Hey guys sorry that i haven't added a new entry for this in like 7 months, i have been really busy with school, homework, tests, etc. if your interested please let me know because then i will just try to recap everything that has happened very often. so read on, fav please it would mean a lot! thanks now on with the story
One the first araw of school i still couldnt believe that Brent was on my team, that meant he'd be in a lot of my classes.On the araw back i wore a pretty new red and black stripe tuktok with a attached cover thing, but the sando had a beautiful puntas back with black jeans. When i walked in everyone gave me complements, i felt cool for once.
The teachers that were out showed where our advisories were. When i got to Mr. Wes's room i saw that Leo, one of the most popular guys was in my advisory. Leo and I used to be in the same 3rd grade class but after that we kinda grew distant. Maybe this taon we could become better friends. The rest of the araw we used our schedules to get to each class. So far i had a Brent-free morning and i wanted to keep it like that for the rest of the day. I was on my way to Mrs. O'Donnell's class for Language Arts, when i saw him.Brent was with his stupid mga kaibigan hanging out pagganap dumb as usual. They all were dressed in baggy shorts with weird band or skateboard t-shirts. I walked inside the classroom pretending NOT to care but deep inside my puso was breaking into a million pieces.
Guide #2- How to keep from crying when you really want to
1. Bat your eyes usually your eyelashes flutter the tears away
2. Surround yourself with people you know, like or love
3. If you feel like you might cry, come up with a believable excuse.
Examples:
"I have bad allergies","Oh i was rubbing my eyes a lot", "When i dont have my glasses on my eyes get irrated" or "My contacts hurt my eyes sometimes"
Anyway i quickly scanned the room to find someone i knew, to my luck i knew pretty much everyone in the class! I decided to sit susunod to Miracle, Violet, and Nick since we all had a little classroom club thing last taon in 6th grade. Nick and kulay-lila ahd been going out since 6th grade around May and were still together. They were the only ones in our clique to actually be in a relationship. It's kinda odd since Nick is a bit of a perverted freak but in a way where you got to pag-ibig him. kulay-lila on the other hand is a nice,sweet,and non-perverted. But in this case opposites attract.
When Mrs. O'Donnell the attention to herself she talked about her class and the rules she had, but pangkalahatang she seems like a nice teacher. After she was done talking, she put us in our assigned seats, i was obviously hoping that i wouldn't be placed anywhere near Brent and his stupid posse. When she called my name I was behind Melina and in fornt of Jason, but Brent was still pretty close by. Brent was in front of Emma who was actually in my advisory and in front of his friend SeVonn. I looked around to see who i was by, there was Anthony, Toba(who had a major attitude problem sometimes), some new kid, Nathaniel, and some other people i knew. I was in a pretty cool place. But it seemed i was still stuck in the NERD HERD!!! Or at least with the smart kids i guess...
When the perod was over we went to our other classes i had Spanish with Ms. Marvlin, she seemed like she knew her stuff but it was only the first day.There was Mya, Quentin, and Kiara(i knew her from kindergraten...she was actualy kinda my kindergraten stalker, she'd follow me everywhere on the playground!!)Anyway there werent as many mga kaibigan in my spanish class because all my freinds pretty much took French which is WAY palamigan THAN SPANISH!!!!
After Spanish i went back to Mrs. O'Donnell's for Science...again NOT as many friends! I had Miracle, Nick, Jason, Kayla, and Melina but last and definitely least i had Brent, which is wrong and weird because since we are NOT mga kaibigan we have NO CHEMISTRY! Since today was a half araw we had shorter periods so we were able to go to all our classes. We didnt go to our specials but i would have Technology. Next, i had Social Studies with Mr. Robin, then Math with Ms. Den, WHICH BRENT IS IN TOO...REALLY ARE YOU SERIOUS?!?!
Luckily, after math i have choir...Yes!! Choir is soooooo much fun, but the best part is that i know it's a class BRENT WON'T BE IN!!!! Thank goodness! I also think choir will be cool because i did the summer choir camp and it was a blast!! There was this 8th grader though, that i thought was pretty cool, I was hoping I'd see him there. He was funny, cool, tall everything about him was amazing...i wanted him to be mine.
When i walk into choir i get flashbacks of over the summer...oh what fun. I then realize that we have to find our folders which will be where we sit, I quickly look around the room my folder was sa pamamagitan ng Danielle in the Alto section. Mrs. Nolsen talks about her rules and expectations she has for us in the choir room. The kampanilya rings and its time for us to go she dismisses us sa pamamagitan ng rows and thats when i see him...the guy from the choir camp! I make my body go over and say hi to him when before i know it i trip and fall, dropping my books everywhere. Just then i see a tall, tan, guy helping me pick up books. When we're done picking up the books and folders i had i thank him.
"Thank You, I'm super clumsy"
"No problem, have i met you before?"he asked
"Actually you have...um at the choir camp over the summer...remember you were in my group?" I said
He didn't say anything,but on his face you could tell he was trying to remember who i was.
"Well i have to go now",I said,saving myself from anymore embarassment I could handle.
"Um...bye",he sinabi as he walked off.
As I packed my stuff i thought about everything that had happened. Yeah Brent may be in a lot of my classes but that doesn't mean I don't have other friends. Yeah, that guy didnt rememeber me but that doesn't mean he doesn't want to be my friend. And yeah just becasue I'm in 7th grade doesn't mean my life will be a big disaster.
Guide #3- How to See the Best in Every Situation
1. Think about the bad things
2. Think about the good things in that situation
3. Just believe that, one problem wont get you down
I know i dont need Brent all i need are mga kaibigan sa pamamagitan ng my side and if i have those i can do anything!!!!
One the first araw of school i still couldnt believe that Brent was on my team, that meant he'd be in a lot of my classes.On the araw back i wore a pretty new red and black stripe tuktok with a attached cover thing, but the sando had a beautiful puntas back with black jeans. When i walked in everyone gave me complements, i felt cool for once.
The teachers that were out showed where our advisories were. When i got to Mr. Wes's room i saw that Leo, one of the most popular guys was in my advisory. Leo and I used to be in the same 3rd grade class but after that we kinda grew distant. Maybe this taon we could become better friends. The rest of the araw we used our schedules to get to each class. So far i had a Brent-free morning and i wanted to keep it like that for the rest of the day. I was on my way to Mrs. O'Donnell's class for Language Arts, when i saw him.Brent was with his stupid mga kaibigan hanging out pagganap dumb as usual. They all were dressed in baggy shorts with weird band or skateboard t-shirts. I walked inside the classroom pretending NOT to care but deep inside my puso was breaking into a million pieces.
Guide #2- How to keep from crying when you really want to
1. Bat your eyes usually your eyelashes flutter the tears away
2. Surround yourself with people you know, like or love
3. If you feel like you might cry, come up with a believable excuse.
Examples:
"I have bad allergies","Oh i was rubbing my eyes a lot", "When i dont have my glasses on my eyes get irrated" or "My contacts hurt my eyes sometimes"
Anyway i quickly scanned the room to find someone i knew, to my luck i knew pretty much everyone in the class! I decided to sit susunod to Miracle, Violet, and Nick since we all had a little classroom club thing last taon in 6th grade. Nick and kulay-lila ahd been going out since 6th grade around May and were still together. They were the only ones in our clique to actually be in a relationship. It's kinda odd since Nick is a bit of a perverted freak but in a way where you got to pag-ibig him. kulay-lila on the other hand is a nice,sweet,and non-perverted. But in this case opposites attract.
When Mrs. O'Donnell the attention to herself she talked about her class and the rules she had, but pangkalahatang she seems like a nice teacher. After she was done talking, she put us in our assigned seats, i was obviously hoping that i wouldn't be placed anywhere near Brent and his stupid posse. When she called my name I was behind Melina and in fornt of Jason, but Brent was still pretty close by. Brent was in front of Emma who was actually in my advisory and in front of his friend SeVonn. I looked around to see who i was by, there was Anthony, Toba(who had a major attitude problem sometimes), some new kid, Nathaniel, and some other people i knew. I was in a pretty cool place. But it seemed i was still stuck in the NERD HERD!!! Or at least with the smart kids i guess...
When the perod was over we went to our other classes i had Spanish with Ms. Marvlin, she seemed like she knew her stuff but it was only the first day.There was Mya, Quentin, and Kiara(i knew her from kindergraten...she was actualy kinda my kindergraten stalker, she'd follow me everywhere on the playground!!)Anyway there werent as many mga kaibigan in my spanish class because all my freinds pretty much took French which is WAY palamigan THAN SPANISH!!!!
After Spanish i went back to Mrs. O'Donnell's for Science...again NOT as many friends! I had Miracle, Nick, Jason, Kayla, and Melina but last and definitely least i had Brent, which is wrong and weird because since we are NOT mga kaibigan we have NO CHEMISTRY! Since today was a half araw we had shorter periods so we were able to go to all our classes. We didnt go to our specials but i would have Technology. Next, i had Social Studies with Mr. Robin, then Math with Ms. Den, WHICH BRENT IS IN TOO...REALLY ARE YOU SERIOUS?!?!
Luckily, after math i have choir...Yes!! Choir is soooooo much fun, but the best part is that i know it's a class BRENT WON'T BE IN!!!! Thank goodness! I also think choir will be cool because i did the summer choir camp and it was a blast!! There was this 8th grader though, that i thought was pretty cool, I was hoping I'd see him there. He was funny, cool, tall everything about him was amazing...i wanted him to be mine.
When i walk into choir i get flashbacks of over the summer...oh what fun. I then realize that we have to find our folders which will be where we sit, I quickly look around the room my folder was sa pamamagitan ng Danielle in the Alto section. Mrs. Nolsen talks about her rules and expectations she has for us in the choir room. The kampanilya rings and its time for us to go she dismisses us sa pamamagitan ng rows and thats when i see him...the guy from the choir camp! I make my body go over and say hi to him when before i know it i trip and fall, dropping my books everywhere. Just then i see a tall, tan, guy helping me pick up books. When we're done picking up the books and folders i had i thank him.
"Thank You, I'm super clumsy"
"No problem, have i met you before?"he asked
"Actually you have...um at the choir camp over the summer...remember you were in my group?" I said
He didn't say anything,but on his face you could tell he was trying to remember who i was.
"Well i have to go now",I said,saving myself from anymore embarassment I could handle.
"Um...bye",he sinabi as he walked off.
As I packed my stuff i thought about everything that had happened. Yeah Brent may be in a lot of my classes but that doesn't mean I don't have other friends. Yeah, that guy didnt rememeber me but that doesn't mean he doesn't want to be my friend. And yeah just becasue I'm in 7th grade doesn't mean my life will be a big disaster.
Guide #3- How to See the Best in Every Situation
1. Think about the bad things
2. Think about the good things in that situation
3. Just believe that, one problem wont get you down
I know i dont need Brent all i need are mga kaibigan sa pamamagitan ng my side and if i have those i can do anything!!!!
Little Jack
Normally, this style just isn't me, but I feel like I needed to release all of my wrath, turning it into sadness, eventually.
So, I'm not an emo poem writer, but I just wanted to ilathala this piece I literally just wrote.
I am broken
There's no one left to fix me.
All hope is lost
There's so much I will never be.
I am broken
My world has been shattered.
All hope is lost
I am nothing, destroyed and battered.
I am broken
The world around me falls apart.
All hope is lost
There is no chance for a new start.
I am broken
I have been left here on my own.
All hope is lost
There's no one else; I am here alone.
I am broken
The pain is too much for me to bare.
All hope is lost
In the end, the others just don't care.
I was broken
No tears remain in my fearful eyes.
All hope is gone
My world ended with nothing but lies.
So, I'm not an emo poem writer, but I just wanted to ilathala this piece I literally just wrote.
I am broken
There's no one left to fix me.
All hope is lost
There's so much I will never be.
I am broken
My world has been shattered.
All hope is lost
I am nothing, destroyed and battered.
I am broken
The world around me falls apart.
All hope is lost
There is no chance for a new start.
I am broken
I have been left here on my own.
All hope is lost
There's no one else; I am here alone.
I am broken
The pain is too much for me to bare.
All hope is lost
In the end, the others just don't care.
I was broken
No tears remain in my fearful eyes.
All hope is gone
My world ended with nothing but lies.
That araw I thought I was a failure. I was sitting outside our house on a bench in my white dress, just staring at the dark sky while raindrops were running down my cheeks. It could have been tears as well, all I knew was that it was raining pretty hard.
As she noticed I was outside, she opened the door and told me to come inside, where it was warm. Her soft voice told me she was going to make some tsaa for me and that everything would be okay.
I didn't even look at her when I got up and started to run.
The damo felt wet and cold under my bare feet as I was running towards the nearby forest,...
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As she noticed I was outside, she opened the door and told me to come inside, where it was warm. Her soft voice told me she was going to make some tsaa for me and that everything would be okay.
I didn't even look at her when I got up and started to run.
The damo felt wet and cold under my bare feet as I was running towards the nearby forest,...
This is Molly Stray
im so sick.
im sick of everything about you.
i hate what you say,
what you do,
everything.
it sets off some spark,
that just angers me inside and out.
im so sick.
im sick of your laugh,
your smile,
your eyes,
everything.
i hate how you talk to me,
how you treat me,
what you think of me as.
im not your toy,
im not your anything.
i dont belong to you,
im not a possession.
im just me.
and im so sick.
sick of everything in this godforsaken world.
especially you.
and i dont want to be something
that hates and is sick
of everything.
im just sick of you.
and honestly...
i dont want to be with you
anymore.
im so sick.
im sick of everything about you.
i hate what you say,
what you do,
everything.
it sets off some spark,
that just angers me inside and out.
im so sick.
im sick of your laugh,
your smile,
your eyes,
everything.
i hate how you talk to me,
how you treat me,
what you think of me as.
im not your toy,
im not your anything.
i dont belong to you,
im not a possession.
im just me.
and im so sick.
sick of everything in this godforsaken world.
especially you.
and i dont want to be something
that hates and is sick
of everything.
im just sick of you.
and honestly...
i dont want to be with you
anymore.
im so sick.
