Genyva Salters
Cold Toes
Prologue
June 30, 2004
11:45 Open Door Eating
It’s the worst araw in the world for a lunch date. I look like hell my light brown hair was frizzing like a poodle. Damn this humid summer, only in Texas the humidity 90% all the time. And this place is like a hut; all the hot air coming from the windows is blowing out the A/C. How is any one able to enjoy lunch when they are drinking the air?
I looked over to Ethan, who was making his way towards the table. We had been together so long in this little town. I pag-ibig it to death but I think its time to ilipat out. Greene, Texas has nothing to offer me in the medical field. Sure, the college has gotten me started but I want to be an oncologist, and its just not here. Both of my parents had cancer in there lifetime. I just wanted to help other people get through it.
“Hi Rachel, ” Ethan looked hansom, the humidity was gleaming off him. He lived here all his live, I, on the other hand, moved here my junior taon in high school from San Francisco, California. It wasn’t just the way his perfectly tanned skin glistened in the humidity that made me fall for him, it was that dimple on his left cheek, the baby blue eyes with that messy black hair.
I stood to halik my wonderful boyfriend, “Hello Ethan, how are you?” I never ask stupid tanong like this. The world has been trained to answer ‘good’ no matter what. Then again I always ask stupid tanong when I'm nervous. I have no idea what is going on today and I'm sweating like a pig before the slaughterhouse.
“I'm good, you look beautiful.” He smiled, and took a slip of water. Ha! I look beautiful, this dress is much too tight and I'm bloated. Can he not see the swear marks under my arms. I wasn’t looking all that great.
All through lunch Ethan was anxious. What could be oh his mind? He looked down in his lap and at his pagkain when he would talk. He was debating telling me something. Oh God, I think he knows about Justin.
Justin was his best friend and 2 weeks nakaraan I accidentally slept with him. How do you accidentally sleep with you boyfriend’s best friend. We were at a party and I was drunk we had just got into a huge fight before. I left and went upstairs to a room and Justin was in there what was I suppose to do, talk about my feeling. I feel awful I want to tell him but its too much pain, I cant even thing about it.
“Ok I have to ask you something,” he insisted. I don't think he knows. He wouldn’t be so calm. He would be much angrier. My puso began to pound when he reached over the mesa and held my hand. He looked in to my eyes. I didn’t know what I looked like right now. Frighten, nervous, panicked, they were all jumbled across my face. I curved my lips up into a smile, “What is it.” I sinabi moving a strand of hair behind my ear with my empty hand.
“I want to ilipat to Delaware with you,” he sinabi breathing heavily. “I know you applied there for medical school so I decided I want to go with you I mean we just graduated college, and I don’t need anymore school, so there is no point in staying here.” He went on about what his parents think, but I stopped listening.
He knew about Delaware. I didn’t even tell him, I wasn’t even sure if I got accepted to Harp Medical School. I had been looking at schools in the area and I applied to Marlon’s and Harrington’s just outside of the Huston metropolitan area hoping we could stay close to home. He was really going to be there for me. He was going to follow me in my hope to becoming a doctor. I felt my eyes water up, I bit my bottom lip and mid sentence, I leaned over the mesa and I kissed him. This was the sweetest thing any one has ever done for me.
“Wow I haven’t even gotten to the best part yet.” He mumbled as I sat back down. The best part, there was something better then this. What could be better following me wherever I decide to go? I lightly chucked and whipped the tear from my eye.
He stood up and kneeled beside me. Oh god no this was not happening “Rachel Brian, I pag-ibig you with all my heart. I will do anything for you. You are my life and I will follow you wherever you will go. Will you merry me?” he held my ring, the ring I had dreamed of since I was a girl. A ginto band with sliver trimming. All my life I hated diamonds and I have never worn any, he new that. New tears welled up in my hazels eyes.
Marriage. The word ran threw my ever fiber turning off all the responses in my body. I sat there in awe. Marriage. I had never thought of this before. I thought it would be an awful thing. My oldest sister had been married 3 time and she wasn’t even 45 yet, I'm 21, I still have my whole life ahead of me am I really ready for this. Marriage. The nerves in my head just couldn’t click to that word. It’s was a bad word. Marriage. I didn’t deserve to use this word. I cheated on him. Will this make it better? Marriage.
If I say yes then what, we stay here till the end of the summer and get married just before school. But if I say no then this will crush both of us. My brain is saying no and that I have so much ahead of me. I'm going to be a great doctor in 4 years why can I just wait. My puso is saying you’ve waited long enough. But you’re too young and you’re not ready.
I had been with him since freshmen taon in college. Yeah, it took 4 years to get to this araw but I wasn’t ready for this. Do I say ‘not this taon Ethan, try again in 06’ no I can’t this was it I had to say something now. For better or worst. Richer unto poor. I do. I do pag-ibig you so lets go make a public statement.
The color was draining out of his face “Rachel?” he sinabi slightly blushing. I'm not ready I don't have my answer yet I need a minuto to think.
I Nawawala all connection to my puso and brain, my lips took over instead. “Yes Ethan Ellison I would pag-ibig to merry you” relief took over his whole body as he placed the ring on my left hand.
My brain was screaming idiot and my puso sinabi if you must. I let out a big breath and hugged my fiancé.
Cold Toes
Prologue
June 30, 2004
11:45 Open Door Eating
It’s the worst araw in the world for a lunch date. I look like hell my light brown hair was frizzing like a poodle. Damn this humid summer, only in Texas the humidity 90% all the time. And this place is like a hut; all the hot air coming from the windows is blowing out the A/C. How is any one able to enjoy lunch when they are drinking the air?
I looked over to Ethan, who was making his way towards the table. We had been together so long in this little town. I pag-ibig it to death but I think its time to ilipat out. Greene, Texas has nothing to offer me in the medical field. Sure, the college has gotten me started but I want to be an oncologist, and its just not here. Both of my parents had cancer in there lifetime. I just wanted to help other people get through it.
“Hi Rachel, ” Ethan looked hansom, the humidity was gleaming off him. He lived here all his live, I, on the other hand, moved here my junior taon in high school from San Francisco, California. It wasn’t just the way his perfectly tanned skin glistened in the humidity that made me fall for him, it was that dimple on his left cheek, the baby blue eyes with that messy black hair.
I stood to halik my wonderful boyfriend, “Hello Ethan, how are you?” I never ask stupid tanong like this. The world has been trained to answer ‘good’ no matter what. Then again I always ask stupid tanong when I'm nervous. I have no idea what is going on today and I'm sweating like a pig before the slaughterhouse.
“I'm good, you look beautiful.” He smiled, and took a slip of water. Ha! I look beautiful, this dress is much too tight and I'm bloated. Can he not see the swear marks under my arms. I wasn’t looking all that great.
All through lunch Ethan was anxious. What could be oh his mind? He looked down in his lap and at his pagkain when he would talk. He was debating telling me something. Oh God, I think he knows about Justin.
Justin was his best friend and 2 weeks nakaraan I accidentally slept with him. How do you accidentally sleep with you boyfriend’s best friend. We were at a party and I was drunk we had just got into a huge fight before. I left and went upstairs to a room and Justin was in there what was I suppose to do, talk about my feeling. I feel awful I want to tell him but its too much pain, I cant even thing about it.
“Ok I have to ask you something,” he insisted. I don't think he knows. He wouldn’t be so calm. He would be much angrier. My puso began to pound when he reached over the mesa and held my hand. He looked in to my eyes. I didn’t know what I looked like right now. Frighten, nervous, panicked, they were all jumbled across my face. I curved my lips up into a smile, “What is it.” I sinabi moving a strand of hair behind my ear with my empty hand.
“I want to ilipat to Delaware with you,” he sinabi breathing heavily. “I know you applied there for medical school so I decided I want to go with you I mean we just graduated college, and I don’t need anymore school, so there is no point in staying here.” He went on about what his parents think, but I stopped listening.
He knew about Delaware. I didn’t even tell him, I wasn’t even sure if I got accepted to Harp Medical School. I had been looking at schools in the area and I applied to Marlon’s and Harrington’s just outside of the Huston metropolitan area hoping we could stay close to home. He was really going to be there for me. He was going to follow me in my hope to becoming a doctor. I felt my eyes water up, I bit my bottom lip and mid sentence, I leaned over the mesa and I kissed him. This was the sweetest thing any one has ever done for me.
“Wow I haven’t even gotten to the best part yet.” He mumbled as I sat back down. The best part, there was something better then this. What could be better following me wherever I decide to go? I lightly chucked and whipped the tear from my eye.
He stood up and kneeled beside me. Oh god no this was not happening “Rachel Brian, I pag-ibig you with all my heart. I will do anything for you. You are my life and I will follow you wherever you will go. Will you merry me?” he held my ring, the ring I had dreamed of since I was a girl. A ginto band with sliver trimming. All my life I hated diamonds and I have never worn any, he new that. New tears welled up in my hazels eyes.
Marriage. The word ran threw my ever fiber turning off all the responses in my body. I sat there in awe. Marriage. I had never thought of this before. I thought it would be an awful thing. My oldest sister had been married 3 time and she wasn’t even 45 yet, I'm 21, I still have my whole life ahead of me am I really ready for this. Marriage. The nerves in my head just couldn’t click to that word. It’s was a bad word. Marriage. I didn’t deserve to use this word. I cheated on him. Will this make it better? Marriage.
If I say yes then what, we stay here till the end of the summer and get married just before school. But if I say no then this will crush both of us. My brain is saying no and that I have so much ahead of me. I'm going to be a great doctor in 4 years why can I just wait. My puso is saying you’ve waited long enough. But you’re too young and you’re not ready.
I had been with him since freshmen taon in college. Yeah, it took 4 years to get to this araw but I wasn’t ready for this. Do I say ‘not this taon Ethan, try again in 06’ no I can’t this was it I had to say something now. For better or worst. Richer unto poor. I do. I do pag-ibig you so lets go make a public statement.
The color was draining out of his face “Rachel?” he sinabi slightly blushing. I'm not ready I don't have my answer yet I need a minuto to think.
I Nawawala all connection to my puso and brain, my lips took over instead. “Yes Ethan Ellison I would pag-ibig to merry you” relief took over his whole body as he placed the ring on my left hand.
My brain was screaming idiot and my puso sinabi if you must. I let out a big breath and hugged my fiancé.
another monday,at waysway high school. Vanessa for hated school for mainly for 1 reason. susan.katie.ashlee.the meanest,popular,and prettiest girls in the school.they always taunt vanessa for being different. people thought ashe was different for her personality,but,that wasnt the only reason.
there was only one girl who didnt care if she was different.kylie.kylie was the smartest gilr in school,thats why she got made fun of. she was a nerd. though she had no braces,gloasses,or anything.in fact,vanessa thought kylie was prettier than susan,ashle,or katie.
People think they know vanessa,but,they dont,not yet. she had a very terrible,scary,and strange experiance.when you hear it,it may seem like a dream,but,its all true.its not a lie.its not a tall tale.its a true story. 100% true
this the satory of Vanessa Colorado.
there was only one girl who didnt care if she was different.kylie.kylie was the smartest gilr in school,thats why she got made fun of. she was a nerd. though she had no braces,gloasses,or anything.in fact,vanessa thought kylie was prettier than susan,ashle,or katie.
People think they know vanessa,but,they dont,not yet. she had a very terrible,scary,and strange experiance.when you hear it,it may seem like a dream,but,its all true.its not a lie.its not a tall tale.its a true story. 100% true
this the satory of Vanessa Colorado.
Serena
Kayla was raped in her own house.
What's more, her dad is reported to have committed suicide. Before he even heard that his own daughter needed him.
When I was little, I always had the blind faith in my mom. That she would always know which way to turn on the road. That if we got lost, everything would be fine.
That she would never desert me. Like Kayla's father has.
The girl is slumped against the wall, crying. You'd think that you'd eventually run out of tears, but you don't. It's just that, after a while, maybe you just don't have the strength to carry on any more.
You can dry up the tears you see, but you can never dry up the tears your puso sheds. Because when you cry, your puso gives up a little piece of itself that will always grieve. Always. I have every reason to know.
I put my hand on her shoulder, and she doesn't shake it off.
Kayla was raped in her own house.
What's more, her dad is reported to have committed suicide. Before he even heard that his own daughter needed him.
When I was little, I always had the blind faith in my mom. That she would always know which way to turn on the road. That if we got lost, everything would be fine.
That she would never desert me. Like Kayla's father has.
The girl is slumped against the wall, crying. You'd think that you'd eventually run out of tears, but you don't. It's just that, after a while, maybe you just don't have the strength to carry on any more.
You can dry up the tears you see, but you can never dry up the tears your puso sheds. Because when you cry, your puso gives up a little piece of itself that will always grieve. Always. I have every reason to know.
I put my hand on her shoulder, and she doesn't shake it off.
I hate you
But I just can’t seem to break you
Do I want you here?
Do I want you gone?
Everyone says your such a tease
But not to me
Are you real?
Are you fake?
Do I need to be
With this drama queen
You spout lies
No truth to be found
Why am I still
Trying to see the good in you?
Is it worth it?
Should I listen to them?
They tell me to go
Before I’m a victim
Of you mighty undoing
I won’t fall
I’ve made a promise
Can I keep it?
Will I leave?
Will I remain?
Promises
Sins
They all appear
The same
Lies
Sentences
Preach the
Difference
I’m listening to you
I can’t break you
I’m falling now
No one to catch me
Do I leave now
That I’ve fallen
Are you worth my time?
Am I worth this pain?
God, help me choose
For this is not my decision
Any longer
I’ve put my faith in my despair
Now ipakita me the answer
Tell me what to do
Do I stay
Or do I leave you?
But I just can’t seem to break you
Do I want you here?
Do I want you gone?
Everyone says your such a tease
But not to me
Are you real?
Are you fake?
Do I need to be
With this drama queen
You spout lies
No truth to be found
Why am I still
Trying to see the good in you?
Is it worth it?
Should I listen to them?
They tell me to go
Before I’m a victim
Of you mighty undoing
I won’t fall
I’ve made a promise
Can I keep it?
Will I leave?
Will I remain?
Promises
Sins
They all appear
The same
Lies
Sentences
Preach the
Difference
I’m listening to you
I can’t break you
I’m falling now
No one to catch me
Do I leave now
That I’ve fallen
Are you worth my time?
Am I worth this pain?
God, help me choose
For this is not my decision
Any longer
I’ve put my faith in my despair
Now ipakita me the answer
Tell me what to do
Do I stay
Or do I leave you?