How do you experience your sexuality or lack there of?

I don't. I literally just do not.

The closest I come to anything sexual is humor. Like I can have a dirty sense of humor. In seriousness the closest I come is looking at a person and being able to appreciate attractiveness/aesthetic when I see it. But that's about it.

It has a remote control: When I feel like using it, I'll perv on a girl. Or I'll use my sense of humor to mess with my mga kaibigan in a perverted way. Ie flirting, groping, getting uncomfortably close, pretending we're in a relationship XD I do it to some trolls too just to make them uncomfortable because I joke flirt in a very creepy, Yandere-like fashion.

My sexuality is madami or less a complicated grid that I configure constantly.

And I either use it for my own pleasure or I joke about it or do other things. Sometimes I'll venture out of it and make jokes that are geared to sexualities that aren't my own.

Pretty much as single guy pleasure myself with porn. If I go in public I can control my sexual urges if I saw a hot babe
as a muslim Guy I can't have sex unless with my wife. So I am handling it pretty good.

I don't really to be honest but I can see why someone is attractive but never in a sexual way. I don't know just always been like that but I could find dirty jokes funny at times.

Honestly, ever since I reached a little bit before my Teenage years, I have been horny 24/7 XD Not saying that this is perfectly normal and I'm probably exaggerating for the most part but that's how my urges are. The way my hormones work. That Libido of mine has been shown to be particularly high. I control things of course. Just as Cesar mentioned, everything is akin to a remote control that I select to switch on or off. My relief on that matter involves either pleasuring myself sa pamamagitan ng watching / pagbaba Porn as well as fantasizing on my own or making out with my selected partner. I am Heterosexual so I'm being attracted sa pamamagitan ng the opposite Genre. Where my Lust / Perviness is being directed. That being said, just like others before me, I often use it as a joke as well and not just involving my very own Sexuality but venturing outside of it involving other ones too. My flirtiness is heavily supported sa pamamagitan ng my sense of humor. That's the basic gist of things !!!!

Girl on Girl porn.. and crying myself to sleep

Um..um.. with sex? :v

I feel slight urges a few times a taon and feel selfish for them later. I would never actually do the deed though. (Not that I have a problem with the concept of sex for the right reasons, but I'm just so strictly demisexual that I could never see myself doing it unless I have a deep connection with a single person and am only doing it out of the desire for unity with that individual rather than any sense of lust or desire.)

Hey, you asked me to get personal. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯