Dear Doris,
You know I like you already. And I know you sinabi you didn't like me all that much. We both know this already. So this letter is so you know how I felt in the aftermath.
When you gave me your answer, I felt relieved that I got it over and done with. But slowly, the realization started to sink in and I grew sad and mad and confused. I realized that I spent a good 5 years completely head over heels for you and now, nothing. I don't have you in the way I hoped. I've been having weird surges of sadness and anger ever since because I just can't contain myself anymore.
I tried getting over you, Doris. I really did. But everytime I think of you... I just know I won't be able to. It's been getting increasingly difficult to function at a efficient level because of you and this and... I just wish I could just let go... But I can't. And I fear I'm going insane for you. I don't want to go crazy, but I know it will be a beautiful fall into insanity because I would've went crazy for you.
I'm not trying to make you feel bad. I'm honestly trying to vent my feelings. I wasn't even planning on telling you any of this, but I realized that I needed to get it out when just thinking of this makes me want to cry and throw a chair at the same time.
I just need to get to the point, don't I? I guess there really isn't one. I just have to say something. It's not your fault that I got so upset over this. I was too attached and had gotten my hopes too high. But now I'm really messed up and I guess I should tell you. Oh yeah, and no, I'm not okay. Oh well... It's better to have loved and Nawawala than to have never loved at all, I guess.
Love,
Kowalski
You know I like you already. And I know you sinabi you didn't like me all that much. We both know this already. So this letter is so you know how I felt in the aftermath.
When you gave me your answer, I felt relieved that I got it over and done with. But slowly, the realization started to sink in and I grew sad and mad and confused. I realized that I spent a good 5 years completely head over heels for you and now, nothing. I don't have you in the way I hoped. I've been having weird surges of sadness and anger ever since because I just can't contain myself anymore.
I tried getting over you, Doris. I really did. But everytime I think of you... I just know I won't be able to. It's been getting increasingly difficult to function at a efficient level because of you and this and... I just wish I could just let go... But I can't. And I fear I'm going insane for you. I don't want to go crazy, but I know it will be a beautiful fall into insanity because I would've went crazy for you.
I'm not trying to make you feel bad. I'm honestly trying to vent my feelings. I wasn't even planning on telling you any of this, but I realized that I needed to get it out when just thinking of this makes me want to cry and throw a chair at the same time.
I just need to get to the point, don't I? I guess there really isn't one. I just have to say something. It's not your fault that I got so upset over this. I was too attached and had gotten my hopes too high. But now I'm really messed up and I guess I should tell you. Oh yeah, and no, I'm not okay. Oh well... It's better to have loved and Nawawala than to have never loved at all, I guess.
Love,
Kowalski
