I saw the look on his face. His immediate disbelief. (My immediate disbelief.) This could not be happening. I mean I didn't actually pag-ibig him like that could I? I have known this dude since the 3rd grade, it would make sense but not for Matthew And I. We are always the exception to that whole best mga kaibigan fall in pag-ibig thing. I mean I pag-ibig Matthew as a friend but not like that! I couldn't think straight. My head was spinning. And just when I thought it couldn't get any worse...,
"I pag-ibig you too."
Crap! Are you serious? i'm already freaking out because I sinabi it and now you say it! He doesn't mean that. There is no way he means that right. I think this has just gotten out of hand.
There was just complete silence in the room. The only thing left to hear in the room was our 100mph puso beats. We could not look at each other. So much had gone on in this past two hours but this just put the icing on the cake.
Then I made the biggest mistake. I glanced at him. He glanced back at me right the same moment and we caught each others eye. Then I knew he felt it; because I felt it. That sudden urge. That fight that I just couldn't win. But before I knew it His lips were on mine, pressing with passion and love. To my surprise mine did the exact same thing. I could feel his halik sinking deeper and deeper into my soul. We both knew that we should stop but we couldn't resist. It was too late now.
This went on for another minuto until I felt him push off. That stung my puso like a bee.
A few minutos past and I was already laying down in the guest bed. It was only a few segundos after he saw I was already to sleep that he slid under the covers with me.(We dont believe in sex before marriage.) Matthew just put his arm around me. I rested my head on his rocky chest and slowly faded into my sleep. Nothing had been sinabi since he had cut off the kiss.
Around seven in the morning I heard noises and I could have sworn I felt Matt give me a halik on my forehead and then I slowly drifted back to sleep. Sure enough when I woke up the susunod morning that cold rocky chest that I had once rested upon was gone. I saw a small note where he had been last night.
"Sorry I had to leave love. My dad needed me. Forgive Me. i pag-ibig you...-Matthew"
Yes I was smiling inside but at the same time I thought to myself,
"What have I started?" Am I with him now? Well, he wouldn't call me pag-ibig for just any old reason. Yes a part of me did want him here with me all the time and the other part of me saw Matthew as my best friend and nothing more. I dont know what to do anymore. Could I really have fallen for my best friend like the way they do in those cheesy movies? I mean Matthew does mean a lot to me but...I just dont know what to do.
I heard a car door slam and I ran to the window. Sure enough it was Matthew and his dad. You could tell that they had a an inside joke going on because they walked in the house laughing. When I heard footsteps on the stairs I ran to the bathroom to fix my hair. It didn't take too long because my hair is pretty short. But not weird short.
He walked in quietly, probably thinking i was still asleep. The mirror faced the room so I saw him throw his leather dyaket on the kama and just smile at me. He saw me crack a grin in the mirror.
I just ran towards him(Lol).
"Aww No..No!" He was already smiling my paborito smile sa pamamagitan ng the time he caught me in his arms. He picked me up as if I was as light as a feather, which I'm not, and just embraced me.
"Mmmmm, I missed you."
I think I do pag-ibig him.
"I pag-ibig you too."
Crap! Are you serious? i'm already freaking out because I sinabi it and now you say it! He doesn't mean that. There is no way he means that right. I think this has just gotten out of hand.
There was just complete silence in the room. The only thing left to hear in the room was our 100mph puso beats. We could not look at each other. So much had gone on in this past two hours but this just put the icing on the cake.
Then I made the biggest mistake. I glanced at him. He glanced back at me right the same moment and we caught each others eye. Then I knew he felt it; because I felt it. That sudden urge. That fight that I just couldn't win. But before I knew it His lips were on mine, pressing with passion and love. To my surprise mine did the exact same thing. I could feel his halik sinking deeper and deeper into my soul. We both knew that we should stop but we couldn't resist. It was too late now.
This went on for another minuto until I felt him push off. That stung my puso like a bee.
A few minutos past and I was already laying down in the guest bed. It was only a few segundos after he saw I was already to sleep that he slid under the covers with me.(We dont believe in sex before marriage.) Matthew just put his arm around me. I rested my head on his rocky chest and slowly faded into my sleep. Nothing had been sinabi since he had cut off the kiss.
Around seven in the morning I heard noises and I could have sworn I felt Matt give me a halik on my forehead and then I slowly drifted back to sleep. Sure enough when I woke up the susunod morning that cold rocky chest that I had once rested upon was gone. I saw a small note where he had been last night.
"Sorry I had to leave love. My dad needed me. Forgive Me. i pag-ibig you...-Matthew"
Yes I was smiling inside but at the same time I thought to myself,
"What have I started?" Am I with him now? Well, he wouldn't call me pag-ibig for just any old reason. Yes a part of me did want him here with me all the time and the other part of me saw Matthew as my best friend and nothing more. I dont know what to do anymore. Could I really have fallen for my best friend like the way they do in those cheesy movies? I mean Matthew does mean a lot to me but...I just dont know what to do.
I heard a car door slam and I ran to the window. Sure enough it was Matthew and his dad. You could tell that they had a an inside joke going on because they walked in the house laughing. When I heard footsteps on the stairs I ran to the bathroom to fix my hair. It didn't take too long because my hair is pretty short. But not weird short.
He walked in quietly, probably thinking i was still asleep. The mirror faced the room so I saw him throw his leather dyaket on the kama and just smile at me. He saw me crack a grin in the mirror.
I just ran towards him(Lol).
"Aww No..No!" He was already smiling my paborito smile sa pamamagitan ng the time he caught me in his arms. He picked me up as if I was as light as a feather, which I'm not, and just embraced me.
"Mmmmm, I missed you."
I think I do pag-ibig him.
January 15, 1815
Journal,
Its cold. My pagkain is almost gone, I can’t feel my hands. I Nawawala my hat; my ears are frozen. My sisters are dying. Sasha has pneumonia, and Nastea’s Nawawala her amerikana and shoes. My hair is falling out. I look at the broken down train behind us. Tree’s sleep soundlessly on tuktok of it. I sit at a puno trunk, with you on my lap, and a scrawny pencil in my hand. Nastea sits beside Sasha, feeding her berries and herbs. I hope things get better, Journal. I hope things get better.
Bye Journal,
Nadia
Journal,
Its cold. My pagkain is almost gone, I can’t feel my hands. I Nawawala my hat; my ears are frozen. My sisters are dying. Sasha has pneumonia, and Nastea’s Nawawala her amerikana and shoes. My hair is falling out. I look at the broken down train behind us. Tree’s sleep soundlessly on tuktok of it. I sit at a puno trunk, with you on my lap, and a scrawny pencil in my hand. Nastea sits beside Sasha, feeding her berries and herbs. I hope things get better, Journal. I hope things get better.
Bye Journal,
Nadia
she unloads his gun
She and he waits for this
he releases his love
In blue and green orbs
she gives him madami and more
A million miles away
A million years girl
In a black woven chest
he digs his nails deep
She trusts in him for what he does
live in a house in the suburbs
He kisses the pain with blood and light
sleeping it off in the morning
A million miles away
A million years girl
In her world of his
she unloads his gun
In a world of his
she covers the sun
A million miles away
A million years
A million years girl