So I don't know if I'm even goiing to continue this or not. But could you do me a favour and give it a read?
Run, musn't stop running. Can't look back, it's too late now, he's going to chatch up any minute. She was going to get caught, she's going to die.
4 days earlier.
Fear.Pain.Death.Alexis Baker was having another one of her nightmares, ones that she could hardly remember the araw after, but the pain and misery allways got left behind. Allways. A cold sweat covered her face and her whole body was shaking, her hands clenched and her feet twitched. She began to call out, muble words that were to faint to understand.
"Alexis time to get up honey," there was a soft knock at the door then an older women walked in, her face falling in recognisation. She sat on the egde of Alexis's kama and wiped the sweat from her face from a cloth that was in her hand. She took and deep breath before saying her name, a little louder than before, and shaking her gently. A deafening scream came from Alexis as she sat up in shock, she began to lash out and attack the woman.
"Hush, shh, Alex honey it's me. Shh I'm here hooney mum's here.." she crooned, patting down her daughters kama hair. Alexis began to cry and clinged to her mother, who whispered comferting words and soon she began to calm down.
'mum, i-i can't remember..i can't" Alexis mumbled so weakly that her voice broke on the last word. Her mother smiled down at her, and whispered in her ear that it was better that way.
Alexis sat at her kusina mesa munching on an everlasting piece of taose, trying desperately to remember her hellish dreams.Her mother wizzed about the kusina talking to herself about everything she must do.
"Oh before I forget, did you take your medication?" she asked coming to a halt and satring her daughter down. Alexis grumbled, and muttered something under her breath.
"Alexis?"She sinabi her voice growing in anger.ALexis stood up , pushed her chair back with such force that it banged against the pader directly behind it. Marching over to the sink she grabbed a cup half filled it with water, sat it on the counter and left the kitchen. She returned with a small botttle of little tablets in it. once she had swallowed five, she grabbed her school bag and left without a good bye.
it was a beautifull araw and the sun shined reaching every hidden corner. Alexis loved days like this, days that seemed still, days that didnt remeind her of her sleepless nights. Adventually she made it to school, and immediatley looked for her friends.
"Lily!" She yelled at a group of girls that were standing at the huge iron gates, with "Primrose High" in huge bold letters.The gorup of girls moved away when Alexis arrived huddling together, whispering.
"Oh, uy ALex,"Lilly mumbled looking down at her feet. Alexis fell the uncomfertability asked about it staright.
'Lilly? whats the matter?" She asked touching her freinds shoulder Lilly plled away from her.
'Alexis someone found your file, the one about your last school they photocopied it and posted it about school. Alexis what did you do?" She sinabi running away from her. alexis closed her eyes and a painfull tear slid down her cheek, she can forget her dreams, btu she can nevr forget the past.
Run, musn't stop running. Can't look back, it's too late now, he's going to chatch up any minute. She was going to get caught, she's going to die.
4 days earlier.
Fear.Pain.Death.Alexis Baker was having another one of her nightmares, ones that she could hardly remember the araw after, but the pain and misery allways got left behind. Allways. A cold sweat covered her face and her whole body was shaking, her hands clenched and her feet twitched. She began to call out, muble words that were to faint to understand.
"Alexis time to get up honey," there was a soft knock at the door then an older women walked in, her face falling in recognisation. She sat on the egde of Alexis's kama and wiped the sweat from her face from a cloth that was in her hand. She took and deep breath before saying her name, a little louder than before, and shaking her gently. A deafening scream came from Alexis as she sat up in shock, she began to lash out and attack the woman.
"Hush, shh, Alex honey it's me. Shh I'm here hooney mum's here.." she crooned, patting down her daughters kama hair. Alexis began to cry and clinged to her mother, who whispered comferting words and soon she began to calm down.
'mum, i-i can't remember..i can't" Alexis mumbled so weakly that her voice broke on the last word. Her mother smiled down at her, and whispered in her ear that it was better that way.
Alexis sat at her kusina mesa munching on an everlasting piece of taose, trying desperately to remember her hellish dreams.Her mother wizzed about the kusina talking to herself about everything she must do.
"Oh before I forget, did you take your medication?" she asked coming to a halt and satring her daughter down. Alexis grumbled, and muttered something under her breath.
"Alexis?"She sinabi her voice growing in anger.ALexis stood up , pushed her chair back with such force that it banged against the pader directly behind it. Marching over to the sink she grabbed a cup half filled it with water, sat it on the counter and left the kitchen. She returned with a small botttle of little tablets in it. once she had swallowed five, she grabbed her school bag and left without a good bye.
it was a beautifull araw and the sun shined reaching every hidden corner. Alexis loved days like this, days that seemed still, days that didnt remeind her of her sleepless nights. Adventually she made it to school, and immediatley looked for her friends.
"Lily!" She yelled at a group of girls that were standing at the huge iron gates, with "Primrose High" in huge bold letters.The gorup of girls moved away when Alexis arrived huddling together, whispering.
"Oh, uy ALex,"Lilly mumbled looking down at her feet. Alexis fell the uncomfertability asked about it staright.
'Lilly? whats the matter?" She asked touching her freinds shoulder Lilly plled away from her.
'Alexis someone found your file, the one about your last school they photocopied it and posted it about school. Alexis what did you do?" She sinabi running away from her. alexis closed her eyes and a painfull tear slid down her cheek, she can forget her dreams, btu she can nevr forget the past.
I needed more, more! I threw the book across the dimly lit, wooden attic. The book hit a stack of old newspapers. I tore open yet another book. Nothing would give me my answers.
Why did I feel the need to care for Lucy? Why could I not get Alexander out of my head?
There were pages, and pages of the thought process, but nothing to explain what I felt! Why could no one manage to capture these feelings, and explain them?
A knock on the door interrupted me. “What?” I snapped.
“It is past midnight, Damien. Come to bed,” sinabi Grey through the door.
“I’ll come when I want to. Now, go away!” Could she not understand I was confused, and angry? She possessed such naivety.
“Fine!” Grey yelled. I heard her storm down the steps. Then I heard her bedroom door slam. I let out a puff of air.
Then I threw another book against the wall. I kicked the whole stack of books, and watched as they toppled over. I threw myself onto the floor, and began crying.
Why did I feel the need to care for Lucy? Why could I not get Alexander out of my head?
There were pages, and pages of the thought process, but nothing to explain what I felt! Why could no one manage to capture these feelings, and explain them?
A knock on the door interrupted me. “What?” I snapped.
“It is past midnight, Damien. Come to bed,” sinabi Grey through the door.
“I’ll come when I want to. Now, go away!” Could she not understand I was confused, and angry? She possessed such naivety.
“Fine!” Grey yelled. I heard her storm down the steps. Then I heard her bedroom door slam. I let out a puff of air.
Then I threw another book against the wall. I kicked the whole stack of books, and watched as they toppled over. I threw myself onto the floor, and began crying.
upset
and so many thoughts
circling around
your head,
you try to make
this right,
to find the best way
so you could feel better,
so you could be free.
Pain will never
go away,
it always stays
to remember you
that life is not a dream,
life is unpredictable.
Endless questions,
so many "Why",
but the answer
we will
never find!
The strength within
will not let us crack,
life is unpredictable,
who's to say?
Today you're happy,
and yet
despair waits
stealthily
to engulf you.
But,
you need to be prepared.
Not only bad things
happen to bad people.
Unfortunately,
so many pure,
honored hearts
have been broken for
so many times,
in so many pieces,
and yet
they live,
they live with
their agony,
they live with
their groan,
but they live,
tho their eyes are
always sad,
their hearts are
still softly.
Therefore
they know...
Therefore
they are...
The brightest star
that shines
in the dark,
that spark of hope
for all of us
who deserve better.
When you look at the night sky, what do you see?
In my eyes,
I see the moon as a peaceful spirit,
watching over me.
When you stop and listen to the wind, what do you hear?
In my eyes,
The wind sings to me and tells tales.
When you feel the sun on your back, what do you think?
In my eyes,
The sun reaches out and gives me a warm smile.
When you hear a flowing stream, how does it sound?
In my eyes,
The stream is floating in my puso and soul, drifting on and on.
When you look at me, what do you see?
In my eyes,
I see an average girl who is silently struggling inside.
But that's all in my eyes.
In my eyes,
I see the moon as a peaceful spirit,
watching over me.
When you stop and listen to the wind, what do you hear?
In my eyes,
The wind sings to me and tells tales.
When you feel the sun on your back, what do you think?
In my eyes,
The sun reaches out and gives me a warm smile.
When you hear a flowing stream, how does it sound?
In my eyes,
The stream is floating in my puso and soul, drifting on and on.
When you look at me, what do you see?
In my eyes,
I see an average girl who is silently struggling inside.
But that's all in my eyes.
Its too dark
Too dark to see what is going on
Tripping over the couch
Slamming into the wall
stepping on the remote
It was too dark
The undone dishes
The scattered roses
The broken picture
My broken heart
It was too dark
Believing it would change
That he would change
A Waste
A waste of my time
My Effort
The “No Messages” left on my phone
It was too dark
It was too dark to see what had happened
Too dark to try to fix things
Its just too dark
Someone turn on the light
That light bulb in my head of what Ive done wrong
Its too dark
Too dark to see what is going on
Tripping over the couch
Slamming into the wall
stepping on the remote
It was too dark
The undone dishes
The scattered roses
The broken picture
My broken heart
It was too dark
Believing it would change
That he would change
A Waste
A waste of my time
My Effort
The “No Messages” left on my phone
It was too dark
It was too dark to see what had happened
Too dark to try to fix things
Its just too dark
Someone turn on the light
That light bulb in my head of what Ive done wrong
Its too dark
Pain!!
