Nick. Should I let her sumali us? He nodded. “Sure Kelsey.” She squealed then jumped in the lake.
I punched Nicky lightly on the shoulder and when he pushed me under the water I couldn’t help but laugh, filling my mouth up with nasty fishy lake water. I shot up out of the water choking and coughing up the water. Nick looked alarm and started patting my back until I stopped. “Are you okay!?” He asked panicked. I took a deep breath and answered him, “I’m ok.” He sighed in relief. “That’s good. I thought I was going to have to do CPR on you. And I don’t even know how to do it.” I chuckled. He smirked. “Oh, you think it’s funny?” I nodded and he splashed at me and chased me. I screamed and ran out of the lake.
Parents stared at us as we ran around like maniacs. I picked up my sandals and sando and shorts and bolted for the road, the stony road. He grabbed his sando and shoes and ran after me, gaining speed. Kelsey just stared at us, open mouthed, from the middle of the lake. As we got to a grassy spot, a good mile from the lake he tackled me into it. Protecting my head from the fall I laughed as he tackled me.
Nick was lying on tuktok of me when our eyes made contact. I swear his head was moving closer and closer then suddenly….
I punched Nicky lightly on the shoulder and when he pushed me under the water I couldn’t help but laugh, filling my mouth up with nasty fishy lake water. I shot up out of the water choking and coughing up the water. Nick looked alarm and started patting my back until I stopped. “Are you okay!?” He asked panicked. I took a deep breath and answered him, “I’m ok.” He sighed in relief. “That’s good. I thought I was going to have to do CPR on you. And I don’t even know how to do it.” I chuckled. He smirked. “Oh, you think it’s funny?” I nodded and he splashed at me and chased me. I screamed and ran out of the lake.
Parents stared at us as we ran around like maniacs. I picked up my sandals and sando and shorts and bolted for the road, the stony road. He grabbed his sando and shoes and ran after me, gaining speed. Kelsey just stared at us, open mouthed, from the middle of the lake. As we got to a grassy spot, a good mile from the lake he tackled me into it. Protecting my head from the fall I laughed as he tackled me.
Nick was lying on tuktok of me when our eyes made contact. I swear his head was moving closer and closer then suddenly….
I deny the truth,
But really,
That is nothing.
I do that just to protect myself.
I cannot let the truth overcome me
All at once,
I must let it come at me
Pieces sa pamamagitan ng pieces.
The truth is always shocking,
At many times sad.
But I must accept the truth
Even after a while.
Because denying the truth
Is like lying to myself
Denying the truth hurts my soul
But it also protects my soul at the same time.
I don't know what to believe.
It's all too shocking for me.
I deny the truth.
I protect my soul.
I protect myself.
But I also hurt myself.
But really,
That is nothing.
I do that just to protect myself.
I cannot let the truth overcome me
All at once,
I must let it come at me
Pieces sa pamamagitan ng pieces.
The truth is always shocking,
At many times sad.
But I must accept the truth
Even after a while.
Because denying the truth
Is like lying to myself
Denying the truth hurts my soul
But it also protects my soul at the same time.
I don't know what to believe.
It's all too shocking for me.
I deny the truth.
I protect my soul.
I protect myself.
But I also hurt myself.
I know what happened,
I know that your parents are divorced,
because I was the first
you told.
I want to help you,
but I don't know
what all that
pressure
and sorrow feels like.
Like you're drowning
in a pool of tears
and your friends
are just watching and
laughing,
like it's a joke.
But it's not a joke,
it's your life.
They aren't even
your friends,
they are just people
who say they earned
that title.
I don't understand.
My parents aren't
divorced,
they don't fight
every time when
they see each
others face.
I can't help.
But you're
my friend.
My best
friend.
And I will
try to help.
I will stand sa pamamagitan ng
your side even when
we are miles away.
Because even though
it might not feel like it,
you are never
alone.
I know that your parents are divorced,
because I was the first
you told.
I want to help you,
but I don't know
what all that
pressure
and sorrow feels like.
Like you're drowning
in a pool of tears
and your friends
are just watching and
laughing,
like it's a joke.
But it's not a joke,
it's your life.
They aren't even
your friends,
they are just people
who say they earned
that title.
I don't understand.
My parents aren't
divorced,
they don't fight
every time when
they see each
others face.
I can't help.
But you're
my friend.
My best
friend.
And I will
try to help.
I will stand sa pamamagitan ng
your side even when
we are miles away.
Because even though
it might not feel like it,
you are never
alone.
Why, do things have to be so hard
In life?
Why can't things be easy
And everyone could just enjoy
Their short lives.
Betrayed
sa pamamagitan ng an old friend
sa pamamagitan ng an old boyfriend
It feels like the whole world
Has gone on the enemy's side
Why do things have to be so complicated?
Tears are rolling down my cheek
As life goes on,
That's what I do.
Because I feel unused, unhelpful, abandoned.
Life goes on
And even though I try
To shrug off the troubles I have had in the past,
Smiling,
Inside, I am extremely hurt
Stabbed sa pamamagitan ng my own friends
I am deserted
Even though I smile
I am hurt
I am betrayed.
In life?
Why can't things be easy
And everyone could just enjoy
Their short lives.
Betrayed
sa pamamagitan ng an old friend
sa pamamagitan ng an old boyfriend
It feels like the whole world
Has gone on the enemy's side
Why do things have to be so complicated?
Tears are rolling down my cheek
As life goes on,
That's what I do.
Because I feel unused, unhelpful, abandoned.
Life goes on
And even though I try
To shrug off the troubles I have had in the past,
Smiling,
Inside, I am extremely hurt
Stabbed sa pamamagitan ng my own friends
I am deserted
Even though I smile
I am hurt
I am betrayed.
I just started going on the path where my life had no light. I missed everyone from our school who graduated, and I really had many amazing mga kaibigan there. mga kaibigan who gave me memories that lasted forever...friends who helped me out when things got bad...friends who were always there for me. I know, however, that they will always continue to be in my heart, even as they went away from me. If they never come back, they will still have left hand prints on my puso that will never be washed away. Life without the light makes me feel so lonely...like a vagabond on the streets with no home...like an eagle with no prey...like me with no one to cry with. However sad this situation I find myself in...I still know that life will go on...and I must continue to strive to be the best I can be. Even without the warmth of my mga kaibigan close by, I know that they will always be sa pamamagitan ng my side even if they are not with me. All my mga kaibigan are the light in my life.